Once You Deny Yourself That Craving Once, Then Twice, You’ll Find Yourself At The End Of A Week Having

Welcome back to its really hot and I’m going to murder someone

growing up I was always afraid of being Found Out. not sure what I was hiding. just my whole self I guess

Tom picking up AJ's hands like 🤏🤏

me trying to teach music to a classroom full of little kids now that I've got my bachelors degree in music

One thing really worth working on is not to let one bad thing that happened during an otherwise positive day ruin it, or letting a negative comment dominate your thoughts when you’ve mostly received praise. We focus so much on the negative that we let it completely dominate our minds, feeling guilty and ashamed even when there are so many better things to focus on. Let’s not let a mean comment, someone passing judgment, a bad thing happening to ruin our entire day and to crush the way we feel about ourselves.

I've failed myself so much these last 3 weeks.. I've been eating without looking at the calories and giving up even trying to limit what I've been eating, making these dumb excuses for myself.

I feel unbelievably disgusting and fat. So angry at myself for letting it get to this point.

This is the time that something needs to happen, because I know that I won't be able to hold on like this for long.

Having an eating disorder is far too goddamn fucking annoying. I'm either torn between starving myself until it hurts or eating because I know I'll just fail at starving.

‘The world is huge and we can’t take all of it on. Enjoy what’s around you, the people around you, because life is about diving into what we have, when we have it.’

I’ve been in a very bad place mentally, because of the high standards I set for myself. In everything I do I find something negative to punish myself for, which has made me not want to risk doing anything at all. I’ve been trying to finally tell someone about this, instead of hiding it on my own, but that’s been very difficult.

I came across this public cameo on pinterest and I think everyone deserves to see it. I’m sorry for the very personal post. And I’m especially sorry if you’ve been feeling this way too or have in the past. Even if it’s just a bad day, I truly hope it does get better. And I’m sure Tom would agree. (even if your name isn’t Kyle)

So, let’s all lower the stakes and get us some freaking sunshine! I know I definitely need that so maybe you do too

:)

I'm not sure who actually wants to see this, but here is AJ as GOD (secretly undercover as an instagram model)