I Don't Think I Can Ever Explain The Type Of Feeling The Astronaut Invokes In Me

i can't take this. i can't take this. why birth me if im not what you desired. you should have known better than to give birth to me, you are a fool.

im sorry I'm sorry ik im the monster but you can't blame. you made me, you are the reason I'm like this, you will always be the reason I'm like this

Why does when something happens I have to limit myself, why can't I just fucking not ruin everything for myself

i miss something so much but i don't know what it is, it's been eating at me. what is it that i miss so much idk idk

im not okay

something about hearing it from someone else that I actually do not have anyone who cares for me and loves me. hearing that from your own parents, is eye opening. why did you give birth to me. why did you fucking give birth to me.

i miss reading

kind of wanna disappear again, off the planet. forever. kind of wanna go back to old habits. wanna make everyone know that i still am indeed fucked in the head

i feel so bad for hyyh seokjin

I'm scared i won't be me after this. I'm scared I'll lose myself. my sanity is hanging by a thread for real

I wish I could have told you I missed you too but I didn't wanna lose my dignity more than I did with you