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when we are together, i feel brave in a way i never thought i would. i hold you close in public when we linger in window displays, kiss you goodbye when i drop you off at work, and hold your hand whenever and wherever i can. i am the lesbian i needed when i was younger, visible and strong, and it’s all because of you.

시발비용 = Fuck-it Expense

“You were unsure which pain is worse: the shock of what happened or the ache for what never will.”

— Simon Van Booy, Everything Beautiful Began After

One Sister have I in our house -

And one, a hedge away.

There's only one recorded,

But both belong to me.

One came the road that I came -

And wore my last year's gown -

The other, as a bird her nest,

Builded our hearts among.

She did not sing as we did -

It was a different tune -

Herself to her a music

As Bumble bee of June.

Today is far from Childhood -

But up and down the hills

I held her hand the tighter -

Which shortened all the miles -

And still her hum

The year among,

Deceives the Butterfly;

Still in her Eye

The Violets lie

Mouldered this many May.

I spilt the dew -

But took the morn;

I chose this single star

From out the wide night's numbers -

Sue - forevermore!

time passes, but my heart still skips a beat when you look at me. i get lost in your eyes daily.

A Small Glimpse Of The New Year 2022

Pile 1 - Flames

There will be a material blessing reaching you in 2022. This could be an (expensive) gift, a raise in salary or the use of money (like a holiday trip) which will help you a lot and give you a sense of security.

I sense a lot of feminine energy, implying the year will more require you to react than to act, this can be a welcome change, especially if the last year(s) forced you to do many things you usually don´t like.

It will be quite a calm year for you, which might make you worry a little if this is the calm before the storm but it isn't! You will have a stable, lovely year full of serenity, do not worry about it!

Pile 2 - Forest

I have the feeling the last year(s) made you feel stuck in one place, this energy might reach over the next year but please do not worry, this will only be like this at the beginning of the year, then things will change.

I see a strong change actually, maybe you will move, maybe you will get in a relationship or you will find a new job or maybe all of this! You will definitely break out of the old routine of the last year(s).

It might be difficult at first to get used to it but in the end, you will love it, I promise. You will feel a complete change in your life and your own way of perception.

Pile 3 - Moon

At the beginning of the year, it almost seems like someone is betraying you or trying to do something behind your back, so you better watch out for that. It might break your trust in this person.

This might cause you to leave this person, this environment you´ve been living in for now. For some of you, this also indicated a move to another city. It could also indicate you leaving a certain group of your family or friends behind.

At the end of the year, you might still be looking back and wondering if you´ve done the right decision but you did, do not worry and then you will be happily moving toward.

Pile 4 - Candle

You will be making a decision in the next year which will very much influence your life and maybe even those around you. You will be the judge of something and people will follow your lead but do not worry, you will know what you´re doing.

This decision will turn your life upside down but in a very good way. It will be the change you needed all those years but maybe did not even notice.

In the end, you will be ruling your life in a way you never experienced before. You might also be leading some other people, which might indicate work as a teacher or something in that direction.

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I mean, like… over a hundred million searchable words of Torah, Talmud, and other texts? With translations? And easily navigable links to and from other commentaries? All of these sources openly available at the mere touch of a keyboard, whether I’m at home or out somewhere? And all of this for free???

This modern world sure does have its perks.

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Asteroid Aphrodite (1388): Love you like a love song (part 1)

| credits to Wikipedia & Mecca of Mysticism + @venusfun has a post about Aphrodite in the signs, and other interesting notes about it which I find interesting so go check her out! |

!Please note that this is my own interpretation and other people might have a different stance on this subject. I respect everyone’s opinions and beliefs regarding their interpretation and take constructive criticism.!

So, for starters, who is Aphrodite?

Aphrodite is the ancient Greek Goddess of love, beauty, lust, pleasure and procreation (sometimes presided over marriage). Allegedly born in Cythera and emerged from the foam created after Cronus had cut off Uranus’ testicles and fallen in the sea (ok Cronus wtf). Others say her parents were the Titaness Dione and Zeus.

People would pray to her and ask for guidance when it comes to love, marriage and fertility blessings or sex related issues. It was believed that Aphrodite can inspire, control and shift the feelings of gods and mortals to work in her favour. That’s why she was deemed as the goddess of the sea/sea shore, goddess of war and victory. Her symbols include myrtles, roses, doves, sparrows and swans. People would offer Aphrodite small terracotta statues representing her or were burried with her statues if they were her worshippers.

The thing that stands out about Aphrodite according to mythology is her free-spirited, shallow, confident and impulsive nature.

The main interpretation astrologers give to Aphrodite is aesthetic beauty and the type of woman a person can be attracted to, or the femininity expressed by the native. I personally think there’s more layers to her than just volatile love (we have other asteroids for that such as Cupido).

Aphrodite was worshiped in the ancient times due to her ethereal beauty and the blessings she offered to couples and singles alike. She’s quite extra and dramatic. She wants to be desired and desire others freely to see others being in love and to be sexually satisfied. She is confident that she’s the true beauty among gods and mortals.

Her competitive nature is shown when her beauty is being challenged in this never-ending race on “Who is the fairest of them all” and when she feels desire for someone. Mere mortals aren’t allowed to compete with her, unless they want to have a taste of her wrath.

The same traits can be applied to the astrological interpretation of this asteroid in the natal chart. Furthermore, Aprhodite represents expectations one has in love, expectations which feed the imagination of the native and pushes them to idealise their love interests.

If you're attracted to women, they might have these traits which you find irresistable. Let’s not forget that Aphrodite was always surrounded by admirers and suitors. This can be applied as how the native’s beauty affects admirers and suitors.

Aphrodite vs Venus

I mentioned this in one of my first asks about Aphrodite, I think she symbolises the good and the bad of the feminine energy. I would say this celestial body is here to let us know who we are when we are in love and what we expect of it, what our fantasies are and what our divine beauty is really like. Aphrodite is who we are without the restrictions of the real world which Venus has to deal with. Aphrodite is the teenage dream amongst the gods while Venus is the accomplished and loving woman among mortals.

As an asteroid, she is an energy. Any planet that comes in contact will influence the power that Aphrodite has in the natal chart. Aphrodite itself represents a divine energy that makes you sparkle in the eyes of others. She will influence the aura of the native. Planets can amplify or minimise the her energy. Masculine planets such as Sun, Mars, Saturn, Jupiter and Pluto can intensify and add a bold direction to Aphrodite’s energy. These planets influnce the suitors that surround her as well. Her suitors are more masculine, dominant, posessive and take the traits of these planets. While feminine planets (Moon, Venus, Neptune) will amplify the already existing traits of the asteroid.

Aspects to Aphrodite

- Sun / Aphrodite: makes the native shine from their core, making it hard for people to not notice them. They radiate a sun-like beauty which outshines everyone else in the room. The native’s confidence can make others feel insecure. Very ego driven, conceited and wants to be seen as divine. Harsh aspects (square, opposition) can bring insecurities and make the native shy away from the spotlight. Suitors are confident, boisterous and ego driven.

- Moon / Aphrodite: Comfort is very important for this native. Emotional attachments to their crushes are very likely to happen, with squares/oppositions aspects the native might hide their emotions or neglect themselves due to a lack of healhty examples of love from their mother. The native might be really harsh on themselves and prone to emotional outbursts. The native could use their emotions to play as the victim.

Otherwise the native is very loving and might even want to care for their love interests. Suitors are really protective and emotionally open towards the native. They might even overshare with the native bc of their soft and comforting aura.

- Mercury / Aphrodite: The native’s youthful presence and intellect pulls people in here. Aphrodite here is driven by knowledge and she might make the native prone to ask questions and express curiosity as a sign of interest. Might attract younger and energetic suitors who will talk their ears off lmao. Squares/Oppositions bring shyness and immaturity + gossip and lies used against the native.

- Venus / Aphrodite: Very lovely connection if positive. The dream-like presence of Aphrodite meets the eartlhy influence of Venus. Aphrodite’s dream of a fulfilling love story can become a reality. Basically Aphrodite’s and Venus’ energy is aplified as an earthly goddess. Careful with conjunctions tho, the expectations of the native might be wayyyy too high here and might be prone to delusion. But the native’s love here is guaranteed (you don’t have to question whether this person loves you or not).

Squares can indicate an unrequited love scenario, where the native will have strong feelings for someone but will fear being rejected. The native could repress their creative talents and overspend their money recklessly as a coping mechanism. The native could also try to lure in suitors or love interests with money to win their affection. Oppositions amplify the hedonistic side of the native, making them hard to pin down and break some hearts in the process. People might try to force them into a box. Very hot and cold with their suitors, who are always left guessing about the native’s true feelings. Speaking of suitors: they’ll have this ethereal energy to them and more likely to exceed the general beauty standards. Could have lots of admirers flocking around them.

- Aphrodite / Mars: COM-PE-TI-TIVE. Very passionate lover in and out of the bedroom. Flirty and usually well liked. Sex appeal is turned to the max. Mars here fuels the fire and mixes in passion and determination to Aphrodite’s aura. The native is more determined to reach their goals, and use both their intelligence and sex-appeal to get what they want. Might be really popular with the opposite sex.

Suitors might resemble Ares (Aphrodite’s classical lover), impulsive, dominant and quite self-centered.

Squares makes the native vindictive and selfish. Their anger could blind them from what’s truly meant for them, and their ambitions might be fueled by spite, impulsive wants and a desperate need to win. Oppositions might make other feel possessive, violent or hostile over the native.

- Aphrodite / Jupiter: Larger than life aura around the native. Similar to Mars, Jupiter might give player tendencies to the energy of the Goddess. Jupiter can make natives be beautiful and likeable inside and out. The native might confuse suitors since they act the same way with everyone. Harsh (conjunction, square, opposition) aspects can indicate cheating or cause the native to be confused about their feelings. Others might think the native is “too nice” even (lmao) or amplify the jealousy of others. Careful if you’re having sex bc Aphrodite’s fertility isn’t just for show, so wrap it up.

- Aphrodite / Saturn: Has an “Old Hollywood” aesthetic to it. The native might have a more traditional view on love and romance, and be attracted to more mature partners. Suitors might hold onto appearances and not be vocal with their feelings, they might take a while to court the native + their approach might be unromantic but very loyal and persistent (for harmonious aspects). 

Harsh aspects (conjunction-in this case, square, opposition) can be challenging since the native might act needy and bratty around mature figures or attract indivisuals who wish to “tame” them. Suitors might be overbearing and stoic, which might push away the native to seek for freedom away from them, then come back.

- Aphrodite / Uranus: the native might be hard to pin down aesthetically (there’s a love here for different aesthetics, for combining them) and romantically. The native might not have a type and their romantic fantasies revolve around different types of people and non-human beings.

Similar to Jupiter, their suitors always have to break a sweat when keeping up with the native’s feelings. Harsh aspects might make the native feel inadequate or too eccentric for other people to accept (conjunction, square, opposition). These aspects might push the native to rebel against traditional expectations of love.

- Aphrodite / Neptune: Harmonious aspects (trine, sextile) give a youthful, fairy-tale like appearance. Soft in nature and very giving. Very observant and sweet. Usually well liked.

With conjunction the already hedonistic side of the Goddess is being amplified by Neptune, bringing unrealistic expectations. She becomes the ultimate fantasy. The native can go all Beyoncé Partition and be like “~the kinda girl you like is right here with me~” bewitching everyone and every camera. Prone to extremes and sacrificinng themselves (especially their looks) to please others.

Squares will bring inner conflicts on whether the native should showcase their beauty and their creations. Might struggle to be more serious when it comes to love, or avoid/exchange the reality of love for fantasies. Oppositons lure people in but get disappointed or feel like they’ve been conned by the native when the fantasy they projected doesn’t match with who the native is. Suitors are dreamy but unclear about their feelings, might be prone to making promises they can’t keep or ghosting.

- Aphrodite / Pluto: Very discreet but intense. Aphrodite is pulled in the deep end, which could drive her to fear love or obssess over the search for the deeper meaning of love. If afflicted, the native can become vindictive and manipulative towards love interests, spread lies to deflect others from their crush. Harsh aspects can be similar to Mars, the native might have a desperate need to win. Their beauty can deceive and their hunger for power never cease.

Suitors here have an intense aura (especially their stare and presence), might be fearful when it comes to expressing feelings. Powerful and demanding individuals who might hide their true intentions or be really reserved.

Something I want to say:

- Harsh aspects between Aphrodite/Moon/Venus attracts the jealousy of other women. The native might feel like they need to repress their beauty and the way they express love in order to avoid the hostility of other women. The native needs to realise that they can’t please everyone, that other women’s jealousy isn’t about their beauty specifically but it’s merely a reflection of their insecurities. What I want to say to these natives is that life’s too short to give a f*ck about other people’s insecurities, that’s not your issue, be your beautiful self and live freely 💅🏻💗💗

<In part 2 I’ll be delving into Aphrodite in the houses, since I couldn’t fit everything in one post>

“A single person is missing for you, and the whole world is empty.”

— The Year of Magical Thinking, Joan Didion (b. 5 December 1934)