What Symptoms Of Depression Actually Look Like

“That’s the problem with drinking. If something bad happens you drink in an attempt to forget; if something good happens you drink in order to celebrate; and if nothing happens you drink to make something happen.”

— Charles Bukowski.

Tfw when ur ED-"not hungry" gets replaced by ur depression-"not hungry" like.... thanks, I guess???

a guide to horror and the spooky season by me, a tired nineteen year old who lives for bad and underappreciated horror films. inspired by this post here enjoy the scary season and carve a pumpkin (dont @ me that some of these movies aren’t good sorry not everything is the shining)

thrillers 

the shining 

panic room 

silence of the lambs

rosemary’s baby

the green room

get out

a cure for wellness

the ward

under the skin

not your standard horror

the babadook

the witch

children of the corn

it follows

it comes at night

goodnight mommy

the neon demon

teeth

raw (2017)

the wickerman (1973)

hereditary

midsommar

the ritual (2018)

strong females (aka the use of evil ladies or final girls/there’s more than just these btw like scream and halloween)

alien

gone girl (it’s a thriller but same idea)

you’re next (home invasion)

ready or not (in theaters highly rec)

revenge (rape tw off screen but that’s its subgenre)

american mary 

ginger snaps

jennifer’s body (horror comedy)

the craft

carrie

the loved ones

high tension

the descent (all female cast / can also be put into psychological + creatures)

all cheerleaders die (more of a horror comedy)

all the boys love mandy lane (slasher/thriller + it has amber heard)

when a stranger calls

horror comedies 

zombieland

shaun of the dead

army of darkness

tremors

cabin in the woods (also creature)

life after beth

what we do in the shadows (90% comedy) 

killers / slashers

friday the 13th pt 1&2 (two is w/ jason)

scream (1-4)

halloween

candyman

black christmas (original)

nightmare on elm street (original)

wes craven’s new nightmare

i know what you did last summer

us (2019)

more slashers (but it’s a lot of fucked up families lmao)

the hills run red (its a b movie so keep in mind that its very cliche)

the hills have eyes

texas chainsaw massacre (original if you want a more suspenseful/2003 if you want more slasher action)

leatherface

wrong turn (it’s literally the hills have eyes in the woods)

the crazies (remake)

child’s play

the strangers: prey at night

creature features

the thing (1982/no jumpscares if that ain’t your thing/warning body horror)

cloverfield

jeepers creepers (don’t pay for it the director is a nasty man sO)

IT (i highly rec the remake)

an american wolf in london (werewolves obvi)

the howling (werewolves)

late phases (werewolves)

let the right one in (original / vampires)

fight night (vampires)

stake land (vampires)

30 days of night (vampires)

28 days later (zombies)

28 weeks later (zombies)

train to busan (zombies)

resident evil (zombies)

night of the living dead (zombies)

cujo 

anaconda (not really a horror film but)

jaws (sharks)

the shallows (sharks)

birdbox

a quiet place

psychological (+some are realistic horror if that is what you are looking for idk the name of that so i put them in here)

psycho 

misery

the girl next door

frozen (phobia based)

buried (same as above)

the strangers (home invasion)

intruders (home invasion)

hush (home invasion + it’s on netflix)

wolf creek (college kids trips go wrong)

the ruins (could also be considered creature feature i guess???)

anthology

trick r treat

vhs 

vhs 2

creepshow

grindhouse (sort of anthology)

abc’s of death

demons 

sinister (fuck sinister two)

the exorcist

the exorcism of emily rose 

the possession

the last shift

insidious

devil

the omen

paranormal

the conjuring

the conjuring 2

oujia 2

paranormal activity (also found footage)

the ring

thir13en ghosts

grave encounters

the grudge

poltergeist (the original)

oculus 

i don’t know where tf to put these

the purge (whichever you want there’s like 4 and are all the same)

final destination

from dusk till dawn (super campy but i love it)

pet cemetery 

contracted (body horror)

the fly (body horror)

suspiria

found footage

blair witch project

rec (2007)

silent house (i think??? its fucked up tho)

unfriended

the houses october built

as above so below

the den

gore fest (anything eli roth is kind of hard core)

hostel (cliche and has lil plot other than violence)

cabin fever 

green inferno (i haven’t seen it it’s not my thing but it’s supposed to be similar to cannibal holocaust which i also have not seen sorry)

evil dead (both original and 2013 remake)

saw series (it’s deliberately placed the first is more of a thriller)

i spit on your grave (much triggering and very disturbing)

the last house on the left (2009 it’s disturbing and gets very violent towards the end)

hellraiser (it’s very 80′s but it’s good it has a lot of body horror fair warning)

matrys

high tension

terrifier (on netflix really gross)

family friendly 

bob’s burgers halloween specials are all real cute

gremlins

it’s the great pumpkin charlie brown

hocus pocus 

halloween town 1 and 2

twitches

goosebumps (campy 90′s horror show for kids)

are you afraid of the dark (same as above)

scooby doo on zombie island

scooby doo and the witch’s ghost

scooby doo and the alien invaders

coraline

the nightmare before christmas

the corpse bride

beetlejuice

ghostbusters

monster house

harry potter

the adams family

monsterhouse

spooky / creepy others

from dusk till dawn (tv series + on netflix)

hemlock grove (on netlifx + made by eli roth)

bates motel (tv series/psycho prequel)

american horror story (horror anthology show)

teen wolf (tv show)

scream (tv series)

stranger things (netflix series/sci-fi esqe)

buzzfeed unsolved (crime/paranormal series on youtube)

welcome to nightvale (podcast)

mr nightmare (scary story youtube channel)

deadmeat (horror youtube channel/horror podcast too!)

jurassic park (horror adjacent)

predator (horror adjacent)

UH WHAT

UH...... WHAT.........

im calling myself out on this one

demi moore is so fuckin hot in g.i. jane, and tbh she really should’ve been a lesbian and gotten with that hot doctor. just embrace it, girl!

sign up for the gold package of ADHD today and experience the following moods:

The Loop - opening and closing the same three websites in succession for 15 minutes at a time before realizing that there’s not going to be anything new or worth doing on those websites (my three are Tumblr, Youtube and Wikipedia)

The Ack - seeing you have a new message and, though you have no evidence that it’s anything even remotely noteworthy let alone negative, feel intense dread and procrastinate looking at the message for 30 minutes/5 hours/a week

The Shimmy - changing sitting/laying positions every 5 minutes because god dammit i’m not going to be able to focus on whatever task i need to do if I feel any unwelcome physical sensation

The Ol’ Razzle Dazzle - making a hot beverage for yourself and then putting it down slightly out of reach and then not drinking it until 45 minutes later when it has already gone cold

The Bellwether - scrolling on Tumblr and getting the urge to google something/look up something on Wikipedia, but you keep scrolling and forget what you wanted to look up so you frantically scroll back to the thing that prompted you to think about looking the other (un)related thing up in the first place

The Bop - earnestly insisting that you’re not anxious because the other person sees your leg bouncing and thinks that you’re about to go postal

The Poison Dart - hearing someone say something problematic out loud and freezing because, while you want to correct them gently, you also feel intense dread and RSD that if you even so much as suggest dissent the person will immediately and commensurately stab you to death or snap their fingers and open a trapdoor to hell beneath you

The Ghost Breath - realizing you haven’t texted your friend back/at all/in 3 weeks and thinking “Hmmm, I need to do that” and then you don’t do it and much more time passes by 

The Stim Package - eating an entire family-sized bag of chips in one sitting because having something to chew on helped you concentrate, at least a little

The Bullfrog - going to get something that you don’t use often but you know exactly where it is and then it’s not there and you just keep going back to that spot 5 more times before realizing you lost it or it’s somewhere else completely different (like, not even in the same building)

The Morning Mist - regularly forgetting what recent life events actually happened and which ones were from extremely vivid dreams

The Seesaw Rivet - feeling like a wounded child who is about to get in trouble during every interaction you have even as you are entering your mid-to-late-20s and genuinely wondering when that pattern is ever going to stop if ever

The Pull-Apart Muffin - having ADHD and about 3 other diagnoses and wondering what is even what anymore

“This is the house that built me and I’m gonna burn it down. This is the river I crawled from and I refuse to drown here. And bless the strippers but fuck the men. And bless the berries but fuck the farm. And bless the daughter but fuck the family. What is a home if not the first place you learn to run from? You’ve got to bite the hand that starves you, and in doing so Praise the place that birthed you. Birthed you fucked up. Birthed you ugly, and interesting, and ready to scream.”

— Courtney Love Prays To Oregon, Clementine von Radics (via clementinevonradics)

why does ANYONE think that charlotte and cooper should be together?

i don’t understand how we can just get over how emotionally abusive he was to her, and it feels like they try and make it seem like they both did it to each other but no. charlotte was not abusive toward him, she stood up to him and fought back. just because she was loud and argued back, doesn’t make her abusive.

he is the one who constantly called her heartless, a bitch, a whore. or, remember that time he said “you’re just a sex toy i got off the internet, a little girl trying to please her dead daddy” just because she never told him she was married before?

he never deserved her and i HATE that they made her get back with him. i don’t care how cute they end up being. his behavior toward her is inexcusable.

my talents include being fat and pretending im okay 

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