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Ten Songs Meme

Tagged: @jellydishes ⁌ ⁍ (Thank you~ 🎧🤍📻)

put your playlist on shuffle and list the first 10 songs, then tag 10 people

1: Outta My Mind - Monsune

2: Love Lockdown - Trevor Something

3: Sorry - Meg Myers (Ethnikids Remix)

4: Tayf (Ghost) - Mashrou’ Leila

5: I Can’t Let You Go - 52nd Street

6: Dorian Electra - Career Boy

7: Lover Chanting - Little Dragon

8: DNA - Kendrick Lamar (Yung Bae Remix)

9: Lucifer - Sadluci

10: She Has a Lover - Turquoise Jeep ft. Pierre Cashmere & Slick Mahoney

Tagging: @5lazarus @calenhads @noswordstyle @bengalaas @heartsyhawk (But only if you’d like~ 🎶👏😌🎵) and all other interested parties. @ me in your posts if you try it out!

Get To Know Me Better: Last/Current

Tagged: @the-ever-chaos-collective (Thank you~ ☺️ 💞💕)

Last song: Gesaffelstein - OPR I’ve been obsessed with this one ever since I heard the experience of listening to it described as “exactly what it feels like to drive to 7-Eleven for cigarettes and gas at, like, 3:30 in the morning when you have clinical anxiety” lmao... Is it? I wouldn’t know. But it IS a Certified Banger™ imho. 😩👏

Last movie: White Palace What can I say? I have a weakness for 90′s James Spader romances. 😏

Currently watching: Northern Exposure Speaking of my 90′s-era weaknesses.

Currently reading: Dragon Age: Asunder by David Gaider. I’m working my way back and forth between the novels and the lorebooks in a roundabout attempt to make them last me the winter.

Currently craving: A slice of homemade Earl grey cake, from this recipe specifically. Luckily my partner’s mother’s birthday is in about a week, so I have a good excuse to make it soon. 😌👌 🍰 (If you want my advice, though, do not attempt the accompanying honey buttercream frosting. It melts at room temperature, which I learned—you guessed it—the hard way. Go with something sturdier like this instead.)

Tagging: @5lazarus @proudofmyanger @jellydishes @levikra @jarakrisafis (But only if you’d like~ 🎼📖🎞️✨)

Tagged: @jellydishes​ (Thank you~ 👋😘 ❤️)

Tagging: @the-halo-of-my-memory​​ @the-ever-chaos-collective​ @astriaage​ @hawkeish​ @proudofmyanger​ @rat-spit-village​ @the-horae​ (But only if you’d like~ 👑👗🗡️✨)

Saw this on Twitter and thought it was super cute!

Google your name followed by:

*your name* fantasy gown

*your name* fantasy crown

*your name* fanstasy weapon

Create your fantasy outfit and tag 5 people to show you theirs!

Ummm sorry but Geralt of Rivia ain’t gonna know what hit him baby!

Tagging some peeps, show me yours!!

@iloveyouyen @littlefreya @dancingwendigo @onlyhenrys @achaoticaugust @thelastsock @the-soot-sprite @killjoy-assbutt-1112 @fishcustardandclintbarton and anyone else who wants to join!

17 Questions

Rules: Answer these 17 questions and then tag 17 people to do the same.

Tagged: @the-halo-of-my-memory (Thank you~ 👉😉👉💖)

1) Nickname(s): Jack

2) Height: 5' 4½"... The inclusion of the half-inch suggests some amount of height insecurity, I know, but—hear me out ☝️—what with my (maternal) great-grandfather and grandmother both being career carpenters, it’d probably curdle my blood to provide inaccurate measurements.

3) Amount of Sleep I Got: Just under 10 hours.

4) Lucky Number: 3 and/or 9

5) Zodiac: Taurus ♉

6) Aesthetic: Second-Generation Goth 💀🖤

7) What I'm Wearing: A blue floral print housecoat with white lace at the collar and cuffs. *mutters* And I’m already undermining my goth credentials, incredible... 😌 🌼

8) Dream Job: In this economy? Anything that’ll keep me financially solvent.

9) Favorite Author(s): Jane Austen, Arthur Conan Doyle, Zora Neale Hurston, F. Scott Fitzgerald

10) Song Stuck in My Head: Dua Saleh - mOth

11) Favorite Song: Peppino Gagliardi - Che Vuole Questa Musica Stasera

12) Favorite Instrument(s): Plucked string instruments. My (paternal) grandmother had a lap harp that she used to prop up her romance novels on the shelf and the looks I lavished on that thing likely outdid the ones exchanged between their pages.

13) Favorite Animal: Cats 🐈

14) Favorite Animal Noise: That trilling little chirp cats make when they greet you. 

15) Following: 1,205 tumblrs

16) Last Thing I Looked Up: "1/2 symbol"

17) Random: “You kiss me with your mouth wide open like you're not afraid of swallowing poison. I taste the good and bad in you and want them both. We call this bravery.” - Anita Ofokansi, Literary Sexts

Tagging: @therealmnemo @fandomn00blr @heartsyhawk @the-horae @jellydishes (But only if you'd like~ ✍️✨)

List your fave characters from 10 different fandoms and tag 10 people.

Tagged: @the-halo-of-my-memory (Thank you~ 👋😊)

1) Anders/Justice - Dragon Age 2

2) Elim Garak - Star Trek: Deep Space 9

3) Craig Boone - Fallout: New Vegas

4) Albert Rosenfield - Twin Peaks

5) Illya Kuryakin - The Man from U.N.C.L.E.

6) Hermann Gottlieb - Pacific Rim

7) Credence Barebone - Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them

8) Pike Dexter - Big Eden

9) Billie Lurk - Dishonored 2

10) Peeta Mellark - The Hunger Games

Tagging: @ratspit-village @astriaage @the-ever-chaos-collective @springacres @eluvinyan (But only if you’d like~ 📺📚 💖✨)

Tagged: @the-ever-chaos-collective (Thank you~ 😘👉 ❤️)

slow burn or love at first sight // fake dating or secret dating // enemies to lovers or best friends to lovers // oh no there’s only one bed or long-distance correspondence // hurt-comfort or amnesia // fantasy AU or modern AU // mutual pining or domestic bliss // smut or fluff // canon-compliant or fix-it// reincarnation or character death // one-shot or multi chapter // kid fic or road trip fic// arranged marriage or accidental marriage // high school romance or middle aged romance // time travel or isolated together // neighbours or roommates // sci-fi AU or magic AU // body swap or gender bend // angst or crack // apocalyptic or mundane

Tagging: @the-horae @host-of-chthon @pedlimwen @amervalk @springacres @nivjolteon (But only if you’d like~ 📚 📖✨)

You said for mutuals to tag you and it looked fun so @baronvonriktenstein

slow burn or love at first sight // fake dating or secret dating // enemies to lovers or best friends to lovers // oh no there’s only one bed or long-distance correspondence // hurt-comfort or amnesia // fantasy AU or modern AU // mutual pining(I write too much mutual pining) or domestic bliss // smut or fluff // canon-compliant or fix-it(like every mass effect fic ever)// reincarnation or character death // one-shot or multi chapter // kid fic or road trip fic// arranged marriage or accidental marriage // high school romance or middle aged romance // time travel or isolated together // neighbors(I actually wrote an au like that) roommates // sci-fi AU or magic AU // body swap or gender bend // angst or crack // apocalyptic or mundane

I’ll tag @crqstalite @confundere @the-ever-chaos-collective

Tagged: @the-ever-chaos-collective (Thank you~ 😌🙏✨)

1. Star Trek: The Original Series, 1966

2. Twin Peaks, 1991

3. Hannibal, 2013

4. Almost Human, 2014

5. Yuri!!! On Ice, 2016

Tagging: @simper-fi @maleficarum-regrets @brighteyesandwits @the-horae @eternion (But only if you’d like~ 📺❤️)

Got tagged by @the-good-queen-alysanne

List 5 TV shows that changed you and made you feel better, than tag 10 people. (do I even have that many followers?)

1. The Owl House

2. Hazbin Hotel

3. Helluva Boss

4. Game of Thrones (up to season 4 plus all Dany scenes)

5. Vikings

@no-starless-sky @ariana-blackoff-holmes

The ‘Asexy’ music video is now out! Well done to Queer Sounds for bringing this song to life, their team of editing monkeys for the great video and to everyone who participated!

IM LAUGHING SO HARD I DIDNT THINK SEXUAL DESIRE WAS A REAL THING LIKE I ALWAYS SAW PEOPLE TALKING ABOUT HOW THEY WANTED SEX BUT I THOUGHT THEY WERE JOKING OR EXAGGERATING OR SOMETHING THATS WHY IT WAS SO HARD FOR ME TO REALIZE I WAS ACE BECAUSE I THOUGHT IT WENT WITHOUT SAYING SEX ISNT THAT IMPORTANT IM 19 YEARS OLD I CANT STOP LAUGHING LITERALLY 99% OF THE POPULATION EXPERIENCES SEXUAL DESIRE AND I THOUGHT IT WAS A JOKE

tagged by @ipackmycase

rules: tag 10 followers you want to know better!

nickname: Jack

birthday: April 25th

star sign: Taurus ♉

gender: Cisgender female

height: 5′4 1/2

favorite color: Grey/Gray

time right now: 6:31 AM

average hours of sleep: 6-12 (approximate values only)

lucky number: 9

last thing I googled: Yankee. I wanted confirmation that it was a proper noun, capitalization and all, because where I came from it was more of a dirty word, haha. And who capitalizes those?

favorite fictional character: Mm, I'm really not inclined to make value judgments along the lines of "favorite" much, especially since tastes can change with the hours sometimes... for now, though, let's say it's Julian Bashir. (Don't click the link if you're not ready to clap eyes on some serious season five ST: DS9 spoilers.) There are multitudes in him, all beautiful.

favorite famous person: I'm more than passing fond of Dwayne "The Rock" Johnson these days.

favorite book: Dune

favorite band: EXID are topping my list at the moment – their MVs are a visual glut frame after frame and so conceptually clever, I can't get enough of them.

song stuck in my head right now: Stars are Stars - Echo and The Bunnymen

last movie I watched: The Best Offer

last tv show I watched: Hit & Miss

dream trip: Las Vegas, Nevada!ﾟ~*☆ But not for the usual casino-centered reasons - I'm thinking more along the lines of a sightseeing tour of as many nearby Fallout: New Vegas ingame locations as I could swing in one go, haha. Goodsprings, Nipton, Cottonwood Cove, Red Rock Canyon, The Old Mormon Fort, Searchlight... there are just gads of them to choose from.

dream job: Anything most efficiently done unpartnered, and back-end enough to preclude talking to clients or customers, that requires constant movement and physical exertion... oh, and that calls for NO MORE THAN FORTY HOURS A WEEK. Late/midnight/graveyard shift a plus.

I was tagged by @earlgreytea68

Countries I have lived in: 

The United States. I've never so much as been out of it. I live in Michigan and haven't even taken the drive to Canada.

Favorite fandom fandoms: 

Fallout, The Elder Scrolls, Star Trek, Star Wars, Sherlock Holmes (ACD to BBC to Elementary), Hannibal...

Languages I speak: 

*average American voice* English. Just English.

Favorite film of 2016: 

I’m not much for playing of-the-year favorites in general, but especially with four months left. I did see Star Trek Beyond in theaters three times, though; it soothed something wounded in my Trekkie heart.

Last article you read: 

"What to do when you're not the hero anymore" by Laurie Penny

Shuffle your library and put the first three songs here: 

Cherry Blossom - Lana Dey Rey, What You Won't Do for Love - Bobby Caldwell, How's This? - Hyuna

Last thing you bought online: 

A set of two acrylic tortoiseshell combs and the ten dollarest bottle of rose soliflore perfume I could find.

Any phobias or fears: 

As the not-at-all good Doctor said in Hannibal, "Children transport us to our childhood." For that reason, being around young children for any length of time is... wearing, for me, to put it lightly.

How would your friends describe you: 

"That's what I like about you, you're logical". "Jack's a sweetheart". "Delightful. Quiet, but delightful." "Bona fide."

How would your enemies describe you: 

Pretentious ("gives herself airs"), rude, argumentative, unreliable, dishonest.

Who would you take a bullet for: 

Oh, probably the usual suspects? Family, friends, my S.O. There's really no accurately predicting what you'll actually do in a situation like that, though, if I've learned anything about shock.

If you had money to spare, what you would buy first: 

The best damn eleventh anniversary gift I could lay my hands on.

Now tag 10 people you want to get to know better:

Witch Tip

The color gray can help reduce loneliness or sorrow. This is also a color for neutralizing or balancing energies.

Tagged by: @nicegoth Tagging:

Name: URL: carletoncolton Nicknames: Jack Birthday: April 25th Gender: Cisgender female Sexual orientation: Panromantic demisexual Height: 5' 4½" Favorite color: Grey Time and date at the moment: 7:44 AM 9/3/2016 Average hours of sleep: Oh, well... if I'm honest it ranges from around seven to thirteen. If you called me a laggard/layabout/loafer I'd have no grounds from which to argue the point. Last thing I Googled: This emoticon: ( ಥ‿ಥ) No comment. One place that makes me happy: Aji Ten. As my family's habitual choice of restaurant for birthday dinners and the like, practically every corner of it's overlaid with the easiest kind of memories, the ones that are all tea and conversation. That, and there's an autographed photo of George Takei underneath their television over which he's scrawled that their food is "galactically delicious". How many blankets I sleep under: Would you believe that I've been blogging in mild apprehension of someone posing this exact question since my first ask meme? And that I've never managed to handwave my way past the presentiment, however unlikely it seemed? Well... it's twenty-four, and I'd have more if I could. As many as I could buy, beg, borrow, filch, abscond with, or outright steal. Altogether they're literally too heavy to sit up under, so I have to lift up one edge of the stack and sort of slither out of bed every morning like a trapdoor spider. All I have to say for myself is that I moved to Michigan from southern Georgia and if I ever get used to the cold then I'm a Dutchman's uncle.

A Tag Thing

Tagged by: @sunderlorn

Rules: Tag 9 people you want to get to know better. Being that ass friend who may or may not return your messages or even see your tags half the time I can't in good conscience bring myself to ask anyone to write anything. *sweats*

Relationship status: Committed, monogamous, etc., for the last ten (and a half or so) years.

Wake-up time: I'm unemployed at the moment, and've been that often enough for the way my sleeping schedule abruptly ceases to exist every time it happens to be downright predictable. Between that and my tendency to oversleep, lately it's been any hour of the day from about 10 A.M. to 10 P.M. Yesterday it was 8:30 PM. On the bright side, my cat appreciates the opportunity to lie on top of me at novel hours.

Cats or dogs: Cats. It's embarrassing, but I've never been able to repress my disgust for the distinctive stench that just wafts off dogs - the way it lingers on your hands after touching them sends me sidling off to the nearest sink to scrub it away as soon as I politely can. And that's leaving their breath aside... which wouldn't be nearly as much of an issue if they all didn't insist on licking every accessible inch of exposed skin on your body. Why, dogs? Why.

Call or text: Text. I'm soft-spoken and have a bit of an accent, so all the cell distortion and crackling over the lines doesn't do me any favors.

Chapstick or lipstick: Chapstick or balm, tinted ideally. I want it to be lipstick, but I can't hack wearing it. It's harder than it looks. The last time I tried, I got it on my teeth at least three times, my hands, my face, my friend somehow, and worst of all in half an almost perfectly classic lip print on the meticulously wrapped Secret Santa gift I was holding (which caused me some anxiety over how it would be received, haha). 

Last song you listened to: Nothing's Gonna Hurt You, Baby - Cigarettes After Sex.

Tagging:

Shuffle Music Meme

You can tell a lot about someone by the music they listen to. Hit shuffle on your iPod/iPhone/iTunes/media player and write down the first 10 songs. Then pass this onto 10 people.

Tagged by: tu-surak (LLAP （ ･＿･）ｖ)

Tagging:

1. Lana Del Rey - The Other Woman

2. Yao Lee - Rose, Rose, I Love You

3. Gorillaz ft. Daley - Doncamatic (Lonsdale Boys Club Remix)

4. Chris Isaak - You Owe Me Some Kind of Love

5. FKA Twigs - How's That

6. Adore Delano - I Adore U

7. Massive Attack ft. Mos Def - I Against I

8. Strawberry Switchblade - Deep Water

9. James Darren - Sophisticated Lady

10. The Ink Spots - Don't Get Around Much Anymore

9 Questions Meme

I was tagged by wentworthsbitch.

1.What’s your name?

Jack!

2. What’s your URL?

carletoncolton

3. What’s your blog’s name?

I Know

4. Have a crush?

Uhm, in a way - on my BFF. Although, since my feelings in that direction are wholly platonic, it's probably more like a squish. ( ˘ ³˘) ♡ Casandra ❤

5. What’s your favorite color?

I can't choose, really. But black, red, and gold are always at the top of my list.

6. WRITE SOMETHING IN ALL CAPS:

PLEASE HIRE ME. ANYONE. PLEASE. *hurls an armful of cover letters and résumés into the wind*

7. Got a favorite band/singer?

Mm-hm, and it's Damon Albarn. I don't have to look for something to love in anything he does; it just presents itself all matter-of-factly. Blur, Gorillaz, his solo work, his operas, his film soundtracks... Hell, I even like the murmuring, circuitous way he talks.

8. Favorite number?

17, 27, 9... one of those.

9. Favorite drink?

I've been irrevocably seduced by coffee, I think, over the last few months. *gazes moodily into Star Trek mug*

Tag 10 other people:

Nine times out of ten I'd make my excuses when it comes to tagging, but ... this once, I figure I'll take my chances. So. Ten random followers I've never talked to, and wouldn't mind hearing a little bit about:

betteralwaysearly

ipackmycase

wristnipples

assassinofromeaor

endeavourmorsecod3

double-zero-agent-alison

hippiefreak23

lisaraiqiu

gnarlystarships

wanderingmind13

11 Questions Meme

I was tagged by wentworthsbitch. ♥ ♡ ❤ (Third time’s the charm? A.K.A. carletoncolton reattempts the 11 Questions Meme.)

rule 1: always post the rules rule 2: answer the questions from the person who tagged you rule 3: tag 10 people and link them in your post rule 4: let them know you’ve tagged them

1. If you could be killed by any celebrity, who would it be and how would they do it? (yes they have to kill you shutup)

This one had me laughing facedown on my desk and then lying there drawing blank after blank for half the morning. Then I decided to approach this question logically and started researching celebrities with documented weapons training. After all, if I have to be murdered …

Right. So, after considering several likely candidates (Don’t read into my search history, NSA!), I settled on Lucy Liu. As a former student of kali-eskrima-silat, a traditional Filipino weapon-based system of martial arts emphasizing the use of blades, among other things, I’m confident she could have me crumpled in a pool of my own lifeblood before I could start running. And that’s really all that matters, right?

2. Whose face would you like to see on your currency besides the current old person that’s most likely on it?

Considering that only a scant few actual, non-allegorical, flesh and blood women have ever been printed/minted on US currency in all our history (and only Martha Washington on paper) … that would be a useful starting point for looking. I’d like to see Harriet Tubman on a bill, myself. Because disturbingly, but perhaps unsurprisingly, there hasn’t ever been a portrait of an African American featured on US paper money either. 3. If you were ever in London, where is the first place you’d wanna go?

I know absolutely nothing about London, really - not more than your average American does, anyhow. (Which, again, is basically nothing.) But if I know me, and do I ever, I’d make straight for the nearest decent-looking restaurant. 4. It’s 1am and you unexpectedly get kicked out. If money wasn’t a problem, what hotel would you stay at?

If money wasn’t an issue, I wouldn’t stay at a hotel - not here, anyway. I live in a small town in Michigan, so all we’ve got are a few chain hotels clustered together around our exit to US94. Red Roof Inn, that sort of thing. 5. What is your favorite post on tumblr of all times?

… Ummmmm.

6. You HAVE to pick ONE president to sleep with. You HAVE to. Who would you choose? (idc if youre not american answer it)

Ahaha … well. I’m demisexual, actually, so as far as the whole casual sex bit goes, I’ll pass. Every time. Even if I were to find myself in the (enviable?) position of being propositioned by a US president. If I just had to sleep with a president, though?

Another Google search I never thought I’d be making later …

James Buchanan. As the only US president to remain a lifelong bachelor, owing to either his heartbreak over a fiance’s untimely death and subsequent choice to remain celibate, or his possible asexuality or homosexuality (the strongest case can be made for the latter), he’s really the only one I’d feel even marginally safe in bed with. Best case scenario: heartwarming homo/demi sleepover complete with all the late-night philosophizing and snacking that comes with the territory. *stubbornly ignores his politics for the duration of this questionnaire* 7. Who’s your favorite character dressed in leather?

Zoë Alleyne Washburne! 8. Are you a mouthwash user?

Yes - it’s the least tedious part of the entire process, as far as I’m concerned. 9. When was the last time you went to a party? What was it for?

This is a little embarrassing (I’m a professional party avoider - depressingly, I’ve been to more funerals than parties this year), but it was my own birthday party in April. 10. A crack ship that is literally so crack you don’t even know why you ship it you just do?

I kinda wanna see Peter Jakes kiss Endeavour Morse and NO ID ON”T WNAT to talk about it. Ahem. 11. Do you find BENEDICT CUMBERBATCH ATTRACTIVE? I’M OFF AND ON ALL THE TIME, BUT I NEED TO KNOW GODDAMMIT. WHAT DO YOU THINK?

I do! Aesthetically. Though the first time I saw him, as Sherlock, I found the sort of skull-like aspect of his face … disquieting. I’m sure it has more to do with the dramatic way the production staff choose to light him for the first half-hour or so than the way he looks in life, but there was such an otherworldly, corpselike aura about him that I was genuinely worried about his health. Heh. （．＿．;)

…. according to this page on infj.org

value personal integrity and “being true to yourself”

are on a lifelong search for a unique identity and meaning; spirituality is important to us

can be hard to get to know, depending on the other person (reciprocity)

are...

Out of curiosity, could you take a moment to reblog this if you believe that demisexuality exists? I’m demisexual, and I feel like demisexuality goes really under the radar, even within the asexual community umbrella. A lot of people don’t believe that it exists, and even within the ace community, demisexuality is still questioned as being legitimate, although we share the same flag. So reblog this is if you believe it exists. 

10 Questions Meme

I was tagged by unluckyycat. (And I'm terribly flattered. Thank you!)

rule 1: always post the rules rule 2: answer the questions from the person who tagged you rule 3: tag 10 people and link them in your post rule 4: let them know you’ve tagged them

1. What names did you like growing up that you wish you could have changed yours to?

Ahah, well. As a child I didn't covet other people's names so much as furtively dislike my own. Still, when I was very little my mother found me out and decided the best course of action was to rechristen me "Stinky Mud" and only call me that until I admitted that my birth name wasn't so bad after all... Anyway, once I was twelve and could brave the possibility of it  happening again (it didn't) I've been going by Jack.

2. What’s your favourite shirt look like?

Mind if I give you the top two? I'm torn between them. (It feels like there's some kind of awful fabric pun in there somewhere, but I'll spare us - this time.)

3. How do you take your hot beverage of choice?

Coffee. That's my choice hot beverage, and I take it with sweetened condensed milk and a touch of vanilla. That, or with two sugar cubes and a splash of cream. 4. Any scars with cool stories you’d care to share?

Oh, there are a few - I'm prone to minor accidents. Lately my favorites are these, though:

That's what happens when you carelessly scrape chopped vegetables from your cutting board into a skillet full of overheated oil. In uprolled sleeves. 

5. What’s the best bad decision you’ve ever made?

This one's been boggling my mind since I first read it through, and I think it's because I ultimately can't regard a decision as having been a bad one if it produced a good result. But I've got it now:

One morning on the bus to my high school I was pressed against the window listening to Joy Division on my CD player, when I heard a voice I didn't recognize cutting through the music. Worse, no matter how high I turned the volume, or how hard I crushed the earphones up against my ears, I couldn't come close to drowning her out. Usually, this early, everyone on the bus was half-asleep - but I could hear every word out of this girl's mouth with infuriating clarity. By the time we hit the schoolyard I was livid. So when I noticed my friend Ringo kicking his heels outside around the back of the bus I marched myself right up to the toes of his boots and launched into a tirade, complete with a mocking imitation of what I considered to be one of the more ridiculous parts of her overheard conversation - something to do with her boyfriend incorrectly registering on her caller ID as "Robert Smith", and it being fate because she was such a fan of The Cure. I think I was positively snorting with derision at this point. (As you might have gathered by now, sophomore carletoncolton was a bit of an ass.) And that's when Ringo cut in, "That's my girlfriend".

Haha... honestly, I don't remember how I didn't faint after that what with all the blood draining out of my face. The upshot of it all is, that when Ringo told the girlfriend in question what I'd said she only laughed. We're BFFLs now. 6. Do you remember most of your dreams when you wake up?

For the most part, no, I don't - unless they're either so mundane that I worry for the health of my imagination, or so strange that I'm convinced someone else must've dreamed them.

Example of the former: I have a recurring dream where all that happens is that I wake up in my S.O.'s house, don a pair of my politer, more presentable pajamas, and sit down to a meal at the counter bar or the dining room table. I eat it alone, in silence, with an especially small fork, and then pack my dishes away in the dishwasher when I've finished. That's it, really. I have noticed, though, that if it's after dark in the dream then everyone else is asleep, the cat included, the windows closed and all the blinds shuttered, with only the light over the kitchen sink on. And if it's light out, then all the windows and doors are open, the sun is scorching and almost too bright, and the house is empty. Excepting me and the cat, of course.

Example of the latter: About a week ago I had an unsettlingly detailed dream in which my seventeen-year-old brother, a very technical person with an eye for coding and computer hardware assembly, helped me into a full military-grade black stealth camouflage suit complete with mask and night-vision goggles. Think Splinter Cell, Metal Gear, that sort of thing. He handled all the closures and straps on the back of the suit and I the ones in front. It was dark outside, and we were standing in my old bedroom at my great-grandfather's house as it looked before I moved in - unfurnished, with pastel pink and blue wallpaper. We were crowded near the small open widow; the neighbor's security spotlight, bolted over their garage door, filtered through the chain link fence and gave the whole scene a harsh yellow quality. My brother and I didn't speak, but stared unblinkingly at each other, faces neutral. Our entire family has nearly identical dark brown eyes and I remember being uncomfortably aware of the similarity just then. The whole thing had a hushed, anticipatory quality about it... but the oddest part was that we both knew we were doing this so I could sneak through the window and pick blackberries from the field across the street before the sun came up. In the (real) morning I rolled out of bed bewildered and craving them. 7. What are you hoping happens this week for you?

It'd be everything if I got a response out of any, really any, of the job applications I've sent out recently. Or ever. 8. What’s the biggest, most exciting travel destination of your dreams?

My family has never been more than a lost paycheck or two away from eviction, between evictions, so we haven't ever traveled other than to visit relatives - and that was with help. I've been resigned to things remaining the same way for me all my life for years now. So... I haven't got one. Still, I would like to go back to southern Georgia someday. To visit. I can't say that I enjoyed living there; as a mixed-race asexual atheist it could be distinctly unpleasant, even if only the first and last of those descriptors were obvious to the people around me. The place itself, though... sometimes I have dreams about kneeling outside in the knee-high grass at night, curling my fingers into the red soil, or lying on my roof in the summer until the searing heat of the sun overhead permeates my body to the bone and I see the veins illuminated in my closed eyelids. I'm always cold on some level, in Michigan. 9. How many songs are on your MP3 player of choice? Do you listen to them all?

I could tell you exactly if I hadn't lost it like the bumbler I am, haha. My YouTube favorites playlist, though, has one hundred and sixty-five songs on it, all of which I do listen to. Add my other, artist-specific lists (Lana Del Rey, Blur, Gorillaz, Damon Albarn, Massive Attack, etc.), and that number goes up to three hundred and nine. Less than I'd have thought, actually. 10. Any tattoos? Any plans for more/your first one?

No, and no. Well. There aren't any concrete plans.

Aaaaand done! *pats brow* Whew. Call me a poor sport, but this time 'round I won't be writing any new questions or tagging anyone - the way I write, if I ever wanted to get this thing posted sacrifices had to be made. (;¬_¬) That, and I've already tagged just about everyone I think'd tolerate me asking once before.

INFJ personality type traits:

"SEES SELF: as a deep-thinker in love with new ideas and insights, but somewhat detached from others.

OVERRIDING NEED: to understand the complexity of people and life.

IRRITATED BY: hypocrisy, limits on personal freedom, impersonal details and mundane tasks.

STRENGTHS: provides future-oriented insights that inspire others, follows through on commitments with integrity and consistency.

SEEN BY OTHERS: as somebody who is creative, insightful, stubborn, and hard to get to know.

DECIDES through private pondering, may make up mind too quickly and then worry endlessly.

IRRITATES OTHERS: by neglecting details, getting over-emotional, going off at unrealistic tangents, using overly complex language.

CHALLENGES: may take criticism personally, blurt out feelings unwisely, withdraw socially for long periods, succumb to addictive disorders."

- http://www.cohabmonkey.com/mbti/profile/infj#sthash.PobhM7N5.dpuf (via deepspacequeer)

carletoncolton - Handwriting Meme

(Tagged by mmedemertuil. Kinda sorta. *shuffles feet*)

Your name:

Your url/handle:

Your blog title:

Your favorite color:

Your crush/significant other’s name: (Robert's the S.O., Casandra the platonic crush.)

CAPSLOCK SOMETHING.

Your favorite band:

Your lucky/favorite number:

Your favorite drink:

Tag your buddies. (If I could rightfully say I had any here, I might. But if you're reading this and feel inclined to take it up, well ... let's just say I did.)

YOU! ONCE YOU GET THIS, YOU HAVE TO SAY FIVE NICE THINGS ABOUT YOURSELF AND SEND IT TO TEN OF YOUR FAVOURITE FOLLOWERS

So, needlesslycryptic and sunderlorn both dropped this one in my inbox—I’m in the polarizing position of being both unspeakably (DOES THIS MEAN THAT I’M A *FAVORITE*?!) flattered and put out that now I’ve got to run my truant self-regard to ground and put it to work. Thank you both. <3

1. At any paid job, I’m uncommonly diligent. I arrive at the timeclock every day just in time to absently stare through it for two minutes, swipe my card with more force than is strictly necessary, and then I’m in. I work singlemindedly every second of my shift, with efficiency, speed, and focus as my watchwords. When I walk I keep my eyes forward, hands clasped behind my back, and never stop to socialize or chatter. When customers or coworkers come to confer with me or ask a question, I don’t stop working to answer. I do both at once. So, um… I’m not well-liked, but my results are. Hooray?

2. I never gossip, spill secrets, or kiss and tell.

3. If you and I ever eat together, I’ll always eat more—so, your powers of restraint will look greater by comparison.

4. The way I ramble in writing you’d probably never guess this, but I have a talent for silence. Like, I can honestly go weeks without saying a word. Comfortably.

5. I’m… not too shabby a gifter, if I do say so myself. In all seriousness, I tend to devote weeks or months before a holiday to obsessively trawling through my memories for every tiny instance in which my prospective giftee has expressed even the most offhand desire, going years back if necessary, until I light on the thing. And I live my life listening for those moments, mentally tucking them away to be brought out again as needed. It’s worth it to me, too—every time my mother, for example, finally breaks through my very deliberately selected giftwrap and tears up when she sees what’s inside, my skull just echoes with vindicated maniacal mental laughter.

11 Questions Meme

I was tagged by startrekmania. (Oh God, I've never been before and I'm all flustered about it.) It's a question game! Here are the rules: Answer the questions. Write 11 new questions. Tag 11 people. Let them know they’ve been tagged and…GO!

1. STAR TREK???

I'll take one in every color. *expectantly folds hands together* I’m a new Trekkie, just sat down to my first TOS episode earlier this year in fact, but I've fallen hard and I'm so far gone. Like, picking out my Starfleet uniform pajamas gone. I intend to see all of it, though, in order of publication.

2. Pick your favorite character from your favorite book, movie, or TV series and explain why! No, it does not have to be Star Trek.

Mm, well. Choosing absolute favorites isn't exactly my thing - no one and nothing ever occupies those spaces for long, alone at least. It's a temporary position, we'll put it that way. But! For Star Trek, it's always been Spock. AOS, TOS, every possible iteration; all his imperfections, his irrationalities, his mistakes, and the other sides of those coins. I just flat-out love him.

3. What stereotype would you stereotype yourself as?

Hm. If we go all TVTropes here, The Quiet One? Either that, or Defrosting Ice Queen with a generous shot of Hates Small Talk.

4. What is/was your favorite/best subject in school?

Thankfully I'm well and truly out of it now, but it was English. I was one of those insufferable advanced track underachievers it came naturally to. I had just enough raw talent to maintain and even sometimes surpass the expected level of performance in my classes without much effort - sat through a few awkward heart-to hearts with teachers who thought that with further application I could have a future as an author, in fact - but I was honestly never more miserable than when I was writing. And that still holds true. So it was my best, yes, but never my favorite.

5. What’s your dream job?

This is unimpressive. But anything that totals around thirty hours a week, is done solitarily, requires constant physical exertion, and is never taken home after hours suits me. Extra points for low stakes and midnight shifts. You know, office cleaning, overnight retail ... I'm not ambitious, and I don't dream above what I consider my desserts.

6. How has your blog transformed from when you first created it?

When I first joined up just over a year ago I had no intention of running a blog of my own - my account was strictly a way to keep tabs on the artists, writers, and other fandom creatives whose work I wanted to follow. Even so, I was terribly self-conscious about everything tumblr at first;  I didn't even click like on all of the posts I genuinely liked for fear of drawing attention to myself. It took a few months for me to brave interacting with other users (my first foray into that venture was my entry for the I'm the Real Project), and a few more to start posting anything of my own. I'm still not what you would call an active poster, but now there's at least a bit to see on my page. Check out my art tag, if you want?

7. Android, iPhone, oldPhone, WindowsPhone, BlackBeret (Blackberry), or other?

iPhone. My S.O. received one as a gift from his father, and before you could say "hailing frequencies open" I had it nestled between an off-brand screen protector and a Spock-themed hard case, bursting with bookmarks and notes on fic reccs. It's more of a portable slash fiction library than a communication device, really, as far as I'm concerned.

8. xBox, PlayStation, PC, Wii, or other?

xBox, PlayStation, and PC! I've got a first-gen box and a 360, as well as a PS1 and 2. Besides that, I've got a NES, SNES, N64, Gamecube, GameBoy, GBA, DS, DSiXL, 2DS, Genesis, Saturn, and Dreamcast. I ... might have a bit of a habit.

9. What career would you have in Starfleet and why?

I'd be stunned more than anyone if I managed to snag a berth in Starfleet of all places, but knowing me it'd have to be something maintainence-related; haven't got the education or experience for anything else. I'd be the one scrubbing down the corridors, polishing the bulkheads, sanitizing the replicators. Unglamorous, maybe - but I don't live my life at work.

10. More specifically, what would you love to do in Starfleet and why?

I'm kinda delighted that there's a distinction made between what you'd actually do and what you'd love to, haha - refreshing. Call me crazy, but if I could choose I think I'd be proud to don a redshirt and do my level best to protect and serve my fellow crewmen phaser in hand, even if it would very likely mean my death. I've always been a crack shot, oddly enough, and I've got a decent danger sense. Call it intuition? Frankly, having the opportunity to bend any skill I have to service other than my willingness to singlemindedly work where other people just won't for once (if you can call that a skill) ... would be interesting.

11. What’s your biggest fear?

This questionnaire doesn't pussyfoot around, does it? *shuffles feet* I'll come out and say it, though; the thing I'm most afraid of is losing my significant other to death. It terrifies me so much to think about that I can barely bring myself to type it out - we've been together eight years and understand each other so well, leaving even the love aside - that I can't help but believe I'll never find anything to rival it again. I'd unironically call the man my t'hy'la ... so, um. Yeah. I'll play myself out.

Oh, but my questions!

1. List your top three vices. 2. Now, your top three virtues. 3. Any personal quirks you're fond of? 4. What was the last thing you were really surprised by? 5. Lay out your favorite outfit, and tell us why it's your favorite. 6. And your favorite meal? Take us all around the plate. (Bonus: give recipes.) 7. What was the first thing you can remember being a fan of, i.e. your first fandom? 8. Is there anything you've always wanted, but would be embarrassed to actually own? 9. Can you recite anything from memory, like a poem, or a passage from a script or book? 10. Would you rather be caught in a lie, or realize that someone's been dishonest with you? 11. If you had to choose between a new television adaption, movie, or novelization of your favorite story, which would you go with?

As for my tags, because I'd love to see their answers, I'll go with: sionid, sunderlorn, wiggleofjudas, needlesslycryptic, trashhqueen, and maketreknotwar. Hope you don't mind, tag-ees!

But I confess I don't actually have enough tumblr acquaintances to completely fulfill the last bit of this meme. So if you're seeing this and would like to make a go of it, consider yourself tagged by me!

Reblog with your personality types bolded, for your own reference, or for your followers to get to know you better! Add some others if you know any (such as Hogwarts houses: not a typical personality test, but they give other people insight into what you’re like!). Ones with free online tests are linked.

Name: C.J.H.

Zodiac: Aries, Taurus, Gemini, Cancer, Leo, Virgo, Libra, Scorpio, Sagittarius, Capricorn, Aquarius, Pisces

Myers-Briggs [x]: ISTJ, ISFJ, INFJ, INTJ, ISTP, ISFP, INFP, INTP, ESTP, ESFP, ENFP, ENFJ, ESFJ, ESTJ, ESFJ, ENFJ, ENTJ.

The Four Temperaments [x]: Melancholic, Phlegmatic, Choleric, Sanguine 

Enneagram [x]: Type 1, Type 2, Type 3, Type 4, Type 5, Type 6, Type 7, Type 8, Type 9.

Hogwarts House [x, but Pottermore is better]: Hufflepuff, Gryffindor, Slytherin, Ravenclaw

Get to know me! Personality Types

Reblog if you're a Star Trek fan (any and all series and movies) and you're female.

I want to see how many of us there are. :)