Whos Gonna Get Me This For The Ides

Sodapop Curtis who loves too hard and doesn't get loved hard enough in return.

He has to love too hard because he doesn't, who will?

Sodapop who offers to move into his baby brother's room to help with his nightmares. Not just for Pony's sake, but for Darry's too. so that Darry can get more sleep and go do his job better rested. Sodapop who drops out of the school that made him feel so stupid for years, but not for himself. No, he drops out so that he can help Darry afford the house. He drops out so that Darry doesn't kill himself trying to pay for everything on his own. Sodapop who will come home from working his own long shift and sit down to give his brother a massage so that he doesn't injure himself. Sodapop who needs to be the constant mediator between his brothers. Sodapop who separates them and then listens to them each individually. He'll listen to Darry's vents about work and money and will offer his support. He'll listen to Pony's fears and reassure him that Darry doesn't hate him, but loves him more than anything. Sodapop who doesn't really have that for himself. He's the family's heart and soul.

So, even when Sandy leaves, Soda knows they have bigger things to worry about than his "silly breakup". He refuses to make it a big deal. Because he knows that Darry is worried sick about the hospital bills and how they're going to afford those while also having food and heat for the fall and winter. He knows that Ponyboy is mourning his best friend and is never going to be the same. So, Soda reassures them and comforts them. But he can't do it forever. Some nights he cries. And not his usual, loud sobs. These are silent, heavy tears that fights their way out of his eyes and glide down his face slowly. It's when he's in bed, late at night, usually after he calms Pony down from a nightmare. Then, he lets himself break. And he cries. He cries for Sandy and what she did to him, for Dally and Johnny and all their suffering, for Pony and the pain he's experiencing, for Darry who almost had the life he wanted, for the whole gang who are never gonna be whole again. And he does it alone. Because he doesn't want other people to worry about him. He can handle it himself, they have bigger problems.

Soda, who knows he's loved, but wishes that someone would tell him or show him a little more often.

hi!! if anyone has davis!soda that they are willing to share..... my dms are wide open!

snoopy and jpc???

besties !!!

My physical form can no longer contain my love for the outsiders. I must explode.

im fr crying

this is just too special not to share with u guys. hope u enjoy. 🤍

what if i combust

2022 New Year thing

hey so i haven’t seen anybody mention the “dan berry on a magnet” moment from the recast and i think it needs to be talked about

take all of darrel’s suffering, triple it, and give it to paul

who wants to go to Pershing park with me next Saturday night for some all out war 🥺🥺🥺

favorite lighting/projection cues in the outsiders part 1/?

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