This User Has Undiagnosed Borderline Personality Disorder

how to come back to life after u kill yourself to see how much attention u get

to my abusers

Learn to stop saying “it’s okay” when shit really isn’t .

I hate that trauma and abuse have long-lasting consequences! I really hate that!!! It was bad enough while it lasted, why do I have to suffer from it even 10 years later????

there needs to be a name

for that horrible, sickening discomfort that comes with talking about trauma aloud

it’s shame, but that word is not enough

it is not strong enough.

“shame” is within the range of normal emotions. this is…something else. this runs deeper. this is something that lives in the same primitive brain structures as fear – fear, most powerful of emotions – but has the developed frontal-lobe sophistication of a more complex feeling.

it’s more shame than i can express. it’s a very physical feeling. something inside me recoils. i hate that i have to confront this horrific feeling to talk about my trauma in therapy.

me: *subtlety reveals small bits of trauma shit through vague comments and small details*

does anyone else feel like they’re “attached” to their mental illness? 

like you feel uncomfortable when your symptoms aren’t as strong or frequent because you’re so used to them being there all the time?

NTs will write massive articles complaining about how Jaws demonised sharks and literally campaign to combat the stigma against SHARKS but turn around and say that Split is okay because “some people with DID are like that”, “it’s just a movie” and “not to take it so seriously”.

If you have a complicated relationship with your mother because of abuse or neglect, you don’t have to feel guilty regardless of how much or how little you choose to interact with her.

I know there’s a lot of pressure to acknowledge her even if she’s hurt you badly. If you choose to (or wish you could) keep your distance or even end your relationship with her, you’re not a bad child or ungrateful or mean.

If for any reason you do something nice for her, that doesn’t mean you give up your right to be angry or hurt by what she did before that. It doesn’t mean you give up your right to keep your distance or even end your relationship with her later on.

You don’t owe her. But it’s complicated sometimes, I understand. Just do your best to be gentle with yourself, and try to remember that you didn’t deserve what happened. You have always deserved care and respect.

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