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Staying consistent even when it’s not immediately rewarding is where the shift happens.

10.04.2025 (thu)

Day (2/30) of COLLAB CHALLENGE

3:21 hrs on ypt :P

💤 Sleep → 4 hrs I'm dying 💤

Got my Bio test back—scored 15/20. Was expecting 16-17 so it kinda stung, but I wasn’t fully shocked either. Definitely humbling though, thought I had that chapter down, but clearly not.

Math test today too -_- there was one question I wasn’t sure about but I did do it right the first time and then changed it last minute. And now there’s a high chance my original answer was correct. UGH. Mood was off after that, but I remembered my Bio marks and that was all the motivation I needed.

What I got done ~

Blurted the whole of Bio ch 1 (SRIFP) for Sunday’s coaching test

Read the reader carefully

Did 150 questions in 40 mins (got 6 wrong—4 due to dumb rushing)

Submitted Thursday workbook Qs (mandatory pre-test stuff)

Was supposed to clear Chem backlog today but LOL no ✨ fully sleep deprived ✨

Skipping Chem for now, going straight to bed. Also have a Phy test on Sunday—same chapter as the lecture I haven’t finished. So fingers crossed it all somehow works out :'(

Cyaaa

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I guess I really need to make a permanent comeback this time. Because the stone in the chest is growing heavier and heavier and I don’t think I would be able to tolerate it. I need to persist to survive.

You are smarter than you feel and you know more than you think.

Always while studying or right before an exam i feel like i don't know anything, my thoughts are all jumbled and I can't find a straight answer for a question i ask myself for funsies.

That's ok.

I've come to know that, despite feeling like i don't know anything, i hold all the necessary information. When it counts, when you have a specific problem right in front of you, you will know the answer.

You sometimes just have to trust yourself.

09.04.2025 (wed)

Day (1/30) COLLAB CHALLENGE

3:38 hrs on ypt ;) + (~ 20 mins)

💤 Sleep ~ 4hrs + 2:30hr nap 💤

Today was BRUTAL y'all. Had double phy, chem, bio AND math. It wasn't like phy chem bio math phy— nah AH. It was BIO BIO CHEM CHEM MATH MATH ugh. By math I started to forget who I was. And these tr be giving barely any breaks 😭

Couldn’t revise the notes I made yesterday, so just went over Lec 1, but my focus was trash (less than 10 hrs sleep over the past days which is wild considering I was averaging 10 hrs/day during break). Decided to nap because I was absolutely useless by then. Planned for 1 hr, woke up after 2.5 hrs and turns out that’s my perfect nap length. I just auto-wake at that point.

Post-nap:

Dinner

Math hw

Watched a one-shot on Matrices for the test

Did extra questions tr gave us

Went through my notes + reader

Skimmed through Determinants reader part (till ex: 4.2)

Gt rev notes of determinants in the morning

Also,

Read till ideal & non ideal solutions in chem in the morning. I was planning on reading haloalkanes and halo arenes but my dum ass took chem part 1 instead of 2 so compromised.

Wanted to squeeze in a Chem lec, but I gotta sleep fr—can’t make naps a lifestyle. I ain't got time for that 😭

Until next time ~

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08.04.2025 (tue)

Bio test went pretty okay. Pretty sure I made a very dumb mistake but hey, wouldn’t be me if I didn’t, right?

Was way too tired to read the chapter last night, so I did a quick read-through on the bus this morning.

Watched Lecture 1 & 2 of Haloalkanes and Arenes today—trying to catch up on my backlog since I missed classes for like a week and a half (we’re not gonna talk about it).

Note to self: Try starting studying by 4:00 pm (cuz hopefully that'll give me more time to study.)

Also wanted to start working out again but was too tired (ironic, I know that’s exactly why I should be moving). Classic me.

No tests tomorrow though, so that’s a relief :)

Bah-byee

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07.04.2025 (mon)

Deep cleaned my room

Completed eng notes + some math hw I had left

Rev chapter 1 of bio for tmrw (yet to do)

Woke up at almost 12 today. Stayed up till 3am watching Grey’s Anatomy (I love this show so much it’s actually insane).

Since school starts tomorrow, I’ve decided to pause all the reading and shows for now. One thing I really struggle with is balancing them with school and studying, so I’m cutting them off—at least temporarily. Might let myself watch a movie or two on weekends though.

Unit tests begin tomorrow, starting with bio. I haven’t revised yet, but I had gone through it before the break, so the plan is to watch a one-shot, read the textbook, and skim through my notes again tomorrow morning.

Also really need to catch up on coaching stuff, but I have no clue how I’m gonna manage that right now. Gotta sit down and plan everything before I go to bed tonight.

Take careee

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Let me give you, the internet, and mostly myself, some executive function advice.

Sometimes, when you find yourself somehow unable to do a thing you need or want to do, one issue might be that your brain has subconsciously tacked on extra tasks, and those tasks are making the whole thing too overwhelming!

Tl;dr: don't do that!

For example, I like to track the books I read and I've been meaning to add a few books I've recently finished. But my brain has added that I should also write a review, and the exact dates I read them (which I can't even remember) and oh by the way I should finish moving my stuff over to storygraph and before I know it that 1 task has turned into 4! And my executive functioning says no.

In fact, while I was getting the idea to write this post, my brain went "wouldn't it be nice to also write a post about y and tag them all properly and go back through my posts and find all mental health posts and tag those too" and wouldn't you know it. 4 tasks.

Discard those extra tasks. Don't even write them down. They don't matter. Strip it down to the 1 task you started with and only do that.

Sure, you won't have achieved some theoretical better end result but that end result was never gonna happen anyway. It was paralysing you from getting the initial task done. And maybe once that initial task is done, you can get to one (1! not 4!) additional task. Later. Not now.

Half-assing is better than no-assing.

"What if you mess up? What if you realize you’ve already forgotten the materials you start studying?What if you initially focus but feel like a sedated zombie after a while?"

Can't you change these questions in your mind to - What if you can actually focus well for a long time? What if you do good enough to at least feel relieved? What if you can feel some sense of control over your life? What if you didn’t forget as much as you thought? What if you're way more competent than you thought? What if consistent hard work actually brings what your childhood self had desired instead of disappointments and exhaustion? What if it solves your lack of appetite and anxiety and thought spirals?

What if you asked the second set of questions more often? You already subconsciously know it would've lessened your stress a lot. Can you please stop thinking of self-hatred and pessimism as inseparable parts of your identity?

You're throwing yourself on the verge of extreme uncertainties. Do you deserve this much indifference? Ik you're afraid. But there isn’t any way to eliminate the fears without working on things while being afraid at first.

And even if you're lagging way too behind, you can manage to improve better than you're expecting at present. Trust this for at least a little time and trust everyone who trusted you.

EIDD MUBARAKK YALL

تَقَبَّلَ اللهُ مِنَّا وَمِنكُم 🌙🫂✨

Hope y'all have an amazing Eid <33

one of the biggest things I can advocate for (in academia, but also just in life) is to build credibility with yourself. It’s easy to fall into the habit of thinking of yourself as someone who does things last minute or who struggles to start tasks. people will tell you that you just need to build different habits, but I know for me at least the idea of ‘habit’ is sort of abstract and dehumanizing. Credibility is more like ‘I’ve done this before, so I know I can do it, and more importantly I trust myself to do it’. you set an assignment goal for the day and you meet it, and then you feel stronger setting one the next day. You establish a relationship with yourself that’s built on confidence and trust. That in turn starts to erode the barrier of insecurity and perfectionism and makes it easier to start and finish tasks. reframing the narrative as a process of building credibility makes it easier to celebrate each step and recognize how strong your relationship with yourself can become

Seriously need to get my shit together bc wtf is this— the frkn URGE to yeet myself out of existence

26.03.2025 (wed)

Gooddd morningg my lovessss <33

Startin the day earlayy :P

• study lec 4 of srifp

• read the textbook + questions

• study lec 5 of chem

• lec 6

That's it for now. Might add stuff later :)

Have an amazing day u beautiful

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half of her beauty is brains

Finished notes. Will do the studying tmrw cuz sleep deprivation be catching up 😵 (I’m just hella sleepy 😭)

Gnnnnnnn

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25.03.2025 (tue)

HIIIIIIIIII <33

Plans for the day:

Complete notes of lec 3 of srifp + study

Live lec (we'll finish the chapter off today)

Live lec - notes + study

Finish off srifp 😭 + maybe questions ?

Study lec 5 of solutions

That's ittt ! See ya later ;P

“ If you don't fail, you're not even trying. To get something you never had you have to do something you never did.”

I am done letting others into my progress just for them to compare, judge, or make me doubt myself. I worked hard to get where I am, and I don’t need to prove anything to anyone. My success is mine. My journey is mine. I am no longer giving people the power to affect how I feel about my own efforts.

I don’t need to share what I’m reviewing, what I’m working on, or how I feel after an exam for toxic people who seek constant validation through grades and others' approval. I don’t need to join in on answer-checking just to feel validated or worried. I am choosing peace. I am choosing to trust myself. I don’t need to compare because I know that my effort will always pay off in its own way.

I am stepping back. I am focusing on myself. I know what works best for me, and if that means studying alone and keeping my progress to myself, then that’s exactly what I will do. I don’t owe anyone my notes, my strategies, or my explanations I share only with ppl who are supportive and respectful . If others are curious, they will have to find their own way, just like I do. I am no longer available for people who only want my knowledge but don’t truly support me or respect my boundaries.

I will not let small mistakes make me doubt everything I’ve done. I will not let others’ reactions make me feel like I am any less smart. I have proven to myself that I am capable, and I will keep proving it in my own way, at my own pace. I am enough. I am strong. I am moving forward for me.

@bloomzone

25.03.2025 (tue)

HIIIIIIIIII <33

Plans for the day:

Complete notes of lec 3 of srifp + study

Live lec (we'll finish the chapter off today)

Live lec - notes + study

Finish off srifp 😭 + maybe questions ?

Study lec 5 of solutions

That's ittt ! See ya later ;P

Didn’t study lec 4 and couldn’t complete todays bio lec notes cuz i wanted to get at least 6 hours of sleep tonight (its 12:30 rn and i gt wake up around 6:30 ish). I was pretty sleepy around 7-8 but eating dinner helped me stay awake ?? I was planning on sleeping early lol Like, the math ain’t mathin 🤔

Gn babes <33

(my time log)

24.03.2025 (mon)

Hey chattt ;)

The plan for today :

Rev bio lec 1 n 2 + reader

Live lec

Chem lec 4 + notes

Live lec notes + complete Z notes

Complete phy notes cuz I forgot my nb 2 days in a row fml

complete eng notes

Lec 5 ? a lil ambitious but—

Might nap after revising bio till my live lec. If I can, I’ll try not to so I can sleep early—idk. Woke up at 6:30 with ≈4 hours of sleep, but I was weirdly awake and full of energy (which apparently annoyed my friends who got more sleep lol).

Whatever routine I have going rn is working, but idk if I can keep this up when I go back to waking up at 5 AM for school (bus comes at 5:40, ugh). I kinda wanted to make 4 AM wake-ups + 10 PM bedtime a habit, but I legit haven’t followed it for even a day—

Anyways, hope y’all have an amazing day ahead !

MWAHH

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No nap bc revising took longer than i anticipated 😭. Gonna read the reader b4 my class starts :’)

24.03.2025 (mon)

Hey chattt ;)

The plan for today :

Rev bio lec 1 n 2 + reader

Live lec

Chem lec 4 + notes

Live lec notes + complete Z notes

Complete phy notes cuz I forgot my nb 2 days in a row fml

complete eng notes

Lec 5 ? a lil ambitious but—

Might nap after revising bio till my live lec. If I can, I’ll try not to so I can sleep early—idk. Woke up at 6:30 with ≈4 hours of sleep, but I was weirdly awake and full of energy (which apparently annoyed my friends who got more sleep lol).

Whatever routine I have going rn is working, but idk if I can keep this up when I go back to waking up at 5 AM for school (bus comes at 5:40, ugh). I kinda wanted to make 4 AM wake-ups + 10 PM bedtime a habit, but I legit haven’t followed it for even a day—

Anyways, hope y’all have an amazing day ahead !

MWAHH

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ypt study group

Created this ypt group , if you want you can join. I mean if you study a lot do join( looking for motivation)

Password is - studyblr

24.03.2025 (mon)

Hey chattt ;)

The plan for today :

Rev bio lec 1 n 2 + reader

Live lec

Chem lec 4 + notes

Live lec notes + complete Z notes

Complete phy notes cuz I forgot my nb 2 days in a row fml

complete eng notes

Lec 5 ? a lil ambitious but—

Might nap after revising bio till my live lec. If I can, I’ll try not to so I can sleep early—idk. Woke up at 6:30 with ≈4 hours of sleep, but I was weirdly awake and full of energy (which apparently annoyed my friends who got more sleep lol).

Whatever routine I have going rn is working, but idk if I can keep this up when I go back to waking up at 5 AM for school (bus comes at 5:40, ugh). I kinda wanted to make 4 AM wake-ups + 10 PM bedtime a habit, but I legit haven’t followed it for even a day—

Anyways, hope y’all have an amazing day ahead !

MWAHH

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23.03.2025 (Sun)

~ 2:20 AM ~

After school, I studied from 2-3 PM, then took a nap till 5:30 PM, which was a W move cuz I woke up feeling energized and not sleepy at all (till 2 AM, bro).

From today onwards, we were supposed to have class till 1 PM, but smn happened, and we got to leave early—same for tomorrow, I think not complaining wuAHahhAH. Sooo, we lost our chem class and hence the test. UGH just wanna get it over with atp. And for math? Surprise, surprise—postponed AGAIN.

~ Things I did ~

Made notes for Lec 3 & 4 of Solutions and studied them (yaay)

Completed Bio SRIFP notes (will do the studying tomorrow ig)

That’s it hehe >°<

Toodles ~~~

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(Also, it’s super windy outside rn, and I LOVE it.)

Discovered this song yesterday on utub shorts and IT'S SOO FRKN GOOD :'D

Hey

Your blog is really pretty!

And i'm also a 12th grader preparing for the NEET exam

I'm trying to find people like myself so that I stay motivated to study lol

Moots?

HIIIIIII <33

Tysm 🥹🫶🏼 and its a pleasure to meet you !! *curtsies*

Yes yes and yes !! Lets keep each other motivated lol ^^

Update : Did the bare frkn minimum I had to for tomorrow. This weekend was a complete mess—so much unproductivity and procrastination. Studied some math but didn’t finish it, but it's fine so I’ll just go through it tomorrow. My brain was not functioning today. bich was so slow

Also, turns out my chem test is tomorrow, and I haven’t touched it in two days. Still have a few topics left I've to touch, so planning on waking up early to study. If I don’t go through the numericals, I’m DONE for. I seriously do not plan on messing up on ANY of my tests this year bc I was lazy. I'd rather die. Just finished my eng hw, some notes and my chem worksheet and it’s already 1:30 am. I legit started at 11-12 ish ugh Planning to wake up at 4:30 am (fingers crossed.)

But on the bright-ish side I did do all the imp stuff and clean my room so I'm already feeling better. Gt work on my procrastination and laziness i cuz I'd be damned if I do the same shit this year.

Also, I'm kinda craving coffee—haven’t had it in over a month. No clue if it actually helps me stay awake, but I absolutely love the taste.

Toodles ~~

(and have a good day/night !!)

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WEEKEND TO DO LIST (march 20 to 22)

Bio - record work

Bio - complete diagrams

Bio - study rifp

Bio - complete notes (coaching)

Chem - study chemical kinetics

Chem - ws

Chem - lec 5,6,7 fml

Chem - NOTESSSS

Phy - study electric charges & fields

Math - study matrices

These are the stuff I HAVE to do. And if I have time I have to start doing questions and covering 11th backlogs cuz I haven't started YET 😭

WEEKEND TO DO LIST (march 20 to 22)

Bio - record work

Bio - complete diagrams

Bio - study rifp

Bio - complete notes (coaching)

Chem - study chemical kinetics

Chem - ws

Chem - lec 5,6,7 fml

Chem - NOTESSSS

Phy - study electric charges & fields

Math - study matrices

These are the stuff I HAVE to do. And if I have time I have to start doing questions and covering 11th backlogs cuz I haven't started YET 😭

19.03.2025 (wed)

Hey chat ;)

Was Lowkey dying from cramps today as well. It was such an unproductive day, and honestly, the cramps aren’t even an excuse at this point.

Anyways, attended my live lecture, did my math HW, and kinda revised for tomorrow’s chem test. Gonna wake a lil earlier so I can go through it again cuz I'm pretty sleepy rn. The plan for tomorrow is to finish off Lec 5 & 6 b4 attending Lec 7 live.

I haven’t made proper notes since Lecture 3 😭. The given lecture notes are there, but I know I’ll miss stuff if I don’t write them myself… except it takes SO long and I don’t have the time. Ig I'll have to finish it all off on the weekend ༼⁠;⁠´⁠༎ຶ⁠ ⁠۝ ⁠༎ຶ⁠༽

Got LOADS to do this weekend, so stay tuned for that 😀👍🏻

Anyways

BYEEE BABES

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Study time ≈ 3:00 hrs

(including the duration of my live lectures— always include em in my study time)

18.03.2025 (tue)

TO DO LIST :

Math and phy hw

Live class

Lec 3

Lec 4

Lec 3 n 4 notes

Chemical Kinetics - start studying

Couldn’t finish everything bc towards the end, I got HIT with crippling cramps and was fkn dying. Spent the past two hours straight just crying lol. Took a painkiller which did ABSOLUTELY nothing. Took another one, still felt like I was being ripped apart. I feel so much better now I wanna cry like that's all I wanna do I swear

On the bright side, my mom was the sweetest and took care of me. I love her sm 😭😭.

Also, tried to take a quick power nap after I was back from school since I was half asleep while trynna study and yeah, that turned into a 2 hr nap. Woke up 10 minutes late to class. Love that for me 😀

Got LOADS to do tmrw 😭 Idk how am gonna manage AGHHHH

Anyways,

Take care lovesss

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18.03.2025 (mon)

( MAGIC bc I frkn LOVE them 😭 )

Hellloo BEAUTIFUL hoomans ;)

Today was a whole lot of procrastination and barely any productivity :( Did about 3 hours, but around 2 of those were just my live class, and the rest went into writing notes and HW. Not exactly proud of today, but I’ll make up for it tomorrow by working even harder !!

Also, after iftar, I usually feel tired, but today? I was like sooo full and sooooo ded. Like, I couldn't even lie down. Idk why probably because I was stuffing my face with literally everything in sight

Got a chem test on Chemical Kinetics this Thursday, so I need to cover at least half of it tomorrow.

*sigh*

It’s already 1 AM, and I have no idea how I’m gonna function 😭.

Gnnn lovesss

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16.03.2025 (sun)

Studied a lil bit b4 guests came over, so couldn't do the stuff as planned but I had a nice time, so ;)

Stuff I did ~~

• studied/revised lec 2

• almost finished watching lec 3 (10 minutes left lol it was time for iftar)

• done with about half of lec 3 notes (literally can't write any notes while watching the lec cuz I'll end up missing everything and will have to rewatch that part. So I watch it once and understand the material and kind of watch it for the 2nd time for the the notes)

• complete pending eng notes I was supposed to do yesterday lol

I thought to doing some other stuff as well after the guests were gone but it's 11:30 pm and I am BEAT or beet ?

Have a math test tmrw for which I'll just flip through the notes cuz the stuff ain't that hard. Don't think I'm gonna try and study b4 school cuz I love sleep too much lol ^^

BYEEENNNNN

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