Pearlykissxoxo - Pearly’s Online Journal

WARNING:

POSSIBLE NSFW & SH MENTIONS

I just got a message from I think a bot or maybe a scammer trying to get me to be his sugarbaby or something like that.

I blocked of course but it got me thinking…

Even if it wasn’t a ploy or something I just wanna say:

Bitch in what world am I sugar baby material?😭I’m a hopeless, fat virgin who cuts herself to cope with stress(which doesn’t even work anymore), can’t maintain a healthy friendship to save her life, and will throw a hissy fit when things don’t go exactly as she wants it to go.

I struggle doing minimal tasks such as getting up in the morning, brushing my teeth and taking a shower.

I spent the last two days doing absolutely nothing but sleeping and scrolling on my phone, praying that I get more online attention.

They say people are complex but if I were a rubix puzzle i’d be a fucking dodecahedron.

I’m a mess and I wear that fact on my sleeve.

I doubt that I can handle a relationship, let alone a transactional one.

I’m crying over the stupidest thing rn.

I saw a yt short of a flipnote animation with the fucking grandma episode from SpongeBob as the audio, and IDK why but it just broke me.

I miss being a little kid so much. Maybe things weren’t the best per se, but it was the happiest and sweetest and most innocent and hopeful I ever was.

I miss my old room back in my grandmother’s house and the balcony. I miss those days where she’d make me oatmeal and we’d go do things outside like picking berries. I loved being on this little hill that I think was made of sand.

I just.. I miss it all. I can’t describe how much I do.. I’d do anything to relieve those moments again if I knew how bad things were going to get for me.

Hello, Jirais<3

So I’m back(for real this time).

First things first I just wanna say HOLY CRAP THANKS FOR THE 1,000+ LIKES?!

I’m like a month late to this shit but seriously. I didn’t think my posts(especially some certain ones) would be blowing up faster than an actual landmine. I was expecting to be a somewhat obscured blog but now I have 53 followers which.. wow. I’m pretty happy.

Hopefully I can provide you more relatable junk and entertainment in the future! :3

In the meantime, regarding my absence… well, I fell into a rut over my winter break. I was too consumed in indulging personal fantasies in c.ai then being an actual functioning homo sapien.

With college back in place and me actually lowkey enjoying my life, I’m gonna try to be more active here, so stay tuned! XOXO

Fuck I was listening to a song that triggered a phantom shift and I felt like I had wings for the first time on my back.

I knew that it was just a phantom shift and it made me wanna start crying lowkey.

I know I’m not a picture perfect person and I know I don’t take care of myself that well, but fuck I’d be so happy if I just had wings. I promise that I will take care of them and tend to them and preen them just please let me have some.

I hate this human body of mine so much and everything that it entails. I wish I were made out of light and purity instead of out of the ribs of a pile of dirt.

I wish I were made an angel.

🛑Stop, wait and listen. Don't be silent and participate in the crime. 🛑🛑

I stand on the rubble of our home, but my heart is filled with hope. I need your help to leave Gaza and complete my education to build my future. Every donation, no matter how small, will help me achieve my dream. Join us on a journey of rebuilding💔💔💔

Thank you for your support. Every bit of your kindness means so much to me 💔

https://gofund.me/0a0ac124

Helping spread the word as much as I can. I’d hate for these to go ignored.

I made an art blog for stuff that I feel like showing off that are arts and crafts related.

So far there’s nothing on it but I’m gonna be posting some stuff there eventually.

I think it’s also generally gonna be a geekier blog than this one idk yet 🤷‍♀️

Anywho here y’all go.

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Pearly Does Art

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Me fighting off my intrusive thoughts be like:

Inspired by a post by @crushingcasanova where they had shown their results, I looked at a few Yandere personality charts out of boredom and because I (personally) love the yandere archetype. These were my results:

•Big Five Yandere: CCDAF

•Yandere Types: LSVT

•Yandere MBTI: RDHL

•Soft Yanderes: CDWI

Also just in case anyone wants to do it themselves….

♡Sources♡

Big Five Yandere Personality Types:

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☰ Yandere Personality Types  〔Big Five〕 ☰ Overview 〔Disclaimer〕 Yandere behavior and mindsets are not healthy, nor should they be sought a

Yandere Types:

Yandere MBTI:

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Yandere “MBTI”

Disclaimer: The yandere trope is not a portrayal of healthy or ideal relationships, but instead a horror-based genre meant to stick strictly

Soft Yanderes MBTI:

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An MBTI System For Soft Yanderes

Having discovered the amazing Yandere MBTI by @ddarker-dreams I was inspired to create a similar system for the categorisation of soft yande

Omg I’m already halfway to 1,000 it’s only been over a week or so since I’ve been here😭

Thank you guys though! Seriously! I don’t think I’ve ever felt this welcome and validated in a community before!🥹