I Just Feel So Ugly Inside And Out.

WHY / WHY ME (repeated)

Konpeito/Japes/Jakelope, or what I have left of them in my files.

My first real furry OC and I made it to fit in but I don't know. I just draw elves and anthro I guess.

Had them for 10 years.

More quarter angles. Oops!

Having delusions today. I won't let them win.

My Oc Caster. He can control the weather. I've been ruminating this character for years and it's based off of Ausayn and my first Oc I ever made, a Squirrel in 4th grade. He also has clouds in his ears and on his coat.

Quarter angles whoo!

Having a traumatic childhood means you cannot talk even objectively about your basic foundational experiences without it being "venting", even if you're not actually venting. You just straight up have a huge chunk of your life you can't talk about, full stop, without it being trauma dumping.

And it not being socially acceptable to talk about your own childhood is super alienating. Sometimes people want to know why, and any answer you can give them is going to be off putting.

It's to the point I get irritated when something I said is framed as venting when I'm literally just talking about my life experiences, doing my best to keep emotion out of it.

“Whatever you do, good or bad, people will always have something negative to say.”

— W.H. Auden

They're in trouble it's all my fault and I don't know what to do. I wish I knew a better way to help them all.

“Because once you hear something, you can never return to the time before you heard it.”

— Jonathan Safran Foer // Everything Is Illuminated