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When Kaylor exisits 🥰🍟🌈🍪☀️👸🏼

@taylorswift show us how you’ll be listening to the 10 minute version of “All Too Well”

Karlie

Elizabeth

Kloss

you

might

be less

Obvious?

a double proposal happened at tonight’s show during love story!!🤩🫶🫶

SEVEN IS GAY

SEVEN IS ABOUT TAYLOR

She literally opens saying picture me in the tees and the Spotify photos are of her in the trees. And she sings about a girl’s braids and having love for this girl, and packing their dolls and moving to India together and NOT CRYING OR HIDING IN CLOSETS TOGETHER

HIDING IN CLOSETS

Im confused if Daylight is a Swiftgron or Kaylor song? I once believed love would be (Black and white) But it's golden (Golden) And I can still see it all (In my head) Back and forth from New York (Sneaking in your bed) I once believed love would be (Burning red) But it's golden Like daylight, like daylight Like daylight, daylight This verse threw me off. New york, Gold... once believed love was burning red?

Hello. ❤️

My main interpretation of Daylight most days is that golden love is not primarily about connecting it to this or that person, but to the experience of a feeling and how we approach relationships as an adult after a number of experiences. A lot of it is about how we cope with things in life (not just romance) not being our idealistic experience. It’s more about love that isn’t just black and white—cut and dry—or burning red—intense and passionate—but golden like daylight—visible light is all colors of the spectrum. It’s taking the good with the bad, the simple with the complex, the entire rainbow of experiences and of emotion of life and letting go of the idea of some kind of fairytale life.

With that said, in terms of how I think the alleged relationships play into it: I’ve familiarized myself with the timeline of events and done my own research and have drawn my own conclusions over the last year. I believe based on what we can observe and deduce that Kaylor were rocky in 2016 and didn’t last in a substantial way past that for a variety of reasons.

There have also been lots of noteworthy and interesting things that appear to have been happening in Swiftgron social media coordinations and shenanigans since 2016. It seems like Dianna and Taylor reconciled, have been in contact and civil to varying degrees since around then.

Gaylors all have their own ideas of how they interpret the way events and songs have unfolded. I understand why Kaylors don’t want to see things this way. I don’t think Swiftgron are currently together or even that they have been in a committed relationship, but in light of folklore, it’s pretty obvious to me and those in the Swiftgron corner that Taylor considers Dianna her muse. That’s the only way folklore makes sense as autobiographical. With folklore, it’s clear Taylor has had a lot of feelings to work out about their alleged 2011-2013 relationship and whatever supposed cycles they’ve been through in and out of each other’s lives post-2016.

So with my stance in all that clarified, with Taylor’s art in mind, with Taylor saying she didn’t write after 1989, with my timelines and series of events in mind, with folklore completely upending whatever space I made for Kaylor in the rep/Lover equation before it came out...I’m feeling a lot less inclined now since the release of folklore to say “take them both into consideration” for rep/Lover. I’m still untangling my brain in light of the new album and trying to go back to rep and Lover, but at this point I wouldn’t attribute many songs to being even partially Kaylor-inspired off the top of my head. If you or others are not comfortable with that, I get it. It’s just what makes the most sense to me now with this how things have added up to this album.

Listen to folklore. Listen to Taylor. Look at the art. Look at the Easter eggs. Read my mini Series of Events posts. Ask yourself how that would all line up so well with Taylor’s art if Dianna wasn’t supposed to be taken seriously as “her muse” in 2020, and if absolutely nothing of significance has been going on with them these last few years.

I wouldn’t say anymore that New York or gold references are symbols of a Kaylor song, although I was willing to buy into that idea more before folklore.

Even my visible narrative-believing self of last summer/fall could see Taylor connecting Lover to Red and Dianna. Even I took note of the etymological connection of The Archer to what I didn’t even fully accept was a real relationship last summer in the overwhelming wave of Kaylor and Jaylor.

Dianna herself publicly appeared just weeks after the album release (for what I like to call Invisible String Day lol) in New York for a performance of False God (a song referencing New York) and Lover.

Taylor’s the one that wore a red rose on her shirt for the rep scene in the Lover music video, a symbol that we now know adds up to connecting to the lakes lyric a red rose grew up out of frozen ground and her disappearance in 2016 and Cornelia Street and MAATHP, which is making sense to all be about Dianna for me now.

Taylor’s the one that made the main focus of the snowglobe Lover video the Red room last summer, which features gold details.

Taylor’s the one that confirmed that the seahorse patch on the Red room jacket is because they mate for life.

Taylor’s the one that put the heart “you’re my person” patch on the Red room jacket.

Taylor’s the one that said “it’s been a happy, free, confused, sometimes lonely but mostly golden decade” which is a modified phrase from the liner booklet where Dianna’s name appears in 22.

And now Taylor has connected folklore to Red and “sad, beautiful, tragic” “lost love” with William Bowery co-writes that easily connect to Dianna as James.

And Taylor’s the one that said I’m setting off, but not without my muse to close the album.

And Dianna in Latin means “daylight”.

A string that pulled me out of all the wrong arms, right into that dive bar. Something wrapped all of my past mistakes in barbed wire. Chains around my demons, wool to brave the seasons. One single thread of gold tied me to you.

If you look at what Taylor has done with her art and the hints she’s been giving, it all just adds up to being Dianna.

Taymily Masterpost

This is my attempt at trying to chronicle the brief yet significant relationship of Taylor Swift and Emily Poe. I’ve tried to get this as accurate as possible, based on what I could research off the internet. If I find more information or corrections, I’ll update this accordingly. 

Emily Poe (now Stumler) was primarily Taylor’s fiddle player during the Taylor Swift and Pre-Fearless era. Her linkedIn profile states that she was working with Taylor from July 2006 until January 2008. She lists that her duties included:  “[having] Aided in image management, artist relations, and marketing strategy for artist. Performed for all live shows as the fiddle player and background vocalist. Assisted in merchandise sales at venues.”

Prior to the release of Taylor’s debut album, Emily was already hired as part of the band. Majority of their time together was spent on the road as Taylor became the opening acts of multiple country artists. Thus, this timeline will be heavy with journal mentions, pictures, and videos from their stops on tour, life on the bus, etc. which are labeled accordingly.

——2006——

**I find Taylor’s MySpace Bios from around that time very interesting. :)

2006-early 2008 = “I’ve never been the kind of girl who needs a boyfriend. I don’t go out looking for guys. But then again, I don’t write alot of love songs. Basically.. I’m single.” (x)

2008 = “I’ve never been the kind of girl who needs a boyfriend. I believe that love will find you when you’re not looking for it.. So I’ve been actively NOT looking for it for about 3 years now. I’ll let you know how that works out for me. It probably doesn’t help that I write songs about every guy I talk to.” (x) 

July 22 - [Journal Entry] First mention of Emily with Taylor basically fangirl-ing over her (x)

July 24 - First live performance with Emily

 Live @ The Whiskey a Go Go (video) where Taylor dropped this bit when introducing the band: “This is Emily over here on fiddle. Now Emily has a boyfriend, but she has agreed that what happens in LA stays there.” [3:56 mark]

Tim McGraw Performance with Nathan Chapman & Emily - (x) (x) [unknown specific date]

Rhapsody TV performances - (x) (x) [unknown specific date]

Performing at a football game with Scott Borchetta & Emily - (x) (x) [unknown specific date]

September 1 - Grand Ole Opry debut performance (x 1:34 mark)

October 19-28 & November 1-3 - On Tour with Rascal Flatts as an opening act replacing Eric Church (x) (x) (x)

——2007——

January 11 to March 3 - On Tour with George Strait as an opening act (x) 

January 12 - [Journal Entry] their first show with George Strait and being domestic with Emily on the bus (x)

January 17 - [Journal Entry] talks about Emily and the ‘Teardrops on My Guitar’ MV shoot (x) 

February 12 - [Journal Entry] mentions Emily and their Grey’s Anatomy watching rituals on the bus (x)

May 30 - Taylor sang the Original Version of ‘Sparks Fly’ (which she wrote in 2006 before releasing ‘Tim McGraw’) at a show in Gold Country Casino in CA. The next few times she performed it that year were in bar shows with around only 40-50 people. 

April - September - select dates of Brad Paisley’s Bonfires & Amplifiers Tour

Pranking Rodney Atkins (video) (x) - November ½ as of her MySpace Journal Entry (the last of which she mentions Emily by name or at all)

fooling around backstage with standees of Brad (x)

June - September - select dates of Tim McGraw & Faith Hill’s Soul2Soul Tour (x) (x) (x) (x)

October - duo Halloween costume as ‘The Wreckers’ with Taylor as Michelle Branch & Emily as Jessica Harp (x) (x) (x) 

November - Taylor’s First CMAs performance (her last with Emily as part of the whole band). (x)

December

CMT’s Studio 330 Sessions (pictures) / (videos)

Taylor’s MySpace journal entry dated Dec. 05, 2007 - where she mentions meeting Colbie Caillat and says they “got together and wrote a killer song”

Emily attends Taylor’s 18th Birthday party at Lot 7 in Nashville (pictures) (x) / (MV for the song ‘Beautiful Eyes’ released in 2008 using footage from the party)

—-TOUR VIDEOS/MOMENTS ON TOUR/STUFF ON THE BUS [specific dates are unknown]—-

With Scott Brochetta & label officials at Big Machine Records - (x)

Emily in a cheerleader outfit - (x) (x) 

With fans/other musicians/friends - (x) (x) (x) (x) (x) (x) (x) (x) (x)

With Mama Swift - (x) (x)

Just the two of them - (x) (x) (x) (x) (x) (x) (x) (x) (x) (x) (x)

the “Gay Texan” picture - (x)

Taylor & Emily in a restaurant playing with utensils - (x) Emily says at the end, “People are getting really mad” while Taylor laughs

2007 Summer Vacation to the Grand Canyon - (x) (x) (x) (x) (x) (x)

Setting fire to a Dora the Explorer cake - (x) (x) 

A compilation of her tour diaries - (x) Emily appears multiple times

*Taylor’s MySpace Video for Emily - which featured Taylor and many different people holding up a handwritten sign that read “I love you, Emily ❤️ [hand drawn heart]”, a letter to her from Taylor, apart from a montage of their moments together set to ‘Stolen’ by Dashboard Confessional as the background song (’you have stolen my heart’ is a repeated lyric).

the letter, reads: “Emily– I feel as if our relationship has been taken to the next level over the past few months and with much contemplation I decided I would bestow upon you one of my most prized possession: my flamingo bandana. This is a 3rd generation family heirloom and i suggest you frame it. I think it will look perfect in your apartment with the cat pillows. Enjoy”

——2008——-

January - Grand Ole Opry Performance / Last Documented-Live Performance with Emily (x)

July - ‘Beautiful Eyes’ EP release / Taylor posted the video for ‘I’m Only Me When I’m With You’ which includes snippets of Emily since a lot of the footage was taken from her tour diaries.

November - ‘Fearless’ release date -> “Breathe” ft. Colbie Caillat 

in addition to the fact that it was written around the time she lasts mentions Emily by name on her blog (or at all), Taylor’s explanation about writing ‘Breathe’ points it very much towards Emily. (part 1) (part 2)

Taylor: “It was total therapy because I came in and I was like look you know one of my best friends, I’m going to not have to see anymore and is not going to be part of what I do and it’s like the hardest thing to go through.  It’s crazy listening to the song because you’d think it’d be about a relationship, but it’s really about losing a friend and having a fallout, just the loss.”

Colbie: “It can relate to anyone, anything.”

Taylor: “It does, it’s never specific as to why, that’s my favorite thing about it, it doesn’t talk about why or who’s fault it was because sometimes the hardest time of when you say goodbye it’s nobodies fault. It just has to stop.”

The lyrics tell the story so well, honestly. (x) especially the repeated and haunting ‘i’m sorry’

 Did I mention the song’s secret message on the album was ‘i’m sorry i’m sorry i’m sorry’ as well? (x)

——————-

2011 - 3 years later…

VH1 posts a pop-up video for ‘Our Song’ and basically challenges the reason on Emily’s departure. It explains that she was allegedly fired without being given a reason and that “Taylor never talked to her again”. Thus further fueling the idea that “Breathe” was really about Emily and that it was more than just a ‘friendship falling out’. 

In January/February 2012, Emily & her husband’s wedding/love story was featured in an article. She cites a bit of her time with Taylor and says that it led her to pursue law school thus leaving music (and Taylor) for good. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

“…I started with watching her on the road,” she explained. “She had just started and I lived with her on the bus with her mom, and I was watching you know, deals come through. She got this deal with Verizon and instead of - you know, I loved music - but I would sit there and read the contracts. I thought, I think I really want to do this. So when I came off the road I pretty much went straight to law school. I loved contracts. “The last week I was working for her ‘Our Song’ was Number 1,” she continued. “So I watched a growth of the artist. There’s tons of business involved, that’s what people don’t realize. It’s more than just the music.”

6 years of 1989 / october 27, 2014 - october 27, 2020

we begin our story in new york. there once was a girl known by everyone and no one. her heart belonged to someone who couldn’t stay. they loved each other recklessly. they paid the price. she danced to forget him. he drove past her street each night. she made friends and enemies. he only saw her in his dreams. then, one day, he came back. timing is a funny thing, and everyone was watching. she lost him, but she found herself and somehow ... that was EVERYTHING.

New Kaylors, This Is A PSA

New Kaylors- PLEASE LISTEN TO ME!

Pun unintended.

Do not, and I repeat, do not listen to TTB. I am a seasoned Kaylor, and I can assure you, you will fare far better if you avoid her blog entirely. Trust me, I am speaking from experience.

I have been a Kaylor for years and it was only a couple of months back when Taylor said she was “advocat[ing] for a community [she] was not a part of” (that damn article) when the spell wore off and I realized that I had been buying into something non-existent for ages.

Now before I go any further, I would like to clarify my stance on Kaylor. I think it’s dead, and that they’ve broken up. I wish it wasn’t so, but it would seem that their love story has met a bitter end. I still think that they dated, or at least had something special sometime from 1989 into Reputation, but it has become increasingly apparent that they are no longer close.

For years, I would repost TTB’s asks on my IG page, I would reblog her posts, I would send her asks. I bought her, and what’s more I bought into Spade (will discuss Spade later). I was a total fan, I thought of her as the queen of Kaylors, our ultimate treasure and resource.

I was wrong.

For starters, she is unnecessarily rude towards Joe. I mean, personally, I don’t trust Joshua Kushner as far as I can throw him (I don’t trust any Kushner, and I’ve been feeling kind of distant towards Karlie on account of this association, and other factors), and I don’t really like Joe, nor do I dislike him (”it isn’t love, it isn’t hate, it’s just indifference”) but Joe doesn’t have any criminal ties. Joe isn’t related to one of the biggest crime families in America. Joe is an actor from England (however he is a Pisces, so I don’t know, he could be way more sinister than I thought) and I just don’t think that we need to harbor such negative feelings towards him. There are better, more Kaylor-y ways we could be spending our time, like by streaming DWOHT or making cute Kaylor edits and then hyping up each other’s Kaylor edits. She scribbled over his face when posting a picture of him on her blog, and the reason given for that behavior was that she didn’t want him gaining publicity or exposure from her blog (which she is allegedly convinced Taylor herself frequents, take note of the word ‘allegedly’). I mean, pretty sure all of the Kaylors would be familiar with Joe anyway, given his connection to Taylor, so I am not sure what she gains by being so adamant about him not receiving any publicity from her blog.

Secondly, and this is something I want to place great emphasis on here. Taylor is not coming out, not anytime soon, anyway, or at least, I don’t think so, but I don’t have a confidential source to consolidate this information for me, so I don’t know. She could pull an Evelyn Hugo (highly recommend the Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo by Taylor Jenkins Reid by the way, sooooooo many Kaylor parallels and just overall a great book) and release details about her relationships and sexuality when she’s retired, but Taylor is not coming out in an edition of Rolling Stone, not now, I don’t think. And if you think Karlie will be, well, I’d like to direct you to her Instagram page. By the way, if you’re also upset about her affiliations with Scooter and Joshua, just unfollow her, it works wonders. Commenting won’t do anything, in fact it probably just pleases Scooter to know how many fans of Taylor’s are irked by Karlie’s connection to him, because that’s just the kind of sick, disgusting man he is.

And speaking of those two, Kaylor is over. Well, I think so anyway. Kaylor is honestly speculation, no matter how much there is to suggest it’s real, and I don’t know Taylor or Karlie personally, so do not take this as fact. I don’t have any secret sources who send me riddles or private info, I’m just going off of what I see and hear. I mean, Taylor could be making out with Karlie right now, or Taylor could be on the dark web trying to take a hit out on her. The point is, we know nothing, no matter how much we wish we did.

Furthermore, let’s get into the main reason why TTB is so popular: Spade. Spade is her… I don’t know. At first, I thought he was a godsend, but once I stopped buying into her posts, I realised how nonsensical it seemed that some high-up representative of Taylor or Karlie would be communicating with this one Kaylor account feeding it tidbits of information about what would be one of the most confidential relationships in Hollywood. I mean, there are multiple Kaylor accounts that have a significant following- so why just TTB if this is a representative of one of the girls? Why not reach out to multiple big blogs if you want to The most logical explanation would be that Spade is TTB’s own creation that she uses to garner interest in her blog and further her own agenda. A more reach-y, though not totally implausible theory is that Spade, or even TTB herself (she gives very little information about her actual line of work) is a low-level employee of Team Klossy, or an intern over there, who uses Kaylor as a way of retaining some of Karlie’s fans, given that many are mad at her over the Scooter thing (because TTB is not the only Kaylor account that claims to have sources), but I doubt it. The point is, Spade is a farce. Spade predominantly (pretty much exclusively) messages TTB in the form of cryptic riddles, which, with a little shuffling, pretty much go along with whatever yarn TTB is spinning that week. And then on top of that, there are allegedly “private messages” between her and Spade that contain secrets she isn’t allowed to divulge. Okay? It’s cult-ish, almost, the enigmatic Spade and the glorious TTB who heralds his messages about the mysterious complexities of Kaylor through apocryphal missives. Biblical, is it not? It makes you feel special, like you hold secrets that others are not privy too, and it is a marvelous, truly euphoric feeling.

The main reason I’m writing this isn’t because I have some personal vendetta against TTB. I’m writing this because I know that the majority of Kaylor shippers are (mostly young, some are older) gay women, a lot of whom did not come from particularly supportive homes, who seek solace and comfort in knowing that a woman they admire and look up to is just like them and knows what they’re experiencing, just like myself. People who find happiness in the queer subtext of Taylor’s albums and in there being a community that’s dedicated to the loving pairing of two women. It’s not about fetishism (by the way, for any non-Kaylors reading this, please stop throwing that word around every time you come across a Kaylor) nor projecting nor sexualization, it’s about love and support and comfort, and in some cases discovery, because I know that Kaylor helped me realise my identity and I know it did for others too. And quite frankly, I don’t think it’s fair that TTB spouts stuff she knows is garbage when she is aware of this large demographic of Kaylors. And that’s the reason for this post, because I don’t want some other, young, naive Kaylor falling into the same trap I did where they take her word as gospel only to feel deflated and humiliated when they wake up and realise they’ve been buying into utter fantasies.

And no, I am not saying that TTB is solely responsible for this. As I mentioned I was naive and desperate to believe, and Taylor herself didn’t exactly dissipate rumors, especially during the YNTCD rollout but personally, her actions feel quite manipulative. She keeps telling her readers that Kaylor is still alive and the contracts are over and it is not good, not for anyone’s mental health, especially those deeply invested in Kaylor, to keep buying into it. I don’t know why she keeps pushing Kaylor, maybe she’s too proud to let it go or maybe she’s hoping to generate enough engagement to start collecting ad revenue, I genuinely don’t know what she gains by beating this dead horse, but I have reason to believe it is nothing admirable. Hope and optimism is admirable yes, but not when it turns into naivete and desperation.

This ire is not directed at any of the other Kaylors, just her and the way she proudly peddles these lies, knowing of all of the hopeful Kaylors out there who are being lulled into a false sense of security. I implore you, please try to look at her page objectively and look at what she posts. The secret messaging, the cryptic codes. I know when you’re right there, taking it all in, how exciting it feels to know something that not everyone else does, to see all of the little ways Karlie and Taylor communicate- but please just try to look at it from an objective point-of-view.

Now, this part, I cannot confirm all of the tales, so please do not take this as fact because I could be very wrong about this statement, but I have seen screenshots of various messages and heard of some terrible stories about her bullying, and attacking anyone who criticizes her with disturbing levels of vitriol and malice. Former Kaylors, current Kaylors and Toe shippers have all shared screenshots or stories of her being awfully vicious towards people, and I just don’t believe that the Kaylor community, a place of support and care for those who might not receive it at home, should be tolerable of such aggravated behavior. She even came after @thetaylorfiles at one point, a blogger who has always respectfully critiqued some of the more whimsical aspects of her blog and the enigma that is Spade, which was uncalled for and rude.

Again, this isn’t some spiteful attack on TTB, this is a heartfelt plea to all of the new Kaylors who are in the same position as I was, please try not to listen. I know it is tempting and it sounds convincing and damn, is she persuasive, but it is a lie. She is a fraud, and what’s more, it has been made abundantly clear that she does not care. For someone that speaks so highly of their own maturity and rationale when engaged in combat with someone, her willingness to lure people, particularly new Kaylors who haven’t found their feet yet, to me is gross. I can’t tell if she knows she is belaboring the continued existence of Kaylor and enjoys her notoriety too much to acknowledge the truth or if she is genuinely still under the impression that Taylor and Karlie are still together, if it is the latter, fine, maybe she’ll learn one day. If it is the former, then I can safely say that I have no respect for her. People look up to her. People admire her. People worship her. And if she is truly willing to drag those people along, then there is nothing more to say.

Now, before I close off, I would like to reiterate that, this is my opinion. This is the experience of a big Kaylor, who, just like most other Kaylors that frequent Tumblr, listened to and loved TTB. But then the spell ended. Because that is exactly what this is. It’s a spell. It’s an illusion. You can wear a mask and dance the night away at a masquerade ball, but eventually, all that dancing will make the mask fall right off. And for me, that mask fell off. Once it did, I felt sad, embarrassed even, that I had let myself fall into this myriad of deceit. And once again, I will clarify that I am not implying that TTB was solely responsible for this. Nobody would ever be convinced of the existence of Kaylor by just one blog alone, Taylor and Karlie’s actions were obviously the driving force, but she went along with the exact same sins that she condemned Taylor and Karlie for. Enforcing an illusion. Playing a long game of charades. TTB is by no means the only Kaylor blog out there that claims to have “sources”, but she is one of the biggest and most unrelenting Kaylors out there, which is why I would

Now, if you’ve read this and you still want to take a gander at her page, or, if I have unintentionally increased her viewership, please just keep this in the back of your mind. I have nothing to gain, and I have nothing to lose. I have no personal grudge against TTB, I have never had an unpleasant interaction with her. But please, I implore you, do not fall into the same trap I did. Be objective, be reasonable and keep your wits about you.

Some Kaylor blogs that I like include:

@kaylorfossil

@kayloralisonswift (if you’re in the same boat I am and you have some queries, or if you would like a more objective opinion from a Kaylor)

@kaylorrepdetective

@kaylorswiftkloss13

@femmetay​ (a personal favourite of mine, always has a great take)

@fearlyssa​

@kaylorkloft​

@kaylorgifs​

@fallfrovmgrace​

(I will add to this list as I go).

Oh, and, word to the wise, you may hear whisperings of a blogger named Enty, who runs “Crazy Days and Nights”. I recommend steering clear of Enty too, his story changes with the tide.

And by the way, this is in no way an attack on anyone who reads or believes in her stuff, I am not saying anyone here is stupid for doing so and I am not trying to make anyone who believes in her feel bad, because I used to do it to. I just want to encourage objective thinking at the very least, if I cannot dissuade people from reading her blog.