I Probably Weigh Like 1 Billion Lbs Now

i’d care if the person i reblogged this from vanished

idc if you reblog this from me but reblog it every time you see one of your friends or mutuals have reblogged it

To the LGBTQ+ community 🏳️‍🌈 — from a father in Gaza 🇵🇸

We live in Gaza, under siege, under constant fear — and now, under famine. 😔🍞

Last night, my little daughter, Alma 👧, cried herself to sleep. She whispered, “Daddy, I’m hungry…” 😢 But I had nothing to give her. Not even bread. Just pain. Just silence. 💔

There is no food here. The Israeli occupation 🚫📦 is blocking aid, food, and basic necessities from reaching us. There is no clean water 💧, no electricity ⚡, and now — a famine is killing our people, especially our children 🧒👶.

I am writing to you — the LGBTQ+ community 🏳️‍🌈 — because I know many of you understand what it means to be marginalized, to be forgotten, to be denied basic dignity 🕊️. You have known pain, and you have built communities based on love ❤️, care 🤝, and survival 🌈.

We are not asking for much. We are asking for the right to live 🌍, to feed our children 🍲, to survive this siege 🚧.

💔 Please, if you are able — donate. 📤 If you can’t, just share this message. Let it reach someone whose heart is still open. ❤️‍🩹

👉 Donate here: 🔗 Donation Link

📌 Share this message: 📌 Post Link

From Gaza 🇵🇸 — to every LGBTQ+ soul 🏳️‍🌈 who believes in humanity 🫶: Thank you for seeing us. For hearing us. For not turning away. 🙏

❤️❤️❤️

f@sting at school >> f@sting at home

I told my father I am @n0rexic and I would wanna recover, but I can't and would want help. Yk what he told me? "You don't have 4n4. You aren't thin enough." Well, f recovery then

Okay so probably no one will see this but that's okay. I ate way too much the last few days so I'll try to skip dinner tonight. Does anyone have good excuses?

Repost for myself

˚₊‧⁺⋆♱ Cure Fasting Boredom ⋆⁺‧₊˚

“Oh, I’m fasting, but I’m incredibly bored!!“ — so what I’m hearing is that you have nothing to do except eat? Or you eat when you’re bored..? Well, that needs to be fixed, but fear not, that will come with time. Keep fasting by the way, you’re doing great! So well in fact that I’ve actually compiled a list of things that you can do to keep yourself occupied!!

1. Make a playlist

2. Find some new music

3. Listen to music!

4. Take a shower

5. wash your hair

6. cut your hair?

7. dye your hair, even?

8. paint your nails

9. put on a perfume you barely wear

10. brush your teeth

11. put on some makeup

12. make a pinterest board of makeup looks and try them out!

13. wash your clothes

14. lay outfits on your bed and take photos/write them down

15. make some “for when i’m skinny outfits” and take photos/write them down

16. meditate

17. compile things that trigger you (YouTube Playlists, Pinterest boards, Screenshots of tumblr posts etc!!!)

18. Go for a walk

19. Walk to the supermarket and look at food (maybe i just like doing this)

20. walk to ur local train station and go to the mall OR!! walk to the mall (sorry if you live in buttfuck no where 😓)

21. journal!! prompts vvv

22. write down everything that’s keeping you going

23. write down all the things you want to eat when ur at ur ugw

24. write down your safe foods

25. write down your fear foods

26. write some triggers

27. write some thinspo quotes

28. reflect on yourself

29. get to know yourself

30. look at journalling prompts on pinterest

31. vent

32. brain dump

33. put lipstick on and cover a page in kisses

34. draw thinspo

35. draw an oc

36. try finding your art style if you don’t draw often

37. draw a scene you remember from your childhood

38. do a jigsaw puzzle

39. find a deck of cards and order them

40. study!!!

41. practice an instrument

42. look for jobs if your unemployed

43. go out with friends

44. talk to online friends

45. text ur irl friends

46. play minecraft

47. clean your room

48. de clutter draws & desks

49. make a thinspo board on pinterest

50. Make a pinterest board with all those facebook mom weight loss motivation quotes and things (they have a special place in my heart, okay?)

51. watch media that has characters w/ EDs in them. i recommend To The Bone (ofc), Skins (Cassie), Gossip Girls (Blair), Heathers (Heather Duke), Heartstopper (Charlie Spring)!!

52. find low calorie recipes

53. practice an instrument

54. contour your bones

55. write down rewards for when you reach another gw (eg, perfumes, new scales, new clothes, safe foods)

56. listen to some ED podcasts (i rlly like SciGuys Ep #201 and DRAMA MAMA Ep #32)

57. sometimes i watch swan liyah on YT

58. Make yourself some ice cold water

59. Fill up the ice cube tray (this is personal, i usually do this when i’m bored)

60. Commentary YouTubers 🙏

61. ED short films on YT

62. ED documentaries on YT

63. Quora ED stuff can be triggering too!!

64. Have a bath

65. De-clutter your phone

66. Get out there and reblog a whole bunch of stuff!

67. Duolingo

68. paint

69. haha 69… uh, read a book!

70. Stalk my ED Pinterest Account: https://pin.it/6IDHsH7jh

Pinterest

Maverick ⭐️🐛🩻 (fibretwo) - Profile | Pinterest

Maverick ⭐️🐛🩻 | block, don’t report. Thxxx

(it’s very cool i promise)

71. watch ED WIEIAD videos on youtube

72. look for different diets

73. watch cooking videos and save recipes for when your skinny

74. Make a playlist of workouts to try (reminder, you don’t have to work out when ur fasting<3)

75. write a letter to someone

76. practice your handwriting

77. Walk all the way to your local supermarket, get some gum and/or sugar free soda and walk back

78. hold a little fashion show for yourself

79. Listen to those songs you never got around to

80. Get into that artist you’ve never had time to get into

81. watch that show you’ve never started

82. Look into poetry

83. Write a poem

84. make a bookmark

85. draw one of your friends to give to them (no matter how poorly, it’s funnier when it’s bad)

86. Have a dance party, why tf not?

87. put beads on some of your shoelaces

88. Headphones up, eyes closed, laying on your bed blasting your favourite song. Just let yourself be surrounded by the music for a moment. It really helps your mood

89. Mess with spotify equalisers

90. Try some hairstyles out

91. straighten/curl your hair

92. watch a tim burton film

93. Watch a Studio Ghibili film (it helps to have an activity to do at the same time, like literally anything else on the list)

94. look at halloween costumes you can wear next halloween when your skinny

95. heal your inner child and watch a childhood show!!

96. sew something!

97. learn to sew? :)

98. make some jewellery

99. FRIENDSHIP BRACELETS!!

100. research a random topic (band backstories and mythology are my favourite!!!)

101. Look into the biology of a human digestive system (there’s a video of digestion we had to watch in school once that you can find on YT and it’s so gross and triggering)

102. look at mouldy pictures of food

103. watch time lapse videos of food decomposing

104. count loose change

105. burn your favourite candle because if not now the when?

will add more when i think of them! stay safe and do what feels right for you, don’t push yourself just stay disciplined

Take care <3

My body is a circus and these are my clowns <3

I actually hate my body like. I know I’m not ‘fat’ so people telling me that isn’t helpful but. I’m not skinny either. I still have fat on my body and my thighs touch and my arms jiggle and I can see some of my bones at the right angle and lighting but they don’t stick out enough and my stomach doesn’t cave inward and I can see my collar bones but necklaces don’t float over them yet and my cheekbones and jaw bone is visible but my cheeks are still doughy and my chins still double and I can see my knuckles but I can’t see the bones on my hand unless I move my fingers and even though I’ve gone down a band size my cup size is still the same and yeah I can see my ribs on my chest under the mirror light if I hold my arms up but I need them visible all the time and I can wrap my hand right around my wrist but I can’t see my wrist bone yet.

I’ve made enough progress to be a healthy weight now but I’m so far from perfection it hurts.