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Don’t feel
Don’t show just so you can eat at least one more free meal
In your case
I must keep a strong unmoving poker face
You think that it’s rude for me not to answer
Tell me to get depressed for someone because of their lung cancer
Instead I think they need some cheer
And encouragement for them to face their fears
I don’t tell you how I feel
Because you would tell me it’s not normal and what I'm feeling is unreal
That I made it all up in my head
I'm crazy is what your body language said
When I do answer you, you tell me to stop talking back
And tell me that manners are what I sadly lack
You tell me you don’t like my tone
I would never tell you how much I want to puke at the smell of your cologne
Maybe my tone is bad but it’s not as bad as your writing font
You like to remind me that the troubles I have ahead of me are something to daunt
If I admit that something hurts then I get called a baby
You’d think that I was too much of a wuss to join the navy
Tell me I'm tough but act like I'm the weakest of the weak
I'm not brave enough to find help to seek
“No one’s going to get hurt here”
I could! You would tell certain people is my fear
I wouldn’t trust you even If you promised, you could so very easily go behind my back
Oldness is what I lack
When you ever did know how I felt
You’d lecture me on how stupid I am for feeling it, then hit me hard with an imaginary belt
Because of that I would prefer to keep you in the dark
I might not be able to live through another mark
I just can’t have you know
If you ever found out, I’ll get buried in icy sharp, wet snow
But no matter how numb I am, I still feel
All my feelings are strong and real!