Don't Mind Me Just Livin My AJJ Hyperfixation

In music guitar is bones bass is the meat drums r the heart

i am dumber than a mouse

the good place really presented itself as this silly comedy where a Bad Person gets stuck in heaven and instead of sticking with pointless humor they dove so hard into the theme of what it means to be good and to be alive....they really did that

very specific Julien Baker lyrics that fucc me up

But I think there’s a god and he hears either way …. i rejoice

Maybe it’s all gonna turn out alright and I know that its not but I have to believe that it is 

maybe the emptiness is just a lesson in canvasses

and besides I’m starting to get used to the gap

pinned to the mattress like an insect to styrofoam/ all my prayers are just apologies

Grit my teeth and try to act deserving / When I know there’s nowhere I can hide from your humiliating grace …. and I would go to church on sunday

rom the sting, paper sheets, bloodwork and the IV / And the whirring machines while the nurses reassure me

(I know I shouldn’t act this way in public)

But I’ve kissed enough bathroom sinks to make up for the lovers that never loved me/ And I know my body is just dirty clothes

And I just let the parking lot swallow me up / Choking your tires, and kicking up dust / Asking aloud why you’re leaving / But the pavement won’t answer me

it’s real tattoo wanting hours rn y'all

favorite julien baker lyrics, in no particular order

you don’t have to remind me so much how i disappoint you

i think if i ruin this i know i can live with it

this will be quick and easy, i’m not gonna feel a thing

my mouth like a wound

why did you let them leave and then make me stay?

vessel of brightness, come make me blind

i’m tired of washing my hands, god, i want to go home

there’s a comfort in failure / singing too loud in church

all my prayers are just apologies

hold the chorus in between my ears until i go deaf

if it makes me feel better, how bad could it be?

isn’t that what you want / for me to be miserable like you

it’s no good if the pain doesn’t make you feel like you’ve earned it

living with demons i’ve mistaken for saints

not to be controversial but absolutely disgusting that it’s sunday night 

me: (has super negative thought)

me: thank you Captain Edge Lord can we please hear from someone else today