Lostindifference - Why..?

I wish my life was still mine, like when I was a kid felt so good to get home from school and have something to be passionate about doing but now it’s getting home from school and feeling like I have no privacy, no place where I can destress and be alone without someone else being there, it’s feeling like I have no life outside of what I do academically and that while I have a body, I’m not a person. I’m more of an object to fulfill the expectations of others. Someone that needs to respect everyone except myself. Someone expect to throw everything I know and believe aside to dial down myself and make me digestible for others. It hurts.

From The brink of suicide to Getting help, We Stan a Mental Health King

“Our bodies are instruments for our own personal use, experience, and benefit - not ornaments to be admired.”

Lexie and Lindsay Kite

girl exorcism ⊹˚. ♡

cuz sometimes we all get a little off track and need to wake the fuck up again !!! 🫶🩷

──★ ˙ ̟🐰 physical! 🎀

have an everything shower

do ur whole skincare routine

brush ur teeth, floss, dental care

arrange a new workout routine

dance, pilates, exercise, move around

go on a walk and thrive in nature like a plant or a tree

find and try out some new cute hairstyles

pamper urself! face masks, spa day, etc.

get ur beauty sleep

change your bedsheets and pillowcases

clean your makeup brushes

go through all haircare, skincare, makeup, etc. products

organise and donate or throw out all of the clothes you don't wear or don't make you feel like your own dream girl

──★ ˙ ̟🎀 mental! 🧸

write down all your thoughts. every one.

write down all the problems in your life right now

have a mental breakdown over something tiny and let all ur emotions out by bursting into tears

write down what you want and go over your dreams and goals

read over or write out your highest self and everything about them

analyse your mindset at the moment

write what limiting beliefs you have

remember and remind yourself of your "why", keep it somewhere you can see

write down all your bad habits

write down some new habits to counteract them, become your best self and to work towards the future

vaunt and go on a huuuge rant to urself about how beautiful and perfect and amazing you are bc you literally are <3

──★ ˙ ̟💬 personal! 🎀

sweep your room

open the curtains

wipe down all your mirrors

dust down all surfaces

go through all ur clothes and chuck out or donate ones you don't wear

clean out under your bed !!!!!!!!

rearrange your shelves

get some new posters & wall prints

go through all of the books, movies, series, content you're consuming right now and choose new ones that align with ur highest self

──★ ˙ ̟🎀 digital! 🎧

go through ur following on every platform and delete everyone that makes you feel even remotely negative

uninstall a bunch of apps you don't need

install useful, helpful, purposeful apps

go on the hunt for accounts that make you laugh, happy, or confident

redecorate your home page

revamp your social medias (pinterest, tumblr, instagram, etc)

go through all your playlists and reorganise your music

delete all depressing songs and media

go through your contacts, rename, delete, etc

Don't sabotage your future peace because familiar chaos is comfortable.

I just feel like a fraud when I do it because what if I’m just a queer girl? But I doubt I’m even that cause I don’t even think I like girls? My brains just running in circles about it at this point😖

Tips for figuring out your gender plz 💔😕

workouts & stretches for posture

🤍 5 minute everyday pilates back routine by lidia mera

🤍 8 minute fix for neck hump by yuuka sagwa

🤍 8 minute upper body stretch by mizi

🤍 10 minute fix forward head & neck posture by mizi

🤍 10 minute fix your posture pilates style stretch by eleni fit

🤍 10 minute workout & stretch for round back by pamela reif

🤍 10 minute slim back & better posture by emi wong

🤍 10 minute fix posture & reduce back pain by mady morrison

🤍 20 minute posture correction by akshaya agnes

🤍 25 minute workout for better posture by growingannanas

🤍 25 minute pilates for better posture by move with nicole

🤍 30 minute pilates for upper body & posture by move with nicole

Brushing my teeth is my arch nemesis, the bane of my existence, the bringer of evil and hardship, my enemy and my unreachable goal, the wall that stands strongly between me and being a somewhat functional 26 year old, a true symbol of incompetence and failure and...

Okay, I'm exedurating. But also I'm not. I have struggled with brushing my teeth all my life, but what I have struggled with even more is the shame I feel because of it.

"This shouldn't be hard, this shouldn't be an issue, I shouldn't be struggling with this."

Well, because of a multitude of things, I AM strugling with this. And saying that it should be easy isn't exactly helping.

I’m so violently unattractive that I hate developing crushes because if someone as ugly as me had a crush on me, I would feel disgusted.

I became so attached to my depression that I can't imagine my life without it anymore