"Something Inside Me Had Dropped Away, And Nothing Came In To Fill The Cavern."

i come home early one morning after a long double shift at work, and crawl into bed next to you. you, warm with sleep, eyes still closed, pull me in close, draping your arm over my hip. the night without you was long, but i feel safe and held now. i close my eyes and fall asleep easily in your arms, your body wrapped around mine.

A Small Glimpse Of The New Year 2022

Pile 1 - Flames

There will be a material blessing reaching you in 2022. This could be an (expensive) gift, a raise in salary or the use of money (like a holiday trip) which will help you a lot and give you a sense of security.

I sense a lot of feminine energy, implying the year will more require you to react than to act, this can be a welcome change, especially if the last year(s) forced you to do many things you usually don´t like.

It will be quite a calm year for you, which might make you worry a little if this is the calm before the storm but it isn't! You will have a stable, lovely year full of serenity, do not worry about it!

Pile 2 - Forest

I have the feeling the last year(s) made you feel stuck in one place, this energy might reach over the next year but please do not worry, this will only be like this at the beginning of the year, then things will change.

I see a strong change actually, maybe you will move, maybe you will get in a relationship or you will find a new job or maybe all of this! You will definitely break out of the old routine of the last year(s).

It might be difficult at first to get used to it but in the end, you will love it, I promise. You will feel a complete change in your life and your own way of perception.

Pile 3 - Moon

At the beginning of the year, it almost seems like someone is betraying you or trying to do something behind your back, so you better watch out for that. It might break your trust in this person.

This might cause you to leave this person, this environment you´ve been living in for now. For some of you, this also indicated a move to another city. It could also indicate you leaving a certain group of your family or friends behind.

At the end of the year, you might still be looking back and wondering if you´ve done the right decision but you did, do not worry and then you will be happily moving toward.

Pile 4 - Candle

You will be making a decision in the next year which will very much influence your life and maybe even those around you. You will be the judge of something and people will follow your lead but do not worry, you will know what you´re doing.

This decision will turn your life upside down but in a very good way. It will be the change you needed all those years but maybe did not even notice.

In the end, you will be ruling your life in a way you never experienced before. You might also be leading some other people, which might indicate work as a teacher or something in that direction.

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Most people see college!Ellie as a player and stuff but for some reason I’d see her more as an inexperienced awkward nerd.

𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐗𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄𝐃!𝐄𝐋𝐋𝐈𝐄

—𝐄𝐒𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄—

⌕ 𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠: Ellie x reader

⌕ 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬: nsfw in the very last part.

⌕ 𝐚𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐫 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐞𝐬: I ran out of ideas lol but please if you have any send them to me, this is my favourite thing ever. + absolutely not proofread and my English is shit atm lol

Inexperienced/awkward ellie…..

Who’s heart race whenever you laugh at her stupid jokes, staring at your smile with roseate tinted cheeks, stumbling on her own words as your sweet giggle feels her ears.

« They’re so cute. » You said, thumb tracing her cheek « huh, w…who? » « your freckles, stupid. » « oh. hum, thanks. » she simply answered, rubbing her nape in pure embarrassment, still feeling your fingers brushing on her skin, secretly wishing they stayed much longer.

Who invites you over all the time. Playing video games together, watching horrible films — and making fun of the bad acting of the comedians— staring at her ceiling while sharing both of your playlists.

Who completely loses her mind when she sees you wandering around her room with nothing but lace lingerie covering your delicate skin.

Who turns her head away from you and smiles foolishly at herself the first time you hold her hand.

Ellie who desperately attempts to look away when you take a shower and asks her to stay in the bathroom to keep your conversation going.

Who keeps stuttering the first time she tries to explain to you the sentiments she feels about women.

Who stammer even more once you tell her that you feel the exact same.

Ellie and her bright eyes when you asks her if she wants to kiss you, to make sure she loves girls; you know, just to try.

Who kisses you so messily the first time, not knowing what to do, having to listen to your teaching.

Who covers you in hickeys because she doesn’t know how to control herself.

Who’s so so hungry when she eats you out; messily licking, spitting, sucking and groaning into your wet core, eager to try all the things she dreamed to do to you all this time.

« Fuck fuck… you’re so fucking good…. Does it feels okay? I… I never did that before but.. » « shut up Ellie just… fuck, just keep going. » you ordered, pushing her head a bit further down with your hand.

— reblogs and feedback is welcomed if you enjoyed <3—

“There will always be a person who looks like a poem the earth wrote to keep you alive.”

— Juansen Dizon

it is a tragedy that i wasn’t alive in the romantic era and thus couldn’t be part of lord byron’s inner circle because not only do i share their beliefs (technology bad, nature good, rationality bad, passion good) but i also could’ve refused to fuck lord byron and i think his ego needed it

Yom HaShoah

Yom HaShoah (Holocaust Remembrance Day) begins this year on sundown on April 27th, 2022 and ends sundown, April 28th.

The ADL's Audito of Antisemitic Incidents for 2021 released just yesterday, reporting hate crimes in the United States at an all-time high since they began recording in 1979. (A 34% increase from 2020.) Jews make up less than 3% of the United States population (0.2% globally) and remain the biggest target of religion-based hate crimes in the US both in raw numbers and per capita.

Now is a good time to check in on your Jewish friends and support your Jewish communities. If you are able, I highly encourage supporting a charity that helps Shoah survivors (most of whom still live alone and in poverty) or putting money directly into the hands of Jews in need or local Jewish organizations.

It's also a good time to analyze the way we talk about the Holocaust. This article about The Boy in the Striped Pyjamas highlights common problematic tropes to look out for in other works. If you can I HIGHLY encourage getting a copy of People Love Dead Jews by Dara Horn. It's a collection of well-written essays tackling the world's fascination with dead Jews, how Jewish history is exploited to comfort the living, becoming dehumanizing even when done with the best of intentions. It's sharp, insightful, powerful, poignant, and deeply disturbing. For Jewish readers, this helped me put to words things I always felt uncomfortable about but could never articulate why; it's very cathartic in many ways. For others, this is a great window into how it often feels being Jewish in a world that hates Jews, showcasing nuances of modern-day antisemitism I've never seen tackled elsewhere. I cannot recommend it enough; I consider it a must-read.

how will 2022 be for you? (pac)

(my hands edition because i was a little bit bored but not enough to look for some cute pictures)

- just choose a pile based on which one calls you.

- that's okay if more than one calls you.

- if you can't choose one, try meditating.

- if you don't feel called by any of them, that's okay. it means that just maybe my energy doesn't match yours and that's fine.

pile 1

i see a job coming! maybe a little promotion or something. your dreams will become reality because you are bringing structure to your life and that i can see. omg bestie, why are you screaming like that? you really got the power! everything will fall into place and you will enjoy yourself a lot during next year. also, maybe an emotional fulfilment is also coming! luck will be on your side!! if things have been wrong recently, this will stop. you will have tons of opportunities. i see you'll be creative, imaginative, nurturing, organized, responsible and capable of making everything work. remember those days where you couldn't get things done and you had to call someone else? they're over!! people will call you now, you will be their leader, you will guide them towards success now! trust your intuition and remember: with great powers come great responsibilities. you have to be careful to manage everything well otherwise you'll loose it all. but you got this. i know you do.

pile 2

your year will be filled with a lot of surprises! i see some changes, big ones. some of you could be letting go of someone that you have dated and has been toxic to you. yas, queen, that's going to end! others can simply find love for the first time after a while. either way, i see big changes and someone finally speaking for themselves. you will be setting some boundaries and deciding what's good for you and what's not. in fact, the universe has already done it to you and you'll just finally accept it. that's great! you'll be taking more care of yourself and things that you used to accept, you will fight it. i see 12th house in my head. do you have a 12th house mars? (that's very specific) if it's the case, or if you have any other placement that points to a passive aggressive human being, i see that you will be becoming a fighter right now. good luck! it's your year, bestie! you can make it all happen, just believe in yourself!

pile 3

maybe you are shy, aren't you? yeah, not anymore. 2022 will bring you a thirst for knowledge and not only that, but also the urge to change things. you will be bold, friendly, selfless and fearless. r.i.p the old you dies on january 1st. i see new friendships coming, you will be surounded by a lot of people. people that actually care about you and will make you laugh. you will discover yourself, the world and love. not only self love, but i do see that's coming strong for you. you will be confident, charming and sensual and that's when you will attract a love one (i heard future spouse on my head. good luck 🤞), you will be really happy with this one. different from anyone else. i'm telling you. i see someone with a beautiful hair and everybody being like "omg you changed it?" so you'll be taking more care of yourself and completely change yourself. A. MAJOR. GLOW. UP. IS. COMING. i hope you're prepared for that.

pile 4

family is strong in here. maybe you will have the strength to start your own family or your family will be more united (if it is already, then i guess you will be spending more time with them). i just saw vacation and then family vacation. you will be traveling a lot. i see you will explore things more, maybe even get a little bit spicy next year. money is coming your way and it's time for you to have fresh starts. it's he beginning of a whole new cycle. goodbye old year, welcome new year. that's your mindset now. it's time for you to rest and enjoy everything that you fought for so hard for all of those years. celebrate a little bit! go to parties, connect with yourself, meditate... become your best friend! take some time for yourself and explore the world. next year the world is yours, baby. start that skincare you have been procrastinating, go out with that one friend you haven't seen in ages, go to that city you always wanted to... enjoy living, it's time for that.

every single reading i did the neptune card was in. that's amazing. you guys have the power to make your dreams become true, so dream high, loves. i know you can do everything you want right now. so next year go make yourselves proud for you to comeback here and say how great was 2022.

take care, loves.

©daszlight, 2021.

we know there is a beauty to our kind of love that others can’t always understand. we have a language from the women who came before us, and a culture as rich as the land they gathered on. though we are different, we are the same where it counts. we were forged in the same fire of girlhood, of difference, of strange and lonely girls who loved their female friends a little too much. sometimes i am struck by the symmetry of our lives: i tell you an autobiographical joke and you already know the punchline. we find comfort in each other that we never found anywhere else. a depth of understanding we wouldn’t trade for the world.

we spend the night daydreaming about little girls with your eyes and dark hair like mine. the future seems warm and bright, and i am not afraid.

“A scrupulous writer, in every sentence that he writes, will ask himself at least four questions, thus: What am I trying to say? What words will express it? What image or idiom will make it clearer? Is this image fresh enough to have an effect? And he will probably ask himself two more: Could I put it more shortly? Have I said anything that is avoidably ugly?”

— “Politics and the English Language,” George Orwell (1903-1950) English writer