I Dont Think Ill Ever Not Be Angry. Genuinely. There's So Many Things That I Wish Were Different, That
i dont think ill ever not be angry. genuinely. there's so many things that i wish were different, that i wish didn't happen, wish didn't exist - and i cant do anything about it.
im angry for the planet that is literally dying minute by minute and im angry for the women that are constantly oppressed all over the world and im angry for the animals that are losing their homes because of humans and im angry for the people that go home and have to genuinely decide whether their money is gonna go towards buying food or going to the doctor and im angry for the animals that are losing their lives or going extinct because of humans and im angry for the people that have lost their history or their land or their culture or their language or their way of life because of humans and im angry for the children that are dying all over the world because people dont know how to disagree without starting wars and im angry for the people that cant love who they want to love because of where they live and im angry for the people that hate the situation theyre in so much that they feel the only option is to kill themselves.
and thats all on a global scale, theres so much on a personal level that im angry for too.
im angry for my mother for the life she lives and im angry at my father for the way he chooses to live and im angry for my friend that's never been able to trust a boy without getting hurt and im angry for my other friend that feels the need to seek validation from a guy and im angry for my neighbor who's a mom of two kids and their father doesn't have a job and is always drinking and im angry for the kid down the street who is constantly and i mean constantly avoiding being in his house even when its so hot it feels like the earth has moved miles upon miles closer to the sun because his house is always loud and im angry for my friend who had to be in a class with their rapist and the administration did nothing about it.
and im angry for me because i really really dont think this'll ever change, there's so much for me to be angry about, and i dont like feeling angry because it reminds me of my father and im already too much alike him, but i dont think i can do anything about this anger, and im angry that i cant do anything about it.
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y'know what i want?
a girlfriend :D
having hamilton songs on your playlist is so weird. i js went from aaron burr, sir to call your mom by noah kahan.
my grandma is dead. it was my parents wedding anniversary. my dad bought flowers and a cake. i came home screaming, "happy wedding anniversary!!" only to be cut off by my dad. he pulled me aside and said, "grandma's dead."
my grandma is dead. it's my mother's birthday february 1st. she's turning 49. my brother was meant to come home and we were gonna plan a surprise for her.
my grandma is dead. ten minutes after i found out, i took my dog out for a walk. i left at 4:20. i came back at 5:30. i was crying the whole time.
my grandma is dead. the grief came in waves. i would remember, then cry, then stop. and then remember, then cry, and then stop. remember, cry, stop. remember, cry, stop.
my grandma is dead. the last thing she said to me was, "stay safe. ill see you next time,". now there is no next time. the next time will be me infront of her grave.
my grandma is dead. i was too scared to talk to my mom. too scared to look at her. i would cry if i did. and i can't cry infront of my mom about her mom dying, that's rude.
my mother's mother is dead. she has no parents any more. when we went to visit her, my mom would tell my cousins and aunts and uncles that her mom was fine. she was bedridden but could still speak, she could still remember everything, she only had trouble hearing. she would tell everyone that that's how strong her mother is. was.
my grandma is dead. and god i miss her. id only ever seen her 12-16 times. me and my family live in the us, but everyone else lived outside the us. traveling home costs a lot, and so we could only go once a year. but i wish we went more. i wish i talked to her more. i wish i sat with her more. i wish she was still alive.
my grandmother is dead.
BROO DID YALL SEE THE STRANGER THINGS SEASON FIVE ANNOUNCEMENT???
in case you haven't yet <3
part 1 - november 26th
part 2 - christmas day
the finale - new years eve
im SO beyond excited it looked fucking amazing and im hoping and wishing that the ending is good and they didn't absolutely butcher it. but dude. why the FUCK would they drop it NOW?????? SIX MONTHS???? 😆🔫
guys i cant stop watching jess mariano edits my fyp has been taken over plz help
actually no wait leave me tf alone
cuz this JUST happened to me😭
Holy moly dude.
The feeling you feel when you finally break free of a writers block. When you finally finish that paragraph that you had no idea how to complete. When you finally find a way to fix that story that always felt incomplete. That amazing feeling that makes you feel like ur on top of the world and untouchable.
I live for it.
update: js went from satisfied to my kink is karma by chappel roan 😃👍
lwk not complaining tho
having hamilton songs on your playlist is so weird. i js went from aaron burr, sir to call your mom by noah kahan.
introduction!
1-15-2025
hi!!! my names my-little-universes but you can call me gabi. idk how to do this but imma wing it. okay here we go.
fandoms i like!
the maze runner (down badd)
marvel (also down bad)
harry potter (also down bad pt.2)
stranger things
gilmore girls
the outsiders (also down bad pt.3)
hamilton
billie eillish
stray kids
other random shit!
age - why tf you wanna know...???
music - billie eillish (!!), kendrick lamar, adrianne lenker, conan gray, chappel roan, megan thee stallion, mj, stray kids, and more.
oh im a girl. and very bi.
i curse a lot. im trying to get better, swear. (im not.)
lovee to read. and write. currently in the middle of writing a tmr fanfic!
into politics a little.
hate the living shit out of school.
my online name is gabi cuz that's what my spanish teacher used to call me when she couldn't pronounce my real name 😭
not a fan of math.
my ao3. dont expect regular updates. i try but i edit my shit wayy too much.
tags!
this bit is like the constitution, she's an alive document. so whenever i think of/get new tags ill add em.
so farrrr the only tag i have is "a little universe" (get it? cuz of my name?) and its used when i talk about my fic!
okay idk what else to add. bye!
so today i bought a journal, ripped a piece of paper out of a different old journal, and wrote "the book of people" on said piece of paper, and taped it to the cover of my new journal.
then, i skipped two pages and titled the page "mom". i proceeded to write - what i could only describe as - a letter of sorts, to my mom. now of course, she will never see this letter, nor will anyone else, so i did my best to be as truthful as i could possibly be. im not sure why but, even in my journal, i tend to censor myself a little - im not fully honest. i say i am, but im not. i did try tho.
after i finished my letter, where i wrote all my feelings towards my mother - the good and bad - i went back a page, and titled it "table of contents" and skipped a line and wrote "mom (1-4)".
the idea of this is to, essentially, write a letter to everybody in my life and fill the book up with it - a book of people.
im not sure why i wrote this or why im sharing this. but it was fun. i found that when i wrote this letter, i was able to reflect on a lot of things. able to think back on things, and see things clearer. now of course, the idea of writing things down to better process it isn't new.
i think, overall, im js excited. to write about all these people who i love. and of course, the name is "the book of people" so i have to write about the people i hate too. not fun. but idk. i js wanted to share. have a good night y'all.
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