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namjoon’s answer to a question about what he felt and learned while making the album and looking back at their 7 years as BTS and looking forward to their next 7 years. (trans.credit)

So! I’m here again e-begging and yeah! It ducks and I’m sorry lol. You can ignore me if you want.

Due to my parents using my cc for vet for our dogs, and me having to buy a college transport pass and textbooks, I kinda need help to pay off debt, because it affects my credit and also impending anxiety around Money. This is what it looks like -

The Keshet part is being reimbursed. I’m mainly focused on “I owe”, the other part is the vet bill. I don’t expect to get it all but I’d like to try. It doesn’t all add up because interest. Thank you if you’ve read this. And yes, all of it goes directly to my cc, nothing else.

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When I was 13 years old and curious about sex and love, I asked my mom if she had had sex before marrying my father (of whom she is still married to, and has been since before I was born). She said that that wasn’t really a ‘yes’ or ‘no’ question. I said ‘sure it is, you’ve either had sex before him, or you haven’t’. She brought me onto the couch and sat me down and told me about the boy she liked when she was young and how one night she snuck into his house while his parents were gone and they were kissing and he said they should have sex and she said that she wanted to save sex for marriage and he laughed and basically took all her clothes off and he raped her and as my mom was telling the story she cried and this was the second time I had ever seen my mom cry. She was 12 when it happened.

In grade 8 I got a call from my friend in the middle of the night and she was drunk in the park crying and told me that she went out that night with some other friends and they drank a little and her guy “friend” starting flirting and yes she laughed at first but then he tried to pull her shirt over her head and she pulled away and he ripped her shirt and it was her favourite shirt and then he pushed her to her knees and HIS BEST FRIEND HELD HER JAW OPEN WHILE HE FACE FUCKED HER. And so I went to the park and picked her up and took her home and slept in her bed with her except we didn’t sleep because she just cried and her mouth bled and this was four years ago but I still have to be the one to bring her items to the till it the cashier is a man, and she still has anxiety attacks and she’ll get a rash all over her body and I just want to kill those boys but instead they are still walking around. And I’m in the bathroom with her, dabbing at her skin with a warm cloth until it returns to its regular colour.

And in grade 9 one of my closest friends was kinda seeing this boy and so they hung out one night and then she said that she really had to be getting back home and he said that she wasn’t going anywhere until she gave him what he wanted and he parked the car and took off her clothes and she said no and he ignored her and so she laid in the backseat totally limp and just cried and it wasn’t even sex, he just masterbated by using her body instead of his hand and she came to school the next day with vodka in her water bottle and she drank all day and I had to fight her to get the alcohol away from her and she just cried and threw up and I skipped class while I held her hair back and that same boy texted me a month later, asking if I ever wanted to hangout sometime.

And in that same year my very best friend who has never even kissed a boy, confessed to me that when she was 9 years old, her 12 year old cousin made her give him a hand job and he told her that was what cousins do and he gave her a chocolate bar afterwards and she told me that he probably doesn’t even remember it but that it’s something that she’ll never have the luxury of forgetting.

And in grade 10 I knew a girl who invited her best friend over to watch Disney movies and then he started to put his hands down her pants and she said no but she is 130lbs and he is 220lbs and he called her a tease while she tried to fight him but he used one hand to hold her down, and the other to put inside of her and i was the one to push her inside of a classroom and stand in front of her while calling the police when he showed up at our school looking for her and she was so damn scared.

And a few months later I skipped class and was in the car with a guy who i had had unprotected sex with in the past while under the influence of cocaine but this time I was sober and I insisted we use a condom but he told me he couldn’t feel anything while the condom was on so he ripped it off and I said I refused to have unprotected sex again and so he just grabbed me and forced himself into my mouth and I was crying and he pulled me onto him and I just came saying “stop” over and over like a broken record but he must’ve heard something different because he went until he came and I just sat naked in the backseat while he drove me back to the school and said “we should do this again sometime”. And I had five showers that night and I scratched at my skin so hard to try and rip his fingerprints off of me, I still have the scars.

And I found out soon afterwards that that same guy had raped a classmate of mine, 5 months earlier and she told me about how he brought her McDonald’s first, and how he said they could take things slow and she told me about how he didn’t listen to her either. And he goes to our school and so after she told me about her incident and I told her about mine, we decided to report it to the police and the trial is currently still going on and he told people about it, except in his version we are just “asking for attention” and all his friends talk about how bad they feel for him. As if HE is the one that still wakes up screaming. As if HE felt like his skin no longer was beautiful, no longer belonged to him. And I held her in my arms as she bawled after giving the police her statement. And she did the same for me.

And I met a woman a year ago in a paint store and she had a service dog and I asked what the dog was for and it turns out that she had been so brutally raped and abused in her life, that the dog is literally trained to keep men away from her.

And I’m so FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF THIS WORLD WE ARE LIVING IN. How many rape victims eyes have I already looked into? How many more will I? And how many more friends will I hold while they shake? Because I don’t know how many more I can take. And who the fuck still has the nerve to make rape jokes? And… Something just has to change. Please, someone just start being that change.

-16 year old girl

Regarding the Amazon Rainforest

I barely have followers here, but here we go:

The Amazon Rainforest has been burning for the last 16 days straight. The Brazilian government says the wildfire is caused by the winter itself, since it doesn't rain a lot there... in a rainforest. It is actually, partially true. Winter is indeed a dry season and wildfires may happen, specially close to the Cerrado (a brazilian biome similar to the african Savanna), but what they're not telling us is that:

The deforestation has increased 80% since last year

The native peoples and animals are being slaughtered for their lands (legally protected green areas)

The government is hiding and lying about scientific data, saying that environmentalists and NGOs are communists trying to destroy the nation. They are brainwashing people to think that sustainability is terrible for the economy

Our Minister of Environment is couldn't care less about the environment and is only there to support the livestock producers and give them what they want. The President and his Minister won't put a single dollar on environmental safety

The wildfires are just so huge that its black smoke and ashes reached the skies of São Paulo, a state over 2.000 kilometers away from the Amazon.

We are hostages or our own government

I could just keep going all night about how our environment is being threatened by this new government. We need every single help we can possibly can.

Please don't let this go unseen. Search for yourself, talk to people about it, make noise, be angry and be scared. Let the world know about it and demand action. This is not about Brazil, is about the planet. The Amazon Rainforest is one of the most important biomes in the world, being responsible for the climate, rains, biodiversity, carbon sequestration and life itself.

UPDATE: EVERYTHING IS SO MUCH WORSE

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https://www.gofundme.com/losing-the-house-the-children-the-animals

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PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DONATE IF YOU CAN, AND PLEASE REBLOG TO SPREAD THE WORD.

I hardly even have the energy to write this but here we go– I will restate some things again now that I have more information, and I’ll try to explain this as calmly as I can rather than how I did the very first time I found out this was happening.

THEY GAVE US LESS THAN A MONTH TO PAY $20,000.

We missed our mortgage payment in February. The mortgage is $3,200 each month, because they gave it to us for an insanely high rate. We’ve been able to keep up with it up until now but suddenly there’s been much less work and so we missed the February one.

This is the letter telling us to pay for February, plus $2,600 in “legal fees” that they added, totaling $6,000. 

The payments are meant to be automatic. In March, when we did have the money, they did not take it even though they were supposed to. My dad had even messaged them telling them to take it and they would not. They did this purposefully so that they could now have “two” months of “missed” payments over us. They need three months in order to be able to evict us.

There’s $6,400 in mortgage alone, not including the February “legal fees” or any that they probably also added for March. Originally, they had first demanded that we pay these overdue payments.

THEN, they decided to add April into it. Mortgage x 3 = $9,600. Within a span of few days, they keep changing their own story. They just keep adding to it!!! You can see that the very first letter was received on April 4. The most recent letter that I will show in a moment, is from April 18. In just these few days, they added so many more payments into it??? And now, since they keep changing their story, they have these three months on us!!!

Thanks to loans from friends, kind donations, and work of course, we were able to collect $6,000 and quickly rushed to the bank to create a bank draft (a very official cheque) for $6,000 and we quickly mailed it off to them. We wanted to pay them the $6,000 we had ASAP so that we could have paid something and they couldn’t evict us, right?

We fell into a short moment of calm where we thought we were safe from being evicted now. We paid $6,000 and they couldn’t evict us and we’d pay the rest as soon as we had it. Of course you know this didn’t last. THEY MAILED THE CHEQUE BACK. SAYING THAT THEY WOULDN’T ACCEPT IT UNLESS IT CONTAINED THE FEBRUARY, MARCH, AND APRIL PAYMENTS. If they want the money so badly shouldn’t they just accept the $6,000 and take the rest later? No, because then they KNOW they can’t evict us, and that’s EXACTLY what they are trying to do. THEY WANT THIS TO BE AS IMPOSSIBLE FOR US TO PAY AS POSSIBLE. They could have taken the $6,000 but then they are unable to evict us, and they want to evict us.

THEN, THEY ADD MAY.

Our mortgage payments are “officially” meant to be paid on the 2nd of each month, but my dad had agreed with them to pay on the 25th of each month. That is how it has been the entire time we have lived here and they know this. But suddenly, they decided that we need to pay for May as well, because if we were to pay on May 25th, that falls after their May 20th deadline. So they suddenly said the 2nd again because that’s how it is in the papers, even though they have agreed previously that the 25th was okay, and BAM THERE IS A 4TH MONTH ON US??? They are literally looking for every way they can to fuck us over.

This is the most recent letter, telling us to pay $20,000!!!!! How could they just go and suddenly change it to THIS??? Mortgage x 4 is $12,800, the rest is literally “LEGAL FEES” AND INTEREST THAT THEY KEEP STACKING ON US OUT OF NOWHERE. $5,400 is just for their lawyer who only sent us one letter and then proceeded to ignore and avoid us when we wanted to question him further!!

It is literally fucking evil how they are trying their hardest to make this unpayable for us. I don’t even think it’s about getting this money, or else they would have taken the $6,000 when we sent it to them. It is about making this unpayable for any person, so that they can take the whole house from us. They could have easily taken this $6,000 from us and taken the rest later, but they wouldn’t even accept it until it was the full $20,000 that they suddenly decided that they want. So many of that are just fees that they made up!!!!

This isn’t even counting other bills that we have to pay such as electricity and food.

It is so. Fucking. Wrong.

And my family is SO TERRIFIED.

Worst case scenario ? We will get evicted. We will be HOMELESS. IF, we have any money, we might be able to rent an apartment. Apartments are expensive and require 2 month’s rent upfront. We wouldn’t have enough bedrooms for all our family members. We wouldn’t have enough space to take most of our belongings. We wouldn’t be able to take ANY of our animals (2 dogs and 6 rescue cats) as no apartments near us allow animals (we checked) and even the shelters in the area are utterly horrible and careless (in addition to charging you per animal..) Most of our animals are unadoptable as well. And this is all IF we can even afford an apartment, IF we are left truly homeless, we’d still lose everything, on top of having nowhere to go to and social services possibly even taking my 10 and 6 year old siblings away.

THE ONLY REALISTIC OPTION FOR US is somehow paying this off, because we need to stay here long enough to sell this house. My house has been on the market for 3 weeks now and only one person has come to even view it so far, and wasn’t interested in buying it. If we can sell this house, which we definitely should be able to…with a little more time… Then we can pay off the full mortgage and move elsewhere, where we won’t have this problem again.

No, sueing is not a realistic option. How can we go against this entire corporation and their lawyers? Our own lawyers would cost thousands that we don’t have, court would take ages, and they would still evict us in the meantime. They know this. They know we are powerless against them.

My dad is working as hard as he can but his job is being very slow at the moment. He installs floors and normally at this time of year, he should be buried in work but for some reason he isn’t getting any. On top of that, his boss from the main store he works at hates him and purposefully does not give him work. The other 3 stores he is hired at simply are not giving him much to do.

I am applying to all the jobs I can but none are contacting me back. I am so frustrated. One job in particular nearby my house would have been the most perfect option for me and they hired someone else instead. I am still trying to search for a job but we also live in a kind of middle of nowhere area and I have limited transportation. I am trying my absolute best. I’m also doing art commissions - PLEASE consider getting one if you can!!!

My mom doesn’t speak a word of English, cooks and cleans constantly, and takes care of my young siblings every day, and yet is still searching for a job for herself… I have no idea how she will get one without being able to speak English or having any experience.

My parents don’t really have any friends/family in Canada. I have a very small family and they are all in Poland and very poor. We’re usually the ones sending them money every month. We’re even considering asking my grandma in Poland to take out a loan from the bank for us, but my mom is so embarrassed to ask her for fear of terrifying her too much (she hasn’t told her any of this so as to not stress her out…) and they are unlikely to even give my grandma a loan since she is poor and very old. We can’t really ask her for much help but we might just have to. Even if she is able to get a loan for us, we will still be far from our goal… But my mom thinks there’s no way the bank will give my grandma a loan.

We are literally doing everything we can and they are just trying their hardest to take this house from us… It’s sick. It’s horrifying. I never knew that people could be this completely evil. To think that within a span of just a few days they would change their own story like 3 times just to make this harder and harder for us…

PLEASE help us if you can!!! If each follower could donate even a dollar, that would help immensely. Please reblog to spread the word too! Please look at my commissions…! This looks like a very hopeless situation but hope is really all I can have anymore. All I can do is hope for a miracle.. I’m trying my best to apply for more jobs and hopefully get hired somewhere. My dad should have some work for the next week. Maybe we can do this– we have to do this… The outcome if we can’t is more horrible than I can even imagine…

Please donate if you can, I greatly appreciate all the help we can get.

I’m so sorry for being annoying posting this… I know it’s not nice to see this post but this is my biggest outlet to hopefully get a bit of help.

I will keep you updated as I learn more and thank you so much to anyone who may be able to help or who has helped so far.

https://www.paypal.me/alexg05

https://www.gofundme.com/losing-the-house-the-children-the-animals

Art Commission Info - at this point I will attempt to draw pretty much ANYTHING, ask me about it and I will see if I can do it.

2003... 'climate change denier'...

i just found out merriam webster has a time traveler feature that tells you some of the words that were “born” the same year as you. it’s pretty neat yall should do this

How to Escape a Hair Grab or a Neck Grab ? Look at them, carefully.

tai chi pants on http://www.icnbuys.com/tai-chi-pants give you surprise at the new year.

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Where was this when i needed it.. T_T

do your research before reading the book, it’s always a good idea to look up the author and when the book was written and published. by looking that up, you can learn about the historical context of the book and get a deeper understanding of the plot, characters, and the author’s purpose behind reading the book.

read the intro and summary of the book before beginning if there’s an introduction to the book, be sure to read that for any relevant information that may help you analyze the book. find a summary of the book online to prepare yourself for a good reading. i know, i know, it feels like a bit of a letdown if you know the ending beforehand, but without it, you may get caught up in the plot and lose the important thematic details of the book. it’ll allow you to read the book with an open mind.

figure out what you need to do do you have a list of vocabulary for the book? find out each definition. do you need to analyze a character? get a sheet of paper and get ready to take notes on the characters. do you need to write about the theme? get post-it notes and mark the quotes that you think are relevant to the plot. either way, just be prepared for what you have to do with the book.

don’t highlight; write oftentimes, people will simply highlight pretty much anything in the book. i’m not a huge fan of the highlighting - annotating method because you may want to sell the book later on or reread it without bombarding your eyes with bright color. the highlighter ink may even bleed to the other side of the paper. i think that it just ruins the reading experience and future potential. it also encourages passive reading. instead, use sticky notes or sticky tabs to write down notes and place them in the book. keep a piece of paper by your side to take note of every character’s name and important plot points. using a color key with sticky notes may be helpful as well. if you must, i would suggest underlining with a pencil so that you can erase it after you’re done with the whole process.

take copious notes write down the words that you don’t know in the story and look them up. write down characters and their changes over the course of the book. write down times / settings when they show up. write down important quotes and passages + page numbers. write down every single thought that you have about the book because it may become relevant later on.

make a summary of the chapter after you finish one i personally like doing the summaries on index cards and then put them in order after i finish the entire book. i can then look through them to see the plot progression and character growth over the course of the story without hunting through the book or my notes.

wait until you finish the entire paragraph / passage before writing notes if you stop halfway, you may miss important information that’s revealed at the end of the passage. besides, you may develop new thoughts after reading the entire passage / paragraph.

look for literary devices you know, your metaphors, allusions, similes, personifications, etc etc etc. it’s good to be familiar with literary devices because they will often give an insight to the story and frequently become relevant to questions on the test / writing things. here’s a good site on literary devices.

hope this helped and good luck! if you’d like to request a post, go here and if you’d like to see more helpful posts, go here !! thanks :)

Dear People Who Smoke

I don’t know if you have considered this but stop smoking in areas where people are forced to wait at. Don’t smoke at crosswalks. Don’t smoke outside doorways. Don’t smoke at bus stops. People with asthma or other breathing conditions or people that idk DON’T WANT TO BREATHE IN YOUR CIGARETTE SMOKE are trying to get to places and need to be able to breathe. Stop smoking in crowded areas. stop smoking in crowded areas. STOP FORCING NONSMOKERS TO SECOND HAND SMOKE. 

Hi everyone!

School is starting in about a week for me, and I am not prepared at all. I’ve been unemployed for about 2 months now despite trying hard to find work. I am still looking, but I’ll never make enough money to pay for the things I need with only a week to go.

The most important thing I need to pay for is rent, which was due on the 1st of this month. If I don’t pay it, I will have nowhere to live once school starts. I don’t want to be homeless, but I can not move in until I’ve paid it. My rent is $660. My move-in date is August 16th, and school starts August 19th. This means I will need to pay my rent by the 19th. Although I also need things like apartment necessities, food, and school supplies, I’m more concerned with actually getting the key to the apartment and having a place to sleep.

If you’d like to help out, here are my usernames!

Paypal: paypal.me/brianna1x

Cashapp: $brianna1x

Venmo: @briannanicole6x

Even $1 is helpful! Whether you can or can’t help, please reblog this post!

Thank you all!

Edit: I will also be keeping this post updated so that I don’t receive more money than needed, and will delete when I’ve reached my goal! Thanks again, everyone!

BTS - Dionysus!!!

reblog with a song and i'll tell u if you're in or not

the greatest skill a woman can learn for herself is self reliance

Uhm... I'm sad tonight?

hey guys psa regarding hospital bills

don’t just pay it. do not automatically pay the hospital bill when you receive it. call your health insurance provider and POLITELY say, “excuse me, i just received a bill for $1200 for my hospital visit/ER visit/etc., is that the correct amount i’m supposed to pay?” because hospitals bill you before your health insurance and they will take your money no matter how the amount due may change based on your health insurance looking at it. 90% of the time, if your health insurance is in any way involved in the payment of that bill, you do not have to pay as much as the hospital is billing you for. call your health insurance provider first, and POLITELY request clarification, always remember that the person you are talking to is human and this is just their job, and then you will very likely find out you actually only owe $500.

don’t shout at anyone about it, don’t get mad, just understand that this is The Way Things Are right now and call your health insurance provider before paying the bill your hospital just sent you. there’s a chance the hospital bill might be correct, true, but call your health insurance provider.

Please help my father pay for cancer treatment.

Hey y’ all

I hate to ask, but recently my father was diagnosed with cancer. We are so thankful it’s treatable, but even with decent health insurance, the bills are adding up fast. 

Furthermore, my father is the primary caretaker for my younger brother, who has significant disabilities and health issues of his own. As a result. any help that can be given won’t just cover the cost of cancer care, it will ensure that my brother’s health and safety needs will be covered as well. 

For personal safety reasons, I do not have a large social media presence. Even if you are not in a position to donate, please share this post so that it reaches as many people as possible. I am so incredibly grateful for any dollar amount given and any share across any platform. Every little bit will help. 

https://www.gofundme.com/help-a-father-fight-cancer

I swear i aspire to be on your level...👌🏻

today’s accomplishments ✨

• finished reading the sequel to “to all the boys i’ve loved before”! have any of you read it before? if so, feel free to message me about it (i have MANY thoughts on it and i want to scream about it with someone hehe)

• reviewed 3 chapters of japanese grammar

• reviewed a lesson of advanced korean vocab, twice

• reviewed 3 lessons of korean vocab

• wrote a poem on the train!

• watched a kdrama without subs and understood nearly all of it wooOO

• befriended a new language exchange partner + reconnected with an old friend + language exchange partner, it has been a v good day! 💫

Mars in Astrology

The God of War in Roman mythology went by mars.  Second in power to the one and only Jupiter. Many of the myths surrounding Mars tie in with the Greek’s own warrior, Ares. Mars, however, was much more impulsive and aggressive than Ares. Mars was also viewed as more noble and virtuous than his Greek counterpart because he was the defender of Rome and the city’s borders. In astrology, if Venus is your femininity, then Mars would be your masculinity. Venus is the cooperative part of yourself that makes people want to like you. She’s charismatic, charming, and knows how to win people over. Mars, on the other hand, is that part of you that drives you to fight and protect. He’s aggressive, impolite, defensive, and intimidating. Mars represents your drive, anger, motivation, and how you defend yourself. Mars shows how you go out and chase down what you want. He’s motivated, always productive, moving forward. Venus is harmonious. Mars is destructive. Venus pleases others, Mars pleases himself above all else, therefore, this is where our violent tempers and selfish behaviors come from. Venus knows how to say things to win people over, painting her words wisely so that everything comes out sounding charming and considerate. Everything Mars says, on the other hand, comes out blunt, on the spot, and can be rude and inconsiderate. Does Mars care? No. Mars is ruled jointly by Aries and Scorpio, being exalted in Capricorn. He’s in detriment in Taurus and Libra, and then falling in Cancer.

The glyph we use for Mars (♂) is the alchemy symbol for iron, but it’s better known as the symbol for males. It’s a combination of an arrow atop a circle, symbolizing someone being driven forwards towards their desire. It’s speculated to depict both a phallic symbol and a violent one.

Rulership/Exaltation/Detriment/Fall

Mars is ruled by Aries and Scorpio combined. Aries is the warrior, making Scorpio the assassin. Aries represents the tactless, explosive half of Mars. Aries is the half of Mars that destroys cities and countries at the snap of a finger. Impulsive, aggressive, and angry, Aries takes thrill in fighting and battles. When Aries is mad, you know. Aries makes their intentions known and handles it promptly. Scorpio, on the other hand, is more tactful and secretive; the silent killer. You never really know where you stand with Scorpio. They hide how they’re really feeling until they’ve truly planned out how they’re going to strike, and then, look out, because when they sting you, it’s hard to recover. Both of these signs radiate a lot of yang-energy. They’re both driven, ambitious, dominant, aggressive, and intimidating. Capricorn is where Mars is exalted, something that’s often forgotten. Capricorn isn’t necessarily outwardly aggressive, but the sign entirely encompasses drive in and of itself. Capricorn is truly a goat, always climbing up the mountain, never stopping, always trying to succeed and do better. Capricorn is the part of Mars that will trample over someone else just for their own success.

Taurus and Libra are where the God of War is weakened and lost. His yang-energy become suppressed and overwhelmed by the submissive yin-energy of these two signs. Libra is too worried about what other people think of them to call people out, afraid of making a scene. Libra is also very independent and needs to learn and practice independence. Libra also tries to rationalize everything and make excuses for even the most inexcusable things. Taurus, on the other hand, is driven but is very reluctant to change and is very stubborn. They don’t really have angry outbursts; they just prefer to keep everything inside until they explode. Both need to prioritize their own sanity before that of everyone else. Cancer is where Mars has fallen. Cancer’s nature is nurturing and connecting. Mars’ nature is to destroy and burn bridges. When Mars is in Cancer, we see civil wars and dysfunctional families. I kind of envision this placement trying to cook something and burning the entire house down because they were impatient and wanted to speed up the process.

Astrological Meaning

I mentioned earlier in the article that if Venus is your femininity, then Mars would be your masculinity. Venus wants people to like her. Mars doesn’t care who does or doesn’t like him. He is a warrior through and through. Astrologically, Mars represents how you chase after what you want. Mars is very self-oriented, in opposition to Venus’ relationship-oriented nature. Venus shows how you attract; Mars shows how you fight for what you want. Mars represents your temper, your desire, and your motivation. Mars shows how you please yourself, but it’s different from self-care. Mars shows how you find personal power within yourself and use it to conquer whatever obstacles you may encounter. However, it’s literally infamous at this point that when you set boundaries with people, they often cause conflict. Where Mars lies in your natal chart is where conflict erupts. At Mars’ core, the planet represents who you become when you free yourself of the constriction of societal pressure and are yourself, regardless of if people like it or not. Mars is blunt, straightforward, and doesn’t give a damn what people think. He doesn’t care if he comes off as inconsiderate, he just says it and moves on. Mars is also the embodiment of a competitive spirit. When you channel Mars energy in conflict, you use your words or your fists to rip someone apart and tear their ego limb from limb. When and how you release all of this aggressive energy is entirely dependent upon your sign and the house placement.

A healthy Mars is brave, confident, outspoken, and chooses battles wisely. When Mars is in balance, you think before you speak. You recognize the weight of your words and actions, as well as the possibility of saying or doing something that’s irreversible and unforgivable. You fight for what you believe in and you have the courage to defend yourself and others against opponents and tyrants. You use Mars to survive and keep moving every day. If you think about it, just taking the first step to get out of bed every morning is Mars energy in a simplistic form. We use Mars to wage wars, fight for our rights, climb the corporate ladder, and defeat tyrannical overlords. However, because his energy is so powerful, and humans naturally crave power, it’s easy to overdose on. With Mars comes the urge to overbear, destroy, and dominate everything around you.

When Mars is too prominent in your chart, you’re hyper-masculine (regardless of gender), and you become entitled, selfish, and rude. You’re overwhelming to be around and erratic. You lack self-control because you’re so numb to everybody else’s feelings. It’s one thing to not care what other people think, but it’s another thing to just be plain old rude and insensitive for the hell of it. When Mars is overly rampant in your chart, you’re impulsive and jump onto every whim that stirs up even a tiny bit of excitement. You don’t care about how your actions affect everybody else. You’re also probably violent and will fight just to show your power over everyone else. You scare people just because feeling like you have power over people fills a void. When Mars is too heavy in your chart, you become a bully.

When Mars is too weak in your chart, you’re cowardly and insecure. You become a doormat for everyone to just trample over. You have no drive, no motivation, and no boundaries. You don’t know how to call people out when they’re abusing their power, and you don’t want to because you don’t want to rock the boat. You lie awake at night, fearful of what other people think of you. You need to become more self-assured and recognize your own personal power. When your power is stripped away from you, you’re likely to become bitter and resentful, and still end up lashing out on other people as an overcompensation for how lost you feel. Neither Mars extreme is good for anyone.

Correspondences:

Signs: Aries, Scorpio

Color: Red

Crystals: Red Jasper, Bloodstone, Ruby, Garnet

Element: Fire

Day of The Week: Tuesday

Deities: Mars, Ares, Odin

Mars Throughout the Signs

Aries: goes after something regardless of if they can actually have it or not, believes in themselves very heavily, very confident, other people’s doubts in their ability don’t affect them, challenges are dealt with promptly, doesn’t appreciate authority figures, impatient, selfish, volcanic, independent

Taurus: hard-working, dependable, takes their time, like a bull when angry, admirable work ethic, strong willpower, stubborn, committed to any task, accomplishes more than anybody who’s more fast-paced, often gets too comfortable, passive, doesn’t know how to handle obstacles, no stranger to burnout, doesn’t give themselves a break

Gemini: gets distracted very easily, fickle, easily bored, the attention span of a horsefly, chases too many things at once, scattered, erratic, very intelligent, excellent problem solver, a master of manipulation, runs the risk of being a compulsive liar

Cancer: doesn’t really try to go after or control anything directly, tackles things indirectly, passive, tenacious, knows their goals, uses subtle manipulation, guilt tripping extraordinare, anger comes in waves until it transforms into a huge tsunami, very scary when angered

Leo: loud, assertive, dramatic, a force to be reckoned with, fierce, a natural born leader, knows how to rally people around them, constant need to be in the spotlight, will be the loudest and most known in a revolution, hungry for power, when insecure they may pick fights or arguments just for the sake of having attention and being self-righteous, desires public adoration

Virgo: very hard-working, excellent planners, perfectionist attitude, never satisfied, always beating themselves up, constantly worried about how they could’ve done things better, you’d never know about their self-doubt because they want to be seen as responsible and composed, often finds petty crusades to complain about, annoyed easily, nitpicky

Libra: always trying to find a peaceful resolution, constantly saying that they understand both sides of the situation, oftentimes become monkey in the middle, wants all parties to walk away happy, doesn’t want to put themselves first, hates conflict, strong desire for justice, love to argue and debate

Scorpio: understands that you cannot be loud and demanding all the time in pursuit of achievement, is subtle and tactful about their approach to things, cunning, intelligent, manipulative, clever, sly, might view people as pawns in their little game, adept in getting people to do their bidding, probably business people and politicians

Sagittarius: optimistic, can’t stick to goals, starts things with lots of enthusiasm but accomplishes very little because they get bored so easily when things don’t line up with their expectations, impatient, needs self-discipline, needs to plan better, in desperate need of a reality check

Capricorn: so much ambition, wants to be powerful, wants to have everything in their hands, wants to reach the top of the mountain, achieves goals through realism, discipline, commitment, and hard work, doesn’t like authority, wants to be the authority, stressed out, battles with insecurity/anxiety/depression, needs to learn how to steal the spotlight, eyes are always on the prize, doesn’t take the easy way out

Aquarius: disciplined, motivated, hard-working, stubborn, intellectual, comes up with a formula for success and sticks with it, has a bit of a superiority complex, thinks that their way is the best and everybody else needs to comply, chases their dreams with ambition, rebellious and hates authority, needs to open up a door for change to come in

Pisces: manipulative, doesn’t like direct confrontation, tries to drop subtle hints in the face of conflict rather than just spilling their guts, emotionally powerful, ambitious deep down, has huge dreams and grandiose ideals, afraid of failure, master procrastinators

Hello! Sorry for bothering you. I've recently created a discord for people that are learning Japanese but unfortunately my studyblr is quite new and I don't have a large following. So i've been asking around if japanese langblrs could reblog it so that more people can see it, and that's why i'm here! You can absolutely say no if you don't want to, but i thought it would be worth to ask!!! Let me know, even privately!! Thank you 💖

oh absolutely, i would love to!! i’m sure it would be useful for a lot of my followers. could you please send me the link? 💛

top surgery fund

hey there everyone, i’ve been pretty radio silent since my a levels ended because i am not really working. i am a trans guy who has been on testosterone for five months now and really want to start getting myself to a position to be able to get top surgery. i have been binding since i was about 14 (i’m 18 now) and with asthma and hypermobility mean that the several intercostal muscle sprains because of both of those things, bindings a pain in my ass i can’t be bothered with and also, i don’t want to bind, want to yeet my tit.

as of right now i am looking at surgeons and speaking to my GIC about a referral to a surgeon (which will be about £300) and then a consultation which will likely be no more than £200 as far as I have seen and then hopefully no more than £7k for the actual surgery + all of that jazz.

i’m working on getting some money from various places but would really appreciate it if people were able to chip in just a lil bit via my paypal (paypal.me/jusafn). i’d really appreciate anything people are able to do, be that a small contribution or just reblogging.

tldr; gay, trans, nd, mentally ill, asthmatic  guy w/ hypermobility n semi fucked up ribs wants top surgery bus has no money pls help :”) link is paypal.me/jusafn

I swear i questioned life more than i already do already.

what does your bio mean? "the sea was never blue" ?

Homer used two adjectives to describe aspects of the colour blue: kuaneos, to denote a dark shade of blue merging into black; and glaukos, to describe a sort of ‘blue-grey’, notably used in Athena’s epithet glaukopis, her ‘grey-gleaming eyes’. He describes the sky as big, starry, or of iron or bronze (because of its solid fixity). The tints of a rough sea range from ‘whitish’ (polios) and ‘blue-grey’ (glaukos) to deep blue and almost black (kuaneos, melas). The sea in its calm expanse is said to be ‘pansy-like’ (ioeides), ‘wine-like’ (oinops), or purple (porphureos). But whether sea or sky, it is never just ‘blue’. In fact, within the entirety of ancient Greek literature you cannot find a single pure blue sea or sky.

— The Sea Was Never Blue, Maria Michela Sassi

What, from a cursory glance, appears blue generally has more to say. You lift a precious stone to the sunlight and it lights up, it refracts, but there’s always a side you can’t see. If you think you’ve thought of it all, think a little longer. There’s always more to consider. 

u ever get no sleep and the next day ur body functions like the tumblr app

PLEASE HELP ME AND MY FAMILY

Few months ago I started asking for donations because my sister’s husband left with another woman and has move to another country. We didn’t know where excacly. He doesn’t pay for anything, he doesn’t send any money. He is a piece of shit. He was homophobic towards me, he cheated on her when she was pregnant. He was controlling and jealous of everything. But my sister stayed with him because of the child.

Also she had to leave the place they live for the last 9 years because it was bought by his parents and they told her to move out. They never liked her and us because my family is poor.

She is back now in our parents home where I sill live too. There’s only two small rooms in the house, kitchen and one bathroom. All of this for 5 people now. They sleep on the floor in my bedrooom.

Also a two months ago my sister had a car accident and her car was completely trash. And she needs one because we live 5km from school and there’s no bus on my street or the next one.

For the last couple of months we raised 843$. It goes for bills, school payments and supplies and meds.

My sister is really depressed now and we need to help her with everything. She started taking antidepressands. They are not cheap and she still doesn’t work. So I ask you to help us a little more, maybe a month or two.

Also we all are strugling so much. We only have my father’s pension. that’s 1300zl for five people for the entire month. My health is not letting me work right now. I have asthma attacks almost every day. and I may have SM like my mom. Right now i don’t have money to buy meds. I’m 2 months behind with my bills.This is all the money I have:

I don’t know what to do. All my meds:

Please if you can spare even a dollar, it would be amazing. Paypal: monicakil@mail.com or gogetfunding

Also you could also saw similar post on my second blog: itsmagnuswinchester

UPDATE ON MONDAY JULY 21: I STILL DIDN’T REACH MY GOAL AND I’M GONNA BE WITHOUT MY MEDS NEXT WEEK. PLEASE EVEN A DOLLAR MAKE A DIFFRENCE

ALSO MY SECOND BLOG IS DOOMSDAYY AND YOU COULD SEE A POST THERE TOO.

Paypal: monicakil@mail.com or gogetfunding

one thing i hate about media is how there’s no sort of representation for how badly friendship break ups fuck you up. like there are a million and one films about romantic break ups but i have yet to see a film or television show that accurately depicts how difficult friendships falling apart can be and how that stuff can really leave you with wounds and behaviors that take ages to heal

You don’t have to hit rock bottom to deserve help.

You don’t have to reach a certain threshold of suffering to deserve help.

You don’t have to have it worse than anyone else before you deserve help.

You don’t deserve help less than anyone else.

Someone who’s fallen into 10 foot deep water needs a life preserver just as much as someone in 100 foot deep water. You don’t have to wait for it to get worse before you’re entitled to reach out, or seek treatment, or talk about it. 

i PERSONALLY would like to FALL IN LOVE please!!!!!! and have the SAME PERSON fall in love with me BACK!!!!!!! could i get some MUTUAL AFFECTION out here!!!!!!!!!!

in addition to the fact that people just have different natural rhythms, a big reason why we can’t seem to go to bed as early as we “should” is that nighttime is, for many of us, our safest and most fulfilling time of day. we don’t have to work, we won’t be contacted by bosses or insurance companies or collection agencies or other suffocating life business… we’re likely only to be contacted by our friends, or by no one at all. night time is release; it’s ours. we can rest or recreate. we can do things we actually want to do. who would choose to cut that short?? just to usher in the next morning when our lives are not our own again? nighttime is precious and nothing could be more normal than the desire to embrace this

I loveee ittt.

A spread from a while back

Sometimes I get overwhelmed by the vastness of things I want to be, do and achieve.

I want to be the girl reading Anna Karenina in a dimly lit cafe and losing herself in poetry and philosophy every night. Yet, I also want to be sharp and analytical and save lives with a scalpel in my hand. I want to travel the world and surprise people with how many languages I can speak - drink wine and watch ballet in France, explore abandoned castles in Scotland, feel the centuries of history in Italy and Greece, learn to surf in Hawaii or Australia. I want to have an attic studio where I can make art and laugh with my lover about the funny-looking portrait as I can never get the face proportions quite right. I want a house away from the city and a horse so that I can roam the fields. But I also want to live right in the middle of the city and admire the skyline and the skyscrapers every night. And the list goes on and on…

They say follow your passion but which one do I follow if there are only 24 hours in a day? I know I won’t be able to do all of the things I dream of but I personally object to having to limit myself.

reblog if you support those who have had an abortion.

We need to show support for them/us.

I want to cry but i have things to do