see the THING IS I don't feel like I ever worked hard enough to have "earned" the burnout, which is. probably how we got here.
when i was a straight boy, i said so, at least to myself.
it was always "pretty girls" and "beautiful women" shown to me, described to me. men were "handsome", but that's not an aesthetic judgement. it's a recommendation for marriage that could be based on other traits.
a good-looking man's portrait was almost always painted to what would make him look good to straight men, not those who wanted to fuck.
it seemed like desire for men was alien, an unexplainable, unrelatable magical feeling that others were mind controlled by.
until, eventually, i found that desire.
yet, it still feels wrong to use the same descriptions. masculine men are still, generally, not pretty to me. but i. i want to kiss them so much. i want a better word. help.
being attracted to men is not shameful or regrettable and if you think this is a 'needlessly arguing for the norm in a community of outsiders' post then you're part of the problem
sorry for being weird and evasive. i was raised to believe that having wants and needs was a moral failing
It's kind of based on priorities and thought process, I guess? The point of a thumbtack-braid is to make them stop, and pain is just a side effect. The point of punishing someone is to hurt them, regardless of whether it makes them stop.
Based
unsung benefit i think a lot of ppl are sleeping on with using the public library is that i think its a great replacement for the dopamine hit some ppl get from online shopping. it kind of fills that niche of reserving something that you then get to anticipate the arrival of and enjoy when it arrives, but without like, the waste and the money.
obsessed with how fixable society is, on a structural level.
obsessed with how all you need to do is throw money at public education and eliminate most standardized testing and you will start getting smarter, more engaged, kinder adults. obsessed with how giving people safe housing, reliable access to good food, and decent wages dramatically reduces drug overdoses and gun violence. obsessed with how much people actually want to get together and fix infrastructure, invent new ways of helping each other, and create global ways of living sustainably once you give them livable pay to do so. obsessed with how tracking diseases, developing medicines, and improving public health becomes so much easier when you just make healthcare free at point of use.
obsessed with how easy it all becomes, if we can just figure out how to wrench the wealth out of the hands of the hoarders.
Matoro Mahri
i’m evolved i think pda is actually a good and fine thing even when straight people do it but especially when gay people do. it’s nice to see love in public don’t be a hater grab a loved one and smooch them in line for your pretzel bites or something
hey sorry if i was offputting and strange and bizarre and weird as fuck last night i was just being myself
Bionicle sketches
(Only have two more left to draw)
Why are fascists so much better at imagining left-wing utopias than we are?