🙏 From The Heart: A Quiet Apology

Some of my BSD facial headcannons! (Also I drew this before I figured out how to draw Chuuyas hair so it looks kinda fucked pls ignore that)

Also funny coincidence that I gave every character in a popular pairing w Dazai (Chuuya, Kunikida, Fyodor) a rectangular face shape.

holy shit...no way...is that? BSD BAND AU CONTENT !??! explodes

Thinking of doing a series of little arts with each member of the DoA band in the AU as a Will Wood song because they are Will Wood adjacent to me (blame Fyolai for excreting neurodivergence and non-conformity all over their songwriting /aff)

Anywayyssss first installment in the series we have Fyodor as White Noise!

Reasons for picking this song:

The song is generally agreed to have themes of meaning, specifically feeling things are meaningless and finding meaning for yourself in inherently meaningless things

Some people interpret the song to also be how capitalism and consumer culture strips art of meaning or waters down what is considered art and why

The last verse gives me inexplicable Fyodor energy (" you fill your head with thoughts you find you can't even feel. Try to make room in your skull but it's full them. All of the things that you think about think about thinking. I know it's hard, but they're not who you are: They're white noise. ")

Bonus: As far as I'm aware, this is the only Will Wood song that uses cello, so. :3

I just found out recently that Will said the song is actually about suicide and depression...but also as the extension its about not being able to find meaning even in the things you create yourself so it still works.

If anyone cares enough to theorise I would love to hear it <3

Reblog if its ok for your moots to stalk your blog and interact with everything you've posted.

Oughhh fem!PMzai my mentally ill meowmeow

(Tw for artistic nudity, full piece beneath cut)

Atsushi swears like a sailor at times and everyone around him is so shocked by it.

Akutagawa will use obscure insults from centuries ago that no one is even super sure what it means but it sure feels bad.

Headcanon: Akutugawa rarely swears. Not because he’s against it or whatever. It’s because he thinks it’s “beneath him” to do so.

It lacks any tact or creativity when he’s trying to verbally destroy his opponent in the most painful way possible.

Atsushi however will use ever swear in the book and probably ones no one’s ever heard of.

What Strength Really Means 💪

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Hey everyone, my name is Abdelmajed. I don’t usually talk much about myself, but today, I want to share a little piece of my story.

I was born and raised in Gaza, a place that has always been my home 🏡. I grew up surrounded by my family, my friends, and the streets that I knew like the back of my hand. Life wasn’t always easy, but we had love, laughter, and dreams. I used to think that no matter what happened, home would always be here. But life has a way of changing things in ways we never expect.

Over the past months, everything I once knew has disappeared. The streets that were once filled with children playing are now silent. The houses that held so many memories are now just rubble. And the people I loved—some of them are gone forever. 💔

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Help Abdelmajed Escape Gaza and Rebuild His Life

My name is Abdelmajed, and I am a survivor of the war in Gaza. Everything I once knew has been taken away—my home, my safety, and the people

💬 Just a Small Update, and a Big Thank You

Dear friends, kind hearts, and everyone who has stood with us,

When I first opened my heart to the world and shared our story, I never imagined the amount of love and solidarity we would receive. Thanks to your incredible support, we’ve now reached $12,837—a milestone that brings real light to some very dark days.

From the deepest corners of my heart, thank you.

💔 A Journey of Loss, but Also of Strength

As many of you know, I’ve lost 25 of my loved ones during this devastating war. That grief lives with me every single day. It’s in the silence that once held laughter, in the empty spaces where we once gathered as a family.

But through your help, I’ve also felt something else: hope. And that hope is priceless.

“21/Oct/2023 Before It Reached Us: The Day Our Neighbor’s House Was Destroyed” A quiet moment of fear, filmed just before everything changed.

“22/Oct/2023 The Morning After: Our Family Home in Ruins” This is what was left behind after the bombing of our home.

🌿 What Life Looks Like for Us Now

Despite everything, we’re still here. Still surviving. Still hoping.

But things have only gotten harder.

The war has returned, more brutal than before—and for over a month now, Gaza has been completely sealed off. No food is coming in. No medical supplies. No aid. No trade. No one is allowed to leave, and no one is allowed to enter.

We’re trapped.

🏚 We live with the fear of tomorrow, every single day. Airstrikes, drones, and the uncertainty of what might happen next. 👨‍👩‍👧 Our family is forever changed—we haven’t just lost people; we’ve lost pieces of ourselves. 📉 Basic needs go unmet—even clean water feels like a luxury now. Medicines, if they exist at all, are unreachable.

And yet…

Your support reminds us that we’re not forgotten. It reminds us that someone, somewhere, is still listening. That someone still cares. That we’re not completely alone in this.

Every message. Every share. Every dollar. It tells us: You’re walking this road with us. And that gives us the strength to keep going.

💖 What You Can Do

If you’ve already donated—thank you beyond words. If you can share our story again, it could reach someone who can help.

Even $5 means warmth, comfort, and a chance to breathe a little easier.

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Donate to Help Mosab saving who's left of his family

My name is Mosab Elderawi, and I am a survivor of the war in Gaza. Life as I knew it has been completely destroyed. I have lost my home, my

✨ Why It All Matters

This isn’t just about reaching a fundraising goal. It’s about surviving war with dignity. It’s about believing in tomorrow. It’s about making sure my daughter grows up knowing that the world did not look away.

Thank you for your kindness, patience, and belief in our humanity. You’ve helped me find my voice—and I will use it to keep hope alive.

🙏 From the Heart: A Quiet Apology

There’s something I need to say—something that’s been on my heart for some time.

When I first began sharing our story, I didn’t know what the right way was. I was scared, grieving, and trying to protect my family in any way I could. I reached out to many people, hoping someone, anyone, would see us. In that process, I now realize I may have overstepped, and I might have made some feel overwhelmed.

If that happened, I am truly sorry.

Please believe me when I say it was never out of disregard or pushiness. It came from a place of fear—fear of being forgotten, fear of not being able to keep my family safe, fear of watching everything I love slip away in silence.

I’m learning as I go. I’ve slowed down. I’m more mindful now, trying to share our journey in a way that feels respectful of the space and hearts of those listening.

If my words ever came at the wrong time, or in the wrong way, I hope you can understand where they came from—and I hope you can forgive me.

Thank you for seeing past my mistakes. Thank you for still being here. It means more than I can ever explain.

Vetted by @gazavetters ( #309 )

With love and endless gratitude, Mosab and family ♥️

THIS ISNT BSD RELATED SORRY BUT HOLY SHIT?? I MADE IT?!?! :DD

CASTING LIST!(so far)

Grian/Main/Winner:Florence Chase

Oli/Narrartor: G. E. Williams

Pearl/Brief ending appearance: Toast Hundt

Scott smajor: Bubbles

Jimmy solidarity: Kat

BigB: NOT CAST

Tango Tek: Foxglovefaith/Abigail faith

Martyn inthelittlewood: Philip(he/him)

Rendog/Redking: Karissa fanning

Implusesv: NOT CAST

ZombieCleo: Xamira the parrot

BdoubleO100: NOT CAST

Skizzleman: @kingsnak3-blog

Joel smallishbeans: Charlie ashton

Ethoslab: NOT CAST

GoodtimeswithScar: Lofn Klaus

congrats to the cast people so far we still have a few roles open and are keeping the forms up so go audition if you want those parts! Have a great day/night :)!

Realized that me not being able to draw doesn't mean there has to be a drought on my blog and I have the #vip-yaps tag for a reason!!

Bsd sexuality & gender headcannons woopee

(Also here's a list of characters I didn't include bc I don't care/know enough about them to think abt this for them: Kajii, Karma, Ace, Katai, Ivan, Agatha Christie, all extra SB characters, all extra Gaiden characters. If I didn't include anyone else arguably significant, assume cishetness)

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Atsushi

Bisexual mess bc that is fandom consensus and I agree. Cis man.

Dazai

If Atsushi is a bi mess, Dazai is a bi house fire. Also he's demiromantic I think the idea of him being very flirty but actually rarely feeling genuine romantic attraction is an interesting parallel to how outwardly he's just a silly dramatic goober but deep down he's kind of emotionally numb.

Also for me his gender is in this weird spsce of like, I can see him being pretty much any gender. For simpleness I tend to just interpret him as a cis man but I do also really like genderfluid and bigender dazai.

Kunikida

I think he's aroace, leaning to the repulsed/dislike end of the spectrum for both. He's probably well read on queer theory and is aware of the aroace spectrum and he knows a lot of labels (he loves leanring all the hyperspecific labels and terms and shi) but also he's probably had the very amatonormative ideal of like, marrying someone and having a nice little family for a long time so he's still in denial kind of. Also cis man.

Building off these hcs I really like Kunikidazai as a qpr they give me qpr energy

Ranpo

Gay gay homosexual gay /ref. Probably is unlabelled cause he doesnt rlly gaf but he's just homosexual. Also demisexual and demiromantic. And a cis man.

Yosano

Contrary to popular belief, I do not think she's lesbian. But I do think she's primarily a woman enjoyer so bisexual homoromantic. Cis woman.

Junichiro

Transss mann I saw one person say his undershirt looks like a binder and I was SOLD. Also icl he seems straight to me 😔

Naomi

Another bisexual LMAO what can I say, they're everywhere. Also I lean towards afab demigirl (she/they) but I do like mtf Naomi.

Kyouka

Getting big non-binary energy from this one, maybe genderfae? (All non-masc pronouns and neos(snow/snowself/bun/bunself). Bun is also aceflux and generally under the bisexual umbrella.

Kenji

Whats gender? Can he eat it? Lowk gives me gender apathetic vibes but I hc him as cis. Also he's pansexual, indiscriminate attraction on all levels.

Fukuzawa

Heteroflexible (bisexual with preference for opposite gender) and cis.

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Chuuya

Bisexual, I can see him being gay but also him and Dazai give me so much bi4bi energy. Also I think he's a cis man but I do love t4t soukoku.

Akutagawa

Gayyy I cannot see him being attracted to a woman/fem-leaning in any universe. Idc if its cause he's aroace or just gay he has never felt a fem's touch and he'd like to keep it that way please and thank you.

Also I this he's cis, he's quite androgynous but i feel like its less bc of genderqueerness and more bc he's in an alternative culture (goth).

Tachihara

Gynesexual (attraction to feminity). When he was still identifiying as straight he cracked a joke abt femboys and it led to a mild crisis and amusing realization. He identifies as bisexual now.

Higuchi

Androsexual (attraction to masculinity). Her and tachihara are on two sides of the same coin, especially when it comes to Gin. Higuchi and Tachihara have a mild crush on Gin, but are both especially attracted to specifically her work and civilian persona respectively.)

Gin

Speaking of Gin, I actually think she's a cis woman, if only because its amusing; Akutagawa's siblings, cis folks serving androgynous gender envy since 2012. Also she's panromantic sex neutral asexual

Mori

Aroace, because I love the idea of someone who wants to be a parent sooooo badly but really couldn't give a flying fuck about any of the stuff that people tend to expect precede having children. He wishes he could grow a baby with his genes in a lab or something because he doesn't hate anyone enough to allow them to get involved with him like that. Also he's sex neutral, little to no romantic attraction at all and a cis man.

Koyou

Again, not lesbian surprisingly, but mostly because she canonically loved that guy in her backstory. I think she's biromantic homosexual. Also cis woman again but I can see her being transfem

Q

No particular sexuality headcannon, probably queer or aroacespec. Also definitely non-binary, or agender or something they have no gender in my head its never he or she its always 'they'. I also think they might use neos (void/voidself/stitch/stitchself/and others I'm not going to take the time to think of and type out).

Oda

Pansexual cis man

DoA

Fyodor

Guys gender apathetic Fyodor is so important to me I need you to understand (/lh). Like, he identifies as a cis man but he actually really doesn't give a shit. Bro hasn't realized that cis men identify as men because it genuinely feel right and not because it just happened to be the gender they were assigned at birth and they 'don't particularly mind it'. If you called him anything other than (he/him) he'd look at you funny but not bc it actually makes him uncomfortable more out of like confusion like "I look like a man right? How strange that that person does not think that I am a man."

Also he's aroacespec for sure in all my headcannons, but for canon compliance I lean towards no romantic attraction type aromantic, and aceflux/sex neutral asexual. Also gay. What little attraction he may experience is always homo imo.

If you asked him what he identifies as he'd say "A servant of the Lord."

Nikolai

When I didn't care about his character as much I always just defaulted to cis man but ngl I like him being genderfaun or gender apathetic or agender or something. Maybe leaning towards agender/gender apathetic cause he probably doesn't really gaf what pronouns are used for him. I think he'd like neopronouns a lot though because the idea is that they identify someone based on them as a specific individual rather than their gender and I think he'd like that.

Also aroacespec again lol but again its flexible I hc him as allo in some AUs. But in the BSD og universe I definitely hc him as specifically grayromantic and sex positive asexual. I think he struggles to tell the difference between romantic and platonic attraction (not helped by the fact he has little experience in either). He thinks he's straight up aroace and delights in the idea that he is 'free' from attraction.

Sigma

Love me some intersex non-binary Sigma (they/them) . Also I specifically hc their physicality and voice is more masculine even though they present pretty androgynously bc I don't often see rep amab enby people who still present relatively masc.

I think they're acespec, either demisexual or sex neutral with no actual attraction. Also homoromantic homosexual.

Hunting Dogs

Fukuchi

Wasn't quite sure whether I ought to put him in DoA or the Hunting Dogs but uh yeah I think think he's biromantic asexual. sex-repulsed too, I think he's not labelled he's just always found the idea of sex off-putting. Also cis man.

Jouno

Aromantic bisexual, masc pref. He's openly bisexual and I feel like he's always known he doesn't experience romantic attraction, and trying to force himself to pretend he does, either as an attempt to achieve deeper connection or to get 'suffering' from leading someone (not worth the effort in his experience btw) on has left a bad taste in his mouth regarding romance. Also cis man again.

Tecchou

Bisexual cis man

Teruko

Fem lesbian spotted. Comphet final boss, pioneer of the straight > bisexual > lesbian pipeline. Also gives me regina george hyperfem type energy. (Cis woman also)

Guild

Poe

Homoromantic sex neutral asexual. Also I don't feel strongly abt any gender hcs for him but I do like the idea of ftm Poe/

Louisa

Asexual femme lesbian, clocked it day one. To dispute me over this would be futile (/j).

Lucy

Heteroromantic bisexual cis woman.

Mark

That's a bisexual umbrella man if I've ever seen one. Maybe pan? Also again I don't feel strongly abt any gender hcs for him but I like the idea of him being trans bc he'll just have his top surgery scars out all the time and that's very coolio

Lovecraft

Aroace, not even sure if he has the neurobiological capacity to experience attraction like that. His gender is...its there? Maybe? He probably prefers just being referred to by his name but he really doesn't have it in him to think about this stuff.

Other

Ango

Aroflux homosexual. I love romantic Odango as much as the next person but qpr Odango is also ouhhhhhhh. Also cis man

Mushitaro

Sex-repulsed asexual homoromantic

Drawing one of my personas as Skizz in honor of me getting cast as Skizz for the 3rd Life Musical (Three Chances by @hartogtm )!!

Some extra persona nonsense beneath cut