Healthier Body.

Always take good care of yourself so you can take great care for others

light academia this dark academia that; there is one real academia and it’s made of rubber dusts, papercuts on fingers, oily hair that hasn’t been washed in a week, big yawns, used up highlighters, dark eyebags, missed deadlines and piled up books

Think of your brain as a computer. You have the power to program whatever the f*ck you want into your subconscious and watch it manifest in your day-to-day life.

don’t keep tabs on them, don’t speak on them, don’t interact with them & sincerely let them go

How to figure out the lesson in situations:

1. Identity the pattern. Think about the situations and people who have made you feel this way or brought you a specific outcome.

Are these relationships leaving you feeling the same way (undervalued, overwhelmed, or hurt)?

What character traits are you seeing (unavailability, neediness, or dishonesty)? Are you choosing people because of specific character traits (they don’t have to feel inherently negative to you)?

2. Think about your reactions to all of those things. Do you tolerate bad behavior hoping it will change? Do you avoid confrontation or fail to set boundaries? Do you feel like a victim or powerless?

3. Figure out what you are avoiding. Typically the lessons come from the things we resist. Are you avoiding self respect by settling for less? Are you ignoring red flags for fear of being alone?

4. Think about how your choices or beliefs contribute to these outcomes.

For example:

Do you over-give to earn approval?

Do you ignore your intuition to avoid conflict?

5. Ask yourself:

What can this situation teach me about self worth, boundaries, or communication?

How can I grow emotionally, mentally, or spiritually?

6. Practice the lesson actively:

If the lesson is about self worth, say no to people who devalue you.

If it’s about boundaries, start expressing your needs clearly.

You’ll know you’ve learned the lesson when similar situations arise and you respond differently, breaking the cycle.

*There is always a lesson to be learned (aside from the fact that the other person is probably a horrible human being) 😚 Don’t be stubborn about it and think you’re a perfect person. It doesn’t make you less perfect, or dumb, or deserving of how people treated you. The point is for you to grow, evolve and make sure it never happens again.

For the first time in such a long time, I felt confident in myself today.🥰

We had OSPE (Objective structured Practical Examination) and skill laboratory exams today, and I left the exam halls feeling as if I crushed them both. I was right about one of them, and I am waiting for the results of the second one.

Feeling confident doing these exams reminded me of the feeling of excelling in exams. The rush was something I really missed. Honestly, it gave more motivation to study for my finals, which are in 3 days. I'm hoping to keep this motivation until the end.

In a completely unrelated topic, my boyfriend has broken up with me. The excuse he used was that he didn't have much time to be dating and that he needed the time for other things. Am I disappointed? Definietly. But, I am not going to brood over it and work on myself to be better. This was the last chance I was willing to give to having a relationship in medical school, and that's done for 😅

The general takeaway from this is, "Don't date in medical school." 😂

You'll never be always motivated, so you must learn to be disciplined.

Complaining is ugly, lazy, and pathetic.

Here’s the thing: complaining doesn’t get results. Sitting around feeling sorry for yourself doesn’t change anything. If something isn’t working, you fix it. If you want something, you go after it. That’s how I live my life, and honestly? It’s why I’m thriving.

I don’t waste time blaming other people or circumstances for where I am. The truth is, no one’s coming to save you. No one is going to hand you the life you dream of. You have to wake up every day and decide to be better, to work harder, and to keep pushing—even when it feels impossible.

Yes, I’ve made sacrifices. Yes, I’ve had to shut out the noise and put in hours when everyone else was out partying or complaining about how unfair life is. But that’s why my life looks the way it does now. While other people were finding excuses, I was finding solutions.

I’ve learned that the universe rewards effort. It rewards discipline. It rewards consistency. If you want to live an extraordinary life, you have to put in extraordinary work. And no, it’s not always easy, but it’s always worth it.

So while people are out here complaining, I’ll keep showing up, doing the work, and watching my life transform. The results speak for themselves, and the best part? I’m just getting started.

to move on, you have to come to terms with the fact that you deserve something better than what you’ve convinced yourself you deserve

at some point I wanted this right

I wanted to be a doctor

right?