Cant Even - Blog Posts

Im currently so depressed I don't know what to do. Anyone? It's affecting soccer and school but I don't know how to handle it because no one really knows or cares.

We have taken this to far

I showed my mum this meme because I thought it was funny and she said I was heterophobic 🙂

Me after watching Infinity War and not knowing how to cope

I think I'm crazy or something

Uh... Is it ok if whenever I listen to determined songs I think about Jaemin and feel like butterflies in my stomach?????

I'm crazy help

Like THIS SONG GIVES ME THAT TYPE OF FEELING AND I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT JAEMIN IF I LISTEN TO IT.

They make me like safe (?), It makes me think that I want to explore the world, risk it all with someone special (jaemin lol) even though I'm like the worst with this things.

(and because I know jaemin is only a famous idol, I'm a normal human that can't be with him and I hate to think those things because I'm just deluding myself)

I'm not the type of person that wants to have big adventures, mostly because I've social anxiety and hate to be somewhere big...

The beat hits me hard, it's a beautiful song, both of them are good songs.

I found a playlist on Spotify with "J A E M I N" as title, I started to play songs cuz I was like "oh ok I need to listen to some new things" AND THE MOST OF THE SONGS WERE BEAUTIFUL, now I have my own playlist... Lol

I think that the playlist was created by someone for like a story or something (yk for the character used there, obv Jaemin)

But I can't remember the person and the actual story, I'm sad.

Anyway, sorry for this... I don't even know what is this, I just wanted to share this thing with someone.

Ok bye.

Be healthy, stay safe and remember that YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL ❤️❤️❤️❤️

(still, I'm waiting for more x male reader on wattpad with a mafia au with a happy ending, I'm sad again)