Auggieoof - August (he/him/it)

More Pizza Tower doodles because I have more free time now before I graduate haha.

It's so weird to me that Trans men and trans mascs are expected to be "better than cis men", because we lived (or still have to live) as women.

Like, JK Rowling is an awful person who is a woman. Both Nicki Minaj and Colleen Hoover defend their rapist family members . I shouldn't expect either of these people to be good people based off their gender and lived experiences because they are people and they're just as capable of being awful like everyone else. Terfs aren't suddenly devoid of being victims of misogyny when they spew terf shit.

So tell me why, trans men and mascs are held to this standard? Why must we do our best to be perfect little ken dolls while the rest of you get to be people?

You can argue this about us being demonized too but Im not gonna go into that today.

welcome reddit refugees

Same tbh!!

words cant describe how i feel about this image. i saved this last year and i keep thinking about it idk man it's doing things to me

also this pretty accurately represents my transition and i dont know if i should be proud or disappointed

I'm autistic, mentally ill and take SSRI's. I may be fucked I fear.

I hate RFK with my whole soul, and my grandparents still love the guy and the rest of trump's goons.

Hmmm. I wake up to hear RFK suggesting we ban all SSRI mental health medications and send the mentally ill, autistic, asthmatic, and obese people to government run “Wellness Camps” for 3-4 years each.

Huh…. So he wants to “concentrate” the population of sick people in camps where they will work in the outdoors.

Because that fixes autism? All because he believes, with no scientific basis, that these conditions are caused by vaccines. Since President Musk says he has autism I wonder if he will be in a camp, too?

How long will it take to come up with a final solution to that problem…

oh hey lmao since we're at the starting stages of a trans genocide in the US, I wanna remind everyone that they will try to erase this. They will try to rewrite history so that this never happened, or everyone was on our side in the beginning, or whatever makes them look better. They're already trying to re-write history and erase us from the start, with bills that make it illegal to teach queerness in classrooms. We cannot let this happen. We cannot let them erase our history.

We're lucky we live in the age of the Internet where nothing is truly erased. We gotta use this to our advantage.

Be loud. Be angry. Do not let them erase us.

What the fuck is wrong with people. Personally I believe this is how those transmed trans guys are made; by excluding them because they are men. Not excusing them, I'm just saying this is how they are formed.

Sometimes I worry about going down that path, but I have a firm belief in "do whatever you want forever." I am staunchly anti transmed; it just excludes people and is kinda dumb in ways I don't have time to get into.

I hope to pass as a man, I just want to be some guy basically. I plan on getting top and bottom surgery, and going on T probably for the rest of my life. But I refuse to become either a transmed or a person who excludes trans men who pass really well.

Sorry this was really a ramble, hope I made sense. OP i hope you're doing alright today.

tried to vent in a trans space about how, as a trans man who’s been on T for a long time (over 7 years now), i have noticed that the more i pass as a man, the less welcomed i am in queer spaces unless i go out of my way to feminize myself. and how that sucks! and it’s isolating!!! and it feels horrible to see ppl who used to like you and be close to you drift further and further the more masculine (& therefore more comfortable in urself) u become…

only to get ppl replying to me and saying “well if you dressed more fem then ppl wouldn’t be intimidated by you. you signed up for this”

i’m sorry but i didnt sign up for social isolation when i transitioned, i signed up for gender euphoria and comfort in myself and my life. and i had hoped that the ppl in my life would be able to see how much joy that brings me and continue to love me.

Hello again

Am 19 now, not on T yet (unfortunately!!)

Tw family stuff, dysphoria, sui ig

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Diary entry #6

My mood switched up so fast it's not even funny. Like 1 1/2 hours ago I was perfectly fine but now my grandma yelled at my sister and now I am doing awful. The funny part? I don't even 100% know what they were arguing about or even if they did argue for as long as I think they did, because I was listening to Dance Of Life by Maretu for as long as I could to avoid it.

She snapped at me too, even though it wasn't that bad it won't stop replaying in my head. She acts just like one of those bitchy high school girls, eye rolling and all and it fucking pisses me off. I should be grateful but I'm not because they (my grandpa and grandma) refuse to let me on T or- god forbid- even cut my hair. I can't even dress somewhat masculine because I look like a (d slur). Like 98% of the time they're okay to good, but those 2% moments make me wish I weren't alive.

I just want to be out of the house already. I don't know how much longer I can hold on. I can't live like this. I just can't. I don't like how I look and my body repulses me because it's not right and I can't do a damn thing about it.

I need to calm down but I don't know how.