There Was So Much More

An icy, hollow bed

Where i lay down to sleep

A coffin as the bedframe

And earth as my sheets

My brother says goodnight to me

My father tucks me in

My mother sings a lullaby

About things that could have been

The world has never looked so gray

Or that is how is seems

As mother whispers in my ear

"Goodnight," she cries, "sweet dreams."

Thoughts of Love #3

I wanted you before I knew what love was, but then I understood that it is a constant battle. I push away when you pull me in, I say I love you when you can't stand to look at me. Love is a war- a brutal fight. Because love isn't easy. We work, we fight, but when it comes down to it we both would take a bullet for the other. Even if we pulled the trigger.

Summer is gone

Just a heartbeat away

My life feels empty

As I waste my days

Sitting inside

Seeing no one at all

Maybe life will be easier

At school in the fall

Do you ever think

That if they could see us now

They would be ashamed

Of what we’ve become?

If it takes me falling

For you to fly

Then I would plummet

A thousand miles

For you to soar

Again

A No.2 pencil and a dream can take you anywhere.

Joyce Meyer

In the darkest light

Of morning

I see the outline of your face

An illusion

That I trace

With cold fingers

Which long to be warmed

By you

Colorblind Problems... just me?

So I'm colorblind, and when I was starting at a new school everybody was super freaked when they found out. People always point at things and ask what color it is... is this just me? Like this,

People: Ooh! You’re colorblind? What color is the sky?

Me: Blue.

People: What color is this paper?

Me: White.

People: You aren’t colorblind, why would you lie?

Me: I’m not lying, I am colorblind. I’m just not colorstupid.

But then there are sometimes...

People: Ok, what color is this peanut butter?

Me: ...

Me: Green..?

I'm a melancholic alcoholic

With a tendency for feeling nauseous

Too much love, too much drink

Provides a space for me to think

But my thoughts flee my mind

As quick as they had come

And I am left alone

With my heart feeling numb

Snow capped kisses

Melt beneath your gaze

As we set out on a path

To nowhere

In hopes that someday

We will stumble upon

Something greater

Than ourselves