the concept of time is so terrifying to me. and just walk with me here but how scary is it that, say, when you were nine years old you had a set of friends and you had hobbies and likes and dislikes and your whole world revolved around those things. and now? you can hardly remember a moment from then. it doesn't even have to be when you were nine, take now. you, now, have a set of friends and hobbies and likes and dislikes and you have opinions and all that is what makes up you. and in a few years, those are gonna go away and you're gonna get new opinions and new likes and dislikes and you're gonna change, and then change, and then change again and it's just gonna keep going and going and never stop - you'll never be this you again, you'll never be the exact same as you are right now, ever again. and that's scary. i have a friend group, and we've all been friends for the last three years. i can't imagine the last three years of my life without them, i genuinely don't think i can understand how immensly different my life would be if i didn't have them. and eventually, these people that mean the life to me and i love so very much, these people that i would genuinely die for, are just gonna be memories. they'll end up to be one of the many pages in my life i've doggy-eared. how fucking terrifying.
one of my pet peeves is when im telling a friend about a grade i got that im annoyed at, and they say like "oh that's so good, whyre you mad?" or "you should not be complaining about thatðŸ˜" or smth. like ho, just cuz you get bad grades and are satisfied with the bare minimum doesn't mean i amðŸ˜ðŸ˜.
got a 83 on a science test a bit ago, and i was telling my friend and she was like, "that's so good, i wish i would get grades like that in science. don't complain, that's a good grade." i was annoyed by the grade because that was the first b i had gotten in science, all year. like, yes im gonna complainðŸ˜
wtvr.
the wckd suits had me going feral
its up!!! i hope yall like it, and leave a comment!
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guys i cant stop watching jess mariano edits my fyp has been taken over plz help
actually no wait leave me tf alone
so real
SOMEONE COMMENTED ON MY AO3 FIC IM ABOUT TO EXPLODE
i just can't understand the idea of "one night stands". sex is such an intimate thing, and to allow a rando who probably doesn't even know your favorite colour is so bizarre. to let someone see you naked and at your purest state when you don't even know what they wanted to be growing up. having a "one night stand" with someone SHOULD have strings attached. and the past people you've had sex with shouldn't be known as "bodies". they should be people you once truly cared for, not someone you saw at a club for the very first time. idk it's just so bizarre to me.
having hamilton songs on your playlist is so weird. i js went from aaron burr, sir to call your mom by noah kahan.
YOU KNOW THAT I LOVE YOUUU AND I HAVE A FEELING THAT YOU LOVE ME BACKK <3
WE'RE SAT IN MY BEDROOOOMMM AND I HEAR YOUR HEART LIKE A TRAIN ON YHE TRACKS <3
YOURE EYES ARE LIKE HEAVEN YOUR VOICE IS LIKE RAIN <3
ELEVEN ELEVENS THEY ALL HEAR YOUR NAME <3
IM TOO SHY TO TELL YOU THE WORDS ON MY MIND <3
I HOPE YOU CAN SEE IF YOU READ THROUGH THESE LINES <3
THAT I WROTE THIS SONG ABOUT YOUUUU <3
SOMETHING I WISH YOU KNEWWWW <3
SOMETHING IVE TRIEDDD TOOOO SAYYYYY <3
BUT NOW ILL SAYYY IT STRAIGHTTTT <3
I WROTE THIS SONG ABOUT YOUUUUU <3
bro i literally do not know what to fucking write for my damn ficðŸ˜ðŸ˜its gonna be a damn MONTH since i last updated ts and im NOOOWHERE near done. im not even fucking like halfway. i actually skipped writing a bit cuz i didnt know wtf to do and then wrote a bit more and then JUST realized that i have to write all that shit too. and like theres a LOT that i skipped overðŸ˜ðŸ˜ and i have no motivation to write cuz idk what to do. like ill sit down and get ready to write and then ill put music on (cuz i write w music) and i forgot about the fic and jammed out to my music while putting makeup on. or ill js watch my netflix show. or ill see my pinterest tab open and go there.
im so fucking screwed
its pride month... it is, i fear, PRIDE MONTH???? why are we hating on one another during PRIDE MONTH? isnt the beauty of being apart of the lgbtq community that we all care for eachother and love eachother NO MATTER our sexuality, but because we know the struggles our identities have been through and we're here to support eachother MORE THAN EVER now????
QUICK FUCKING REMINDER
being bisexual DOES NOT MEAN being GAY or being STRAIGHT. it means that we like BOTH men AND women. BOTH. NOT JUST ONE. BOTH. can we have a preference? yes we can. you can like mainly men with a sprinkle of women and still be bisexual. you can like mainly women with a sprinkle of men and still be bisexual. you can have only ever dated men and never a woman OR vice versa AND STILL BE BISEXUAL. IF YOU ARE ATTRACTED TO BOTH MEN AND WOMEN, THEN YOU ARE BISEXUAL.
have we all not been through enough fucking hate over the years?? why are we hating on one another during a month where we're meant to embrace ALL of us??