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I love your blog hun it’s so pretty 🌸
Oh em gee hiiii Alice angel, you have a pretty blog yourself too, you're so kind >_< !!! 💗x
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There's this morbid nostalgia in craving the pleasure pain of losing your milk teeth... Ive been feeling that recently. It has motivated me to explore a thought I had and decided to group with my alter ego; and potentially publish a novella under her in my 20s.
This has been fueled more after starting Hannibal, am I crazy idk... But god do I think about the sweet pain of twisting my loose teeth in my raw tearing gums and hearing it rip out with so much wicked joy I can feel the rush.... OK thats enough for now...
Today I did grocery shopping, helped cook, danced around to loosen up since its day 4 of my period and I don't bleed out so I felt happy lol, i posted on my alt, and binged Hannibal, just had a snack and gonna doze off to Hannibal x
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I'm done with my passion project presentation/proposal idk, but I'm too anxious to share for some reason lmao??? Maybe it's the period cramps or other stuff happening in my life rn but I probably should.... I also finished the painting I talked about, I think I already mentioned I gave my ip6+ a deepclean a few days ago and I believe I can live without WhatsApp and YouTube (f*ck you apple🙄)
I'm looking podcasts recommendations to subscribe to, I spent my day downloading more literary fiction classics and, gonna spend my night downloading my go to songs to store offline while blasting this song repeatedly:
Today is 26th of May 2025
I just finished House M.D., and it’s got me messed up in the most beautiful way. This show didn’t just entertain me, it gave me something to wake up for, something to stretch the days around. I’d pace myself like it was a slow-burning love affair, knowing I’d mourn the end even before I got there. And now? Yeah. I’m in mourning.
Every episode, every character, I loved all of it. No skips. No fillers. Just layered, painful, brilliant storytelling. And that extra episode Hugh Laurie directed? It cracked open my respect for the whole damn industry. You can tell when an actor bleeds for a role, and baby, he bled for House.
This show wasn’t just a distraction... it was an escape that made me feel more present than real life sometimes. Now that it’s over, I already want to rewatch it. I already miss it. But not in a “rewind the fun” kind of way—more like visiting an old ghost who used to hold your hand while you cried.
And yeah, it hurts knowing I’ll never get that first-time magic back. I envy new fans. I envy not knowing what’s coming. Out of every show I could’ve chosen, I picked this one, and I stuck to it, to the bitter, bittersweet end.
I didn’t think I could love 177 episodes of a limping, sarcastic, drug-addicted genius who pushes everyone away.....but I did. I do. I loved him when he was cruel, when he was right, when he was spiraling, when he tried. Every twitch of those haunted eyes told me he wanted to be saved, even if he didn’t believe in salvation.
And now here I am, broken-hearted and grateful. Because if you're gonna fall for a show, fall for one that ruins you this perfectly.
Mazel Tov.
my skin is clear but lately its been getting bumpy (no acne and stuff tho, just bumpy instead of smooth) any tips?!?!?!?! love you gorg xoxo
You came to the RIGHT person BABY 👏👏👏. This is gonna sound abit preachy but I can't praise it ENOUGH. I just know you're gorg too angel 😚x, the world just HAS to nerf us for no reason😭.
Here's How I Got Rid of My Skin Bumps in a Month (No Gatekeeping, Just the Real Routine. WITH PROOF!!!)
You're curious or in need? I got you, no fluff, no 10-step K-beauty marketing fantasy or olive young code to share, just what actually worked for my skin. I struggled with tiny, annoying texture and bumps that refused to go away until I got serious about my routine. Here's exactly what I did and why it worked.
My Routine:
Step 1: Cleanser
CeraVe SA Smoothing Cleanser
This cleanser is packed with salicylic acid (BHA), which gently exfoliates while cleansing. Wash your face with water first, foam a bit in your clean palms, then massage wash into your skin for 2mins. No stripping, not too much drama, as it should. Just gets in there and preps your skin to absorb what’s next.
Step 2: Skin Booster
Cosrx 6 Peptide Skin Booster Serum
I used this right after cleansing to help support my skin barrier and texture. Peptides are like your skin’s support system, they help with firmness, healing and extra absorption of serums after it. I let this dry down before moving to the main event.
Step 3: The Game-Changer
Garnier SkinActive AHA+BHA+Charcoal Anti-Blemish Serum
Listen to me clearly: this serum is the star. AHA exfoliates the surface. BHA goes deeper into the pores. Charcoal detoxes. Niacinamide calms the whole thing down. I started with it every other day (about 4x a week for week one), just to test how my skin would react. No burning, no irritation, I could already feel smoothness beginning to creep in. From week two, I used it daily. By week four? The bumps were GONE, they did not BS with that in the promo.
Optional Add-In:
Cosrx Hyaluronic Acid Serum
I used this only when I felt dry. It’s great, but honestly? The Garnier serum was the heavy-lifter.
Why It Worked (The real science according to my research):
Exfoliation was key. Most textured bumps are clogged pores, dead skin, oil, debris. AHA and BHA exfoliants remove that without over-scrubbing. Although I did use a rough face towel like once a week with the cleanser 🫣.
Consistency did most of the work. This wasn’t a one-and-done miracle. I showed up for my skin and it showed out for me.
Testing slowly helped prevent reactions. I gave my skin time to adjust.
Here's my proof to show I'm NOT making shit up:
Extra Tips I Searched:
Don’t skip moisturizer. Even if you're oily. These ingredients can dry you out.
Use SPF during the day. AHAs and BHAs make your skin more sensitive to sunlight. Don’t undo your progress. I used a sunscreen with vitamin C to help brighten at the same time.
Give it 4 weeks minimum. Skin cycles take time. Don't expect overnight results.
This routine isn’t about perfection. It’s about tuning in, being gentle but consistent (tbh I was impatient but I pulled thru it😮💨) and letting active ingredients do what they were made to do. The Garnier serum? She’s the girl she thinks she is. Budget-friendly, effective, and no BS. LIKE FOR REAL.
If you're dealing with those stubborn bumps and want a routine that works without overwhelming your life or wallet, try this puhleaseeeeee. Let your skin breathe. Let it glowwwwww!!!!
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Nothing much today, cramping, stayed home with kid, had to tend after kid, we took a nap together tho. I LOVE period cramps 😍🔫
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Today was very productive actually, I'm 80% complete with the project. Anddddddd I'm going back to writing too :D.
I ate the pancakes I made at midnight for breakfast, they were yum as usual :p.
Stuff I consider productive that I did today:
I cleaned my email inbox.
Unsubscribed from random sites I forgot about.
I took 3 coding lesson practices, which lasted a good chunk of my day.
Deleted books and videos that I had saved and I enjoyed but I would actually cry if anyone came across them. This is an attempt to quit that stuff.
Curated podcasts to listen to (I forgot that podcasts on Apple were free).
I downloaded classic books to replace the old ones.
Read and learned about art history instead of doomscrolling or watching the videos I want to keep away from.
Put 1.5hrs to study italian 😝
Tell me why it's 1 AM, and I just made pancakes for breakfast in advance while listening to this song on repeat. Even as I eat one pancake on my bed, I am still listening to this ear candy.
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Great now I have to think of other courses to take urghhh🙄. Other than that I've made progress with my baby cherub (ehem, passion project) I'm in that stage of contemplating everything I've written 🤣ha ha...
I think something is wrong with me, coz why did I eat 2 dinners smh... See this is why you shouldn't eat dinner early, coz I made a different meal 2 hrs after the first one coz I got munchies 😒. And look, I usually stop at one, duhhh.. But my mouth felt bored today I guess, anddd I have discipline... Maybe its coz I fasted, oh well.
Thinking of making pancake batter rn, or may be even making pancakes for tomorrow so I don't wake up to make them 💔
Anyways, gn.
Angela ¦ "05 ¦ Her ¦ Bi ¦ INFP ¦ Artist ¦ Did I say artist?
ABOUT :
Call me Angel / she-her. this is @angelaness — the essence of me in pixels and words.
Currently 19. Black asf. 180cm tall and very proud of it.
artist, muse, menace.
i draw myself so the world never forgets what it lost when it tried to shrink me. self-portraiture is my love letter to existence. yes I'm obsessed with art like it’s religion.
currently: painting w acrylic, cutting up old jeans, passioning my project (coming soon x) and daydreaming about a future lover I already miss.
.a shrine to girlhood that bites back.
.thoughts too tender for main.
LIKES :
graphite-stained hands. old art masters. kpop, krnb, gl + bl (biased, unashamed). vintage cams + handycam diaries. jazz loops in dim rooms. sims 2 aesthetics, messy art desks, cigarette ash in candle jar. pretty men n women who look like heartbreak. dirt, rex rats, glass hearts, and everything chicly broken. fashion that's slashed + stitched with story. solo dates, long showers, secret blogs. the art kids nobody gets but everybody wants to be. baking. pinterest + spotify combo. stray kids. ive. red velvet. DPR IAN.
DISLIKES :
✧ art theft ✧. nosy people who don’t listen. when people make me explain the magic. over-filtered lives + over-sanitized thoughts. “why don’t you smile more?”/“i don't like what you're wearing”. boys who think height intimidates me; babe, i love towering over you. always. Subconscious bigotry. when 2+ ppl are talking to me/trying to get my attention at the same time irl 💔. bad handwritting. weaponized incompetence.
DNI (DO NOT INTERACT) :
racist, ableist, queerphobic, transphobic, fatphobic, misogynistic, islamaphobic etc (obviously). if you mock kids, art, or dreams. fetishizers (i see you. i block you.). anti-oc / anti-self ship / anti-whimsy. cops + copycats. no age-inappropriate behavior. keep it classy or keep it gone.
BOUNDARIES :
i am not your therapist, your savior, or your fetish. you can trauma dump but plz provide/tell me b4 hand a warning for graphic details. don’t repost or edit my art. ask before using, actually don't use my art for ANYTHING. respect my silence. you can flirt, but know your place. don't be a dumb keyboard warrior spreading hate on my blog, you're just a fictional thing in my phone and i bite back. not gently. usually.
if you stay, stay sweet.
stay strange. stay whimsy.
stay #angelaness.
if you vibed, reblog. if you didnt, scroll. (leave a like blessing tho)
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Mom's birthday!!! I sent her something for mothers day plus her birthday last week :)
A painting I put my soul into, nothing less for mum<3
I've always thought of her as purple💜
Otherwise, nothing much today; I drew a lot, reminisced about childhood and my mom's love, and I'm halfway done with the painting I showed a day before. I did more writing for a proposal for my passion project; hopefully, I'll share it soon with you guys. ☺️
hihii!!
you seem fun and chill but pls dont joke about being a narcassist
youre super pretty so you should totally love yourself but ik narcissists irl and you do NOT wanna be comparing yourself to those people girl
not forced tho obvi
off topic
finally another black girl who's into wonyoungism omg T-T its like we're rare or something
Heya!!! Thank yeww for reminding me of my worth ☺️🫶🏾. You're too kind. And you're right — no one should be having that kind of depreciating self talk even as a joke, the universe is funny place, manifestation is real and I do NAWT want to end up as a narcissist 💀
I'm sure many of us are anonymous; at least I was when I started.
Black wonyoungism bloggers unite 👊🏾😗
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:0 the date 2005!
Today I tried to complete the painting I started yesterday, but ehh, will finish tomorrow once I get over the overthinking phase.
I did pilates as usual today, and I'm seriously thinking about actually going ahead with signing one of the 2 modelling contracts offered to me, but my mom won't let me 💔but I want to take it (modelling) seriously urghhhh.
Idkkk, and I should actually finish with the uni stuff, idk idk idkkekjskaksvdndksksk I did NOT plan to be alive to experience this moment oh my gooooddddddddddd😖
Warning!!! : Super Cool Loser Black Girl
Pov: You're my friend on Locket :p
I just realised I don't have a pinned intro, I should do one soon, sorry :0 !!!!
Guys I actually think I'm narcissistic lowkey 😭, I love myself!. Gosh aren't I pretty, I could stare at myself all day.
Wait that's totally not narcissistic! I think I'm so cool and kind and so awesome, sometimes I wish I was my friend, or maybe my lover... Is onecest a thing? it should be. This is what #angelaness is about— contentment 🙂↕️
Being your true self and embracing it!
Anyways add me, I'm fun I promise x
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Today, not much happened. I babysat the whole day, helped with 2 posters for an assignment, baked thumbprint jam cookies 😻, and had my hair done in cornrows. Overall, it was a decent day, to be honest. Now I'm tucked in my blanket, all giddy and filled with warmth. I ate the last batch at the top that got scorched, don't worry 😭.
I know I just posted this, but writing that made me feel so eerily calm that I got scared for a second, I hear the constant ringing of the night and quiet, the occasional chirps of crickets or other living things I probably don't know about. No music blasting in my eardrums from trying to drown everything to feel functional, just the reassuring sound of snores coming from the room next to mine, my ringlight casting a dim warm light in my room, my blanket feels just as warm it feels silly to have my heater in the room. I feel aware, and I'm loving it.
Please, angels in the four corners of my bed, don't take this feeling away.
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Passion project...
I think I outdid myself yesterday lol, but it was worth it, I just missed the sanctuary of my bed toooo much after those 2 hrs I spent eating, musing, and drawing in public. Today I tried to search 4 unis, the one I was eyeing needed A level results, and wellll..... I cant provide them, and they don't offer bridging courses to their diplomas, infact all their diplomas need A level certs lol. Idk if I can call another uni to ask some stuff tomorrow but I'll try (oops I procrastinated abit too hard-don't learn that from me)
I have been thinking of my passion project lately, and I want to make it real instead of a silly little idea in the back of my mind that I use to distract myself when pressure becomes overwhelming. I even have a pre-project idea for it. If I had half the enthusiastic audience (my angels x) I have here but on TikTok, I think I would've started already and have much support and encouragement to bridge to the actual big project :')
So yeah, I've been brainstorming and pouring my soul into it for years; it keeps beating harder as my skin thickens and my heart feels more alive.
Maybe one day I'll share my plans with you guys, and if Tumblr isn't only about the teens in this mess of life together, then maybe it will become something big and real.
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Today I went to the mall, got groceries, and got a cheescake n milk for myself to indulge in 😼, so I sat at the benches and ate to my fill, it was like a solo date honestly, I did sudoku, I drew half-heartedly yet felt full, and read abit. Came back home, cleaned my room, made myself an avocado milkshake, danced to some tunes and I'm watching YOU as I type this. Now I'm going to stretch, take a shower and tuck myself into my freshly made bed :3.
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Project research, planning, university searching, contemplating life, back to project, cut myself some shorts from jeans I don't wear, planning on what to do with the scraps, organise my dresser, vc with BFF, now to bed
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Ways to Shift the Angle || It's all about perspective.
1. Go outside ugly.
No makeup. No cute outfit. Just step out. Feel the wind. Notice the clouds like they’re watching you back. You’re not there to be seen, you’re there to see, aka you're right as a HUMAN.
2. Drink water with dramatic flair.
Pour it into your prettiest glass. Add lemon, cucumber, or mint if you’re extra. Sip it like it’s holy. Because it is. Hydration is a rebuke to the decay.
3. Unfollow the perfect. Follow the real.
Curate your feed like a gallery. If it doesn’t make you dream bigger or breathe deeper, cut it. You become what you consume.
My moto has always been See it, be it.
4. Romanticize something stupid.
Fold laundry like a French film heroine. Wash dishes like you’re in a music video. Make it art. You don’t need permission, you have free will!!!!
5. Make something and let it suck.
Doodle, paint, sing badly, dance worse, write shit poetry and convince yourself you're freaking Edgar Allan Poe. Expression is not a talent contest, it’s your soul stretching its arms. There so many ways to do that.
6. Touch grass... but like, really touch it.
Like fr. Sit with your bare legs on the ground. Let dirt under your nails(you can clean it l8r, it ain't gonna kill you) Be wild. You’re not a screen. You’re skin and blood and thunder.
7. Talk to yourself with tenderness.
You’ve survived every ugly day so far. That deserves softness. Praise yourself out loud like you would your best friend.
8. Write a letter to the girl you’ll be in a year.
Tell her what you hope for. What you’re scared of. What you’re trying. Then seal it. Hide it. Come back to it later and weep at your own growth.
9. Watch a movie you loved at 13.
Feel how it hits different. That’s -perspective- seeing the same story with new eyes, older eyes, wiser eyes.
10. Do something the algorithm doesn’t care about.
Learn to knit. Bake bread (!!!!). Read a dusty book. These aren’t for clout. They’re for soul.
You don’t need a full rebrand. You need a tilt. A reframe. A second glance.
Your life isn’t just a reel of wasted time. It’s a painting in progress. And even the mess matters. Every shade. Every smudge. Every layer.
Perspective is more than a trick of the eye. It’s a rebellion. A soft uprising against despair. It says, yes, this sucks right now, but it’s not the whole story. You are not the rot. You are the artist holding the brush, choosing what to do next.
I don't believe everything happens for a reason. But I do believe in reshaping the meaning of things that happen.
So next time you’re lying there, staring at the ceiling like it holds answers, waiting for a sign, turn the paper. Turn yourself. A few degrees is all it takes.
And suddenly, what looked like the end… is just the start of something strange and beautiful.
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Need to be my mc since yesterday, she's gorge I wanted her more than matthias 😻😼
Yes I play interactive games like THTH, episodes and choices or wtv AND LADS<3. What else was i gonna say bout it.... Speaking of, I should get episodes again, I'm done with too hot to handle already 😝.
It’s All About Perspective:
Sometimes, all it takes is a quarter turn.
That dried paint blob: smeared, ugly, accidental — can become a dancing figure with big shoes, a biker, an abstract expression, if you just tilt it. And what if your life is the same? What if you’re not broken, lazy, or lost, but simply looking at your own story from the wrong side?
We’ve all been there. Hair greasy, phone hot from hours of scrolling, a million open tabs and zero opened dreams. You’re rotting in bed, flicking from one TikTok to another, laughing, then crying, then dissociating, watching other people live out the things you swore you’d do. It’s addicting. Comfortable. Even aesthetic. "Girl rot" became a moodboard, for Christ's sake but no one tells you that staying there too long leaves you hollow.
But here’s the truth, my dear angels: you’re not the paint blob. You’re the hand turning the page. You decide the angle.
So how do you shift perspective when everything feels heavy? When life is a loop of doomscrolls, late-night existential spirals, and the occasional burst of fake motivation?
You start slow. You start small. You turn the page.
Maybe I'll post something about this topic tomorrow :)
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Sore morning, ovulating high, oats, mall walk, sardine sandwich, curation, hair wash, new kdrama, to bed
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Airport, goodbyes, playlist, songmaking
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Today was an eventful day :D! I played dress up to 2014 diet Pepsi party songs, went out, and stumbled across a free flower arrangement class, and I got to take my own bouquet home!!!! >.<!
Today was really good, life has meaning outside of bedrotting and doomscrolling, go out and find something to do, you'll find joy, relaxation and dopamine from activities you'd usually never bat an eye at!
Since I'm having a good day, here's a cool-ish and fun face reveal (might delete later)
Bonus 🩵
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Brah, nothing much today as usual, I think I can even predict tomorrow accurate I'm not even joking. I'll wake up groggy, do my skin routine, either decide to fast longer, just take tea or coffee, or make a proper breakkie for myself, which is usually oats or like eggs and wtv.
I'm prepping to do a evening stretch or perhaps workout before bed actually.
Im getting nowhere with this drawing lol. Maybe I should test out my new pencils!
The answer to the previous poll was actually the Follicular Phase. The oat cookies really threw most of you off and made you choose the Luteal Phase, but I mentioned more Follicular activities than Luteal. That's my bad. OK, I'm done; my will to do the exercise is stronger than ever!
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Today I ate kale, made myself a really ugly salad... Soooo not pictured lol, my skin is doing better - something seems to be wrong but I'll be just fine. Tho I didn't have time to exercise I did feel like it, maybe I should squeeze a stretch before bed to satisfy that craving. I also made some oat cookies :D!!!! And had quite the productive conversation with my best friend
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Cycle Syncing 101: How to Stop Fighting Your Body and Start Flowing (🌚) With It
alright girls, gather ‘round. this is the full post i promised - the one about periods, moods, energy, and how to actually live in sync with your cycle instead of feeling like a chaotic mess every month. because once i started tracking and understanding my cycle… it changed everything. for real. my workouts, my eating, my planning, my self-talk all became softer, smarter, more strategic. so let's break it down.
your menstrual cycle has 4 main phases, and each one brings its own vibe, mood, superpowers, and kryptonite. when you know which phase you’re in, you stop blaming yourself and start working with your body, not against it. ready?
1. Menstrual Phase (Bleeding / Days 1–5ish)
Vibe: hibernation queen. inward. reflective.
Body: hormones (estrogen + progesterone) are at their lowest = low energy, fatigue, cramps, sensitivities.
Mind: introspective, quiet, intuitive. this is your “truth-telling” time.
What to do:
Exercise: restorative yoga, stretching, slow walks. if you need to skip your workout? skip it. your body is doing enough.
Food: iron-rich foods (spinach, lentils, beef, dark chocolate), warm meals like soups and stews. magnesium-rich snacks can help with cramps.
Routines: go slow. journal. say no to extra plans. light candles. wear comfy clothes. treat yourself like you're sacred.
Study/work: focus on review, reflecting on past tasks, journaling ideas. let your brain rest a bit—don’t force deep concentration.
Self-care: warm baths, heat pads, soft music, no loud people.
Mental tip: you’re bleeding out the past month. literally. let go of what didn’t serve you. Zdont feel guilty.
2. Follicular Phase (Post-period / Days 6–13ish)
Vibe: fresh start. springtime energy. main character in a coming-of-age film.
Body: estrogen rises. energy builds. skin glows. you feel light, optimistic, social.
Mind: creative, motivated, open to new ideas.
What to do:
Exercise: try something new—dance, pilates, running, gym sessions. you’ll feel strong and energetic.
Food: fresh and light—greens, fermented foods, seeds, citrus. boost that metabolism.
Routines: this is your reset phase. declutter. plan your week/month. start new habits. your brain wants structure right now.
Study/work: brainstorm, start new projects, prep for heavy tasks ahead. your memory and focus are sharper.
Self-care: vision boards, hair masks, cute outfits. say yes to life.
Mental tip: this is your most productive phase. take advantage but don’t overbook. pace yourself.
3. Ovulation Phase (Middle of Cycle / Days 14–16ish)
Vibe: glowing goddess. seductive. unstoppable.
Body: estrogen peaks, testosterone joins the party. libido spikes. you’re magnetic and bold.
Mind: communicative, charming, high-confidence. great time to network or confront someone (with love, of course).
What to do:
Exercise: go hard—HIIT, lifting, cardio, group workouts. you’ve got power and endurance.
Food: fiber-rich foods (quinoa, carrots, berries) and antioxidants. hydrate well.
Routines: do your “hard” things here—presentations, big meetings, social stuff, shooting your shot.
Study/work: speak, pitch, debate. you’ve got clarity + persuasion.
Self-care: romanticize yourself. take hot pics, go out, flirt with life.
Mental tip: your confidence is real. don’t downplay it. enjoy this phase but stay grounded.
4. Luteal Phase (Pre-period / Days 17–28ish)
Vibe: cozy but moody. nesting energy.
Body: progesterone rises after ovulation. if no pregnancy happens, hormones start to drop = PMS hits.
Mind: detail-focused, critical, sensitive. easily overstimulated.
What to do:
Exercise: lower the intensity. pilates, strength training, long walks. listen to your body.
Food: complex carbs (sweet potatoes, oats), calming teas, B6-rich foods (bananas, salmon). eat more often to manage cravings + blood sugar dips.
Routines: finish tasks. organize. clean your space. prep for your period like you’d prep for a storm—lovingly.
Study/work: editing, detail work, wrapping up loose ends. less is more.
Self-care: limit caffeine, go offline if needed, soothe your senses.
Mental tip: don’t trust every thought. the inner critic is loud but not always right. softness wins here.
General Tips:
Track your cycle: use apps like Clue, Flo, or just a paper calendar. know when each phase starts so you can plan smarter.
Plan around your phases: big goals in follicular/ovulation, rest + review in menstrual/luteal.
Cycle syncing ≠ perfection: life doesn’t always let you live like a hormone princess. do what you can. forgive what you can't.
Be kind to yourself: if your body is low-energy, that’s not laziness—it’s biology. honor it.
Final Thoughts:
nobody told us this. nobody said “hey, your whole system is a monthly pattern, learn the rhythm and life gets easier.” instead, we got shame, pain, and whispers. but no more. now we know better. and syncing your life to your cycle is not about being soft—it’s about being smart. strategic. in tune.
girlhood isn’t chaos, insanity, it’s coded. and when you read the code, you stop feeling like a mess and start feeling like magic.
if you made it this far, you’re already syncing, baby.
go be soft when you need, strong when it calls, and sacred always💕
May is here
Today went out tried to sketch no motivation, nothing interesting really.
Ok but can we talk about how different each phase of the menstrual cycle feels?? like you’d think it’s just “period = sad” but no babe, it’s a whole seasonal shift in your body every month.
bleeding days? emotional fog. kind of dreamy, kind of raw. i wanna disappear and reappear as a wiser version of myself.
then suddenly i’m glowing?? follicular phase hits and i’m making playlists, plotting my entire life, falling in love with strangers on the street.
ovulation? don’t talk to me i’m the sun. i could seduce gods. i’m flirty, social, magnetic, and fully convinced i’m that girl, Angel!
but then luteal phase slaps me with a cosmic “slow down.” i start overthinking, wanting to delete my whole internet presence, (the amount of times I've deactivated my insta is crazy) crying over a tiktok of a dog getting a new toy or that one guy who lost is mom, held her funeral pic with his dad, then the next slide is him holding his dad's funeral pic, that devastated me, this phase makes the world feel loud.
and the wildest part? it’s predictable. it’s a cycle. we’re not crazy, we’re syncing with an inner calendar nobody taught us how to read.
there’s so much i wanna say on this. like how to work with your cycle instead of fighting it. how to rest, create, reflect, and thrive depending on the phase you’re in. but i’ll save all that for the full post.
just wanted to say: you’re not lazy, moody, clingy, or cold. you’re probably just in a different phase. and that deserves softness, not shame.
x
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Woke up with a bad start but sleeping with a good ending tonight. Here's a 1min vid I just finished editing; the snacks were yummerz regardless.
Please ignore the split second in the intro when the frame wasn't showing.