anxiousautistic74
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Lost 18 lbs in a month! Restrictions more.
I will be size 2 again I!
Happy Caturday
I think that it's really important for people to realize that being disabled is traumatic. genuinely. your body and brain feel like they are breaking down and wrong. you are in constant heavy stress from stuff like chronic pain. most disabled people i know have a somewhat regular emotional break down from the trauma of it all. and we are expected to just smile through it by society, to not be in the way, to not be an issue.
Love of my life died, unknown reason, hit me like a train. Absolutely no appetite but no will work out.
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Shrink added more meds, let's see if it helps. I'm doing great dieting so far, dreading Thursday though.
Trying desperately to lose weight! I miss being skinny so much I meltdown. I'm tired of wearing such a big size, I miss wearing my size 2 clothes. It has me so depressed.
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Depression has swaddled me, it's the perfect time for my "dear friend " to be judgemental and essentially told me to shut up about my autism. Oh I will shut up alright....
Adjusting to more roommates, a different house, oh and Sunday there is going to be 40 so people in the house. . . fingers crossed.
"Ghosts don't haunt us. That's not how it works. They're present among us because we won't let go of them. "I don't believe in ghosts," I said, faintly. "Some people can't see the color red. That doesn't mean it isn't there," she replied."
-Sue Grafton
Packing to move is really set my anxiety off. Watch the nervous autistic be necrotic about packing for a limited time
Neurodivergent culture is getting really irritated when people add on to your posts with their own thoughts if those thoughts aren't exactly in line with what yours are.
It's also getting annoyed when people add onto your vent posts with positivity. like. no. just let me be depressed in peace lol.
The past week has been a busy nightmare full of doctors appointments and drama. Still have to get a X-ray tomorrow so another day of bus trips. Seriously want to move to a cottage in the woods and grow things . Unfortunately I'm either going to meltdown or shutdown . What a time to be alive.🙄
Well, I spent most of yesterday out and about, getting a ultrasound ( not for that), and running errands. It was more like bus all over town,so even more social contact. Basically, I super masked all day then came home and crashed for a bit. Guess what...more today!🤗
Watch "Autistic Paradoxes #momonthespectrum" on YouTube
I feel called out.
Waiting for my daughter's recital to start. Seriously people, people stop getting inside of my bubble and touching me! Glad I wore my Munchable necklace, the only thing that kept me from having a meltdown. My daughter is rocking these 90's songs. Seeing my baby girl is always worth the risk.
My melancholy has turned into Dispair. And my lovely PTSD is keeping me on high alert. As for my anxiety, worse. Especially when they run test after test and still observe me, no clue what's wrong with me. Good news is my anxiety is barely in control. Seems wherever I go people are yelling and items being thrown about, um, guys, this is supposed be my sanctuary, peace, safety. Well not now, it's yelling and stomping, fighting and of course, alcohol. My overnight at dad's, my getaway, decompress. Nope, they were fighting. I desperately need my space.
Twice this week my neurologist has canceled appointments. Almost had a meltdown right there in the waiting room..they could at least tell me before I got there! I take the bus, so I lost 4$ in bus fare. Needless to say it upsets me and my schedule. I didn't meltdown, way to go me!
Not sure which is most abhorrent!
Having bad ticks and problems talking
Or
Going to see a doctor that has a rotten bedside manner,to put it mildly.
Hopefully I don't meltdown..
I wish certain people would stop judging my parenting. I'm already on the edge of the cliff without my so called "friend"telling me I'm a horrible mother (not in those words but). I will let him do the parenting. She can do whatever, let him see what a brat.
My earbuds died before I even got on the bus today, can you say "High Anxiety"! It's overwhelming without music. I made it home without a meltdown or panic attack, woohoo! I am so glad I carry a card stating what is going on with me and how I react to show people if I crack. Off to buy more earbuds!
Absolutely exhausted from dealing with people. I will hide for a bit.
Survived another Yule, ran through my prescription of lorazepam and was
Put on a new antidepressant and antidepressant booster but I survived...
Idiot autistic girl with, anxiety and PTSD, thought it was possible to go to Walmart and grab a few things quickly. She learns a valuable lesson; shopping the day after Christmas will bring on a meltdown.🙄😶🌫️
Breath in, fly high! The worst of it is over.😶🌫️