I Hate People - Blog Posts

Okay so chat, i have this girl who's really nice to be at my class, we sitting together, we talk together, we just vibe together. Ykwim. But i can't stand it, she just points out my every flaw and it just makes me tweak. "Um your makeup is cakey" "you have a pimple there" "you have dandruff???" like, I KNOW!!!! ik she might be trying to make me aware or something. However this just makes me feel so self-conscious, i cried today because of this. Like, let me feel pretty for once bro. I know i look like skinless rat. And i can't even bring myself to be mad at her because she literally comforted me today because i cried my ass off at the class, pookie even gets me stuff from cafeteria. She's a good friend but the way she points out my every flaw just makes me want to break down yk ⁉️

Guys I just found out that some of the scenes of Stranger Things were filmed at a concentration camp- and the fact that the lab children have the number tattoos- I-

What the actual fuck 😀

I thought the Duffers COULDNT get any worse but here we are 😭

I'm at my friends play, waiting for it to start, AND A RANDOM MAN SAT IN THE SEAT RIGHT NEXT TO ME EWWW GO AWAY

As an INTP. It's really hard to exist in a world that feels so integrated for sensors or people with high Fi/Fe. I just feel like an alien among my peers. I don't speak in class. I don't have many friends. I hate my incompetent and overly strict teachers. I don't get social cues and dynamics. I don't get inside jokes. I don't get why I have to know the stuff they teach me. I don't think I should trust my teenage mind to pick a career for the rest of the life. Everything seems bleak and boring.

It sucksss when you are not good at maths and physics and all that nonsense that people care for. It hurts when you don't get to be appreciated for your talents beacuse people don't care about the things you are good at. Especially being an INTP, it's hard to ignore that most of other INTPs are known for being the math and computer nerd (not a huge fan of computer either).

I want to read poetry and dissect 19th cen. novels and their themes. I want to debate on philosophy and politics. I want to write essays and articles on global issues. I want to read books by authors all around the world.

It took me some time to realise (not really, I always knew) that I was made not for the STEM subjects. I was made for the art, the history, the love for literature. As John Keating said in dead poet's society;

"We don't read and write poetry because it's cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion. And medicine, law, business, engineering, these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life. But poetry, beauty, romance, love, these are what we stay alive for"

people after touching me in a flirting way after I explicity told them to fucking stop, knowing that it makes me extremely uncomfortable

What?? Why??? That would just be bad for everyone involved!!

I just saw your post replying to an ask about Thrussy and I have zero context as to what Thrussy is.

But

T H R U S S Y

Thrussy(noun): antis throat wound, but in a sexy way

I don't care if you don't ship Drarry, Dramione, Deamus, Wolfstar, Linny, etc I really don't.

But if you go on the post about Drarry and comment "eeew", "I was going to like but then it was Drarry" I'm thinking that you were raised by Lucius Malfoy because the only person that though their opinion was so important that everyone want it to hear it was Draco Malfoy.

Like seriously, what do people gain by commenting shitty things about the things that other people loves? Do you not see me trying to make this post about this thing™ so it's a safe place for people who likes this thing™? Shut up and go to the hate hashtags were your opinion matters.

Like saying that "Ginny Weasley is straight wtf💀" in a post about Linny just makes everyone uncomfortable, it doesn't make anyone to stop liking them, just makes them feel scared or defensive when they're about to post about them.

For not to mention the people who sends death threats to someone because they like Dramione because they are "romanticizing abusive relationships", as if by shipping them they encouraged people to be abusive with their partners. Literally makes me so mad, I miss the fandom before Dracotok era so fucking much.

Just stop like if I said "Remus never knew how to cook properly, but Sirius felt as free in the kitchen as if he never was a prisoner" is for people to comment "yes, but breakfast and tea were all made by Remus, I just can't imagine Sirius getting snacks, like Remus just would put them on his hand" not for you to go "lmaooo💀 Blackinon supremacy 🛐🛐" who made you feel as important? Why do you wanna comment that? It's your life so boring that you feel the need to comment passive agressive things? I can't imagine someone being like "Yeah, I feel great after pointing that out, now everyone would stop liking this".

Yes, I was very mad.

Yes, I love spitting facts

I hate people.

I feel like you drained my energy. I was so delusional that I blurred out all the other important moments of my life just so you could stay in focus. I refused to do anything other than memorise your name. I read the foriegn language which your eyes wrote for me. I cherished your touch like it made me feel like gold. I gave you too much importance. And that was the path I was laying for my own destruction.

Mom: don't you want to use some of this perfume that you got for your birthday

What I think: no I don't want to use that perfume because it is too sweet and it doesn't match the image I am trying to form as a defense mechanism so I can control how people perceive me and predict the type of people that will judge me and how they will do it so I can emotionally prepare for it and reduce the damage

What I say:noo mom it doesn't match my vibe!

Can i finally post pictures ??????

Edit:YES I CAN POST!!