sicksadchild

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my latest work of art

a lot of people don’t seem to understand that “being suicidal” doesn’t mean that you’re actively attempting suicide, or harming yourself. you could be suicidal and not self harm. you could be suicidal and not attempt. 

so please dont think someone is faking their suicidal tendencies just because they dont “seem like it”. just because you dont see physical scars on them doesnt mean theyre fighting a hard battle in their head.

Learn to stop saying “it’s okay” when shit really isn’t .

Unlocking a traumatizing memory that’s haunting you like 

not to be negative but some things really are unforgivable so can yall like stop insisting that we’re all gonna lead miserable and unfulfilled lives if we don’t forgive literally every single person whos ever wronged us

“shitty memory” aesthetic

-giving ur friends the same information over and over because u forgot u ever gave it to them

-opening up a new text post only to forget what u were going 2 say

-never changing a wall calendar/needing to look up what day of the week something will be

-literally not being able to remember what happened yesterday/an hour ago/five minutes ago

-forgetting where ur going/what ur doing in the middle of doing it

-flipping through the beginning of a book because u forgot some characters and plot development

-making a typo, make a mental note to fix it, get up to do something, keep typing without fixing the typo

-”haha ur memory cant be THAT bad”

-it can be

-reminding urself 2 do something but u forget

-writing reminders, forgetting that u wrote a reminder/forgetting what was on the reminder/forgetting where u put the reminder

-”just put something in ur room out of place before u go 2 sleep” and ur room has so much shit on the floor u wouldnt even be able 2 tell whats out of place

-alternately: doing the above and then forgetting what it was supposed to remind u of

-did that happen or was i dreaming

-i was gonna put something here but i FORGOT it and i HATE it

me: wow i really have my mental illness under control!

me, remembering i rarely have enough energy to bathe or brush my teeth: ah,

the next time someone tells me that antidepressants dampen emotions and “turn people into zombies/sheep”, i swear to god i’m going to throw my prescription bottle at their head and yell aH YES SO EMOTIONLESS I AM A TOTAL ZOMBIE AS YOU CAN TELL BY THE BLINDING RAGE I HAVE TOWARD YOU AND YOUR BIGOTRY

this user has undiagnosed borderline personality disorder

Daily reminder

The person who “has it worse” deserves to be taken care of, but so do you. Your struggles matter.

to my abusers

wanna come over sometime? we can traumatic flashbacks and chill?

there needs to be a name

for that horrible, sickening discomfort that comes with talking about trauma aloud

it’s shame, but that word is not enough

it is not strong enough.

“shame” is within the range of normal emotions. this is…something else. this runs deeper. this is something that lives in the same primitive brain structures as fear – fear, most powerful of emotions – but has the developed frontal-lobe sophistication of a more complex feeling.

it’s more shame than i can express. it’s a very physical feeling. something inside me recoils. i hate that i have to confront this horrific feeling to talk about my trauma in therapy.

I hate that trauma and abuse have long-lasting consequences! I really hate that!!! It was bad enough while it lasted, why do I have to suffer from it even 10 years later????

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The movie Split is fast approaching and it will bring HARDCORE discrimination and stigma towards those living with Dissociative Identity Disorder. We can do nothing to stop the movie but we have to be loud RIGHT NOW! WE EXIST! WE ARE PEOPLE TRYING TO LIVE WITH THIS! WE ARE NOT SOME PSYCHOPATHIC PLOTLINE! I URGE ESPECIALLY THOSE WITHOUT THIS DISORDER TO HELP ALL THOSE WHO WILL BE AFFECTED BY THIS HORRIBLE MOVIE!  R E P O S T! please help us. stand with us.

my boyfriend can't talk to me for a month because his (abusive as fuck) parents decided to take away all his forms of communication mMmm

NTs will write massive articles complaining about how Jaws demonised sharks and literally campaign to combat the stigma against SHARKS but turn around and say that Split is okay because “some people with DID are like that”, “it’s just a movie” and “not to take it so seriously”.

You know what absolutely boggles my mind? That healthy people exist. Genuinely healthy people. No mental illness, no physical illness, no chronic illness. Just healthy. What a life that must be. 

i think im going crazy

Hey, guys!

I have finally finished my interactive personality disorder diagnostic checklists! Each checklist provides the symptoms one dealing with the specified disorder would be experiencing taken from the DSM-5. these could be a very useful tool for people looking for help with self-diagnoses or better expressing their symptoms. 

Here are the links:

BPD (borderline personality disorder)

HPD (histrionic personality disorder)

NPD (narcissistic personality disorder)

SPD (Schizoid personality disorder)

STPD (schizotypal personality disorder)

DPD (dependent personality disorder)

OCPD (Obsessive-Compulsive personality disorder)

ASPD (antisocial personality disorder)

APD (avoidant personality disorder)

PPD (paranoid personality disorder)

If you guys could reblog this so people who need it can have access to it, I’d really appreciate it!