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Law and order

What the hell has happened

You all want the same thing

Peace love and harmony.

We just want freedom

To explore our own minds

To walk across the land

We was giving for free.

We stand with hands in the air

Chanting we just want to be heard

While your stood on the line,

Distorted face , a devils eye.

We was placed upon earth

By your mother and mine

I was giving life , by a wife ,

But I did not choose

To be put upon this world

Which is falling apart in front of me.

I did choose to have a mind

Not to be controlled by the side ,

But to many sheep are falling for the governments lie.

Your hitting innocent humans

While you glare with your power

Think your better then any other .

I don’t disrespect you job

But why do you defend the slobs

And not your job

Which is to protect your family and mine.

Not to use the bat

Given you to by the mighty rats

To a innocent man without a hat

We have no weapons , just a voice

We beg you can hear ,

But we know we fall upon deaths ears .

If we was to bring shields , bats and the world

You would be the ones running for the hills.

We out do the majority of you

But we still carry nothing

We don’t throw stones ,

Our hands are clean

We don’t carry a gun

Just a empty thumb.

We can all play games , believe me so,

But you lock the most powerful men in a zoo,

If them wild animals were let out ,

Your power would no longer be felt

As they would out do the devil in you.

We unite as one with out any cause

Millions of us , face off demons

Who won’t let us become one.

We are told violence is wrong

And we agree can’t you see

It’s just me .

I have no riot gear, My skin is my armour ,

A shield is my face , as I have nothing to hide ,

I don’t carry a baton , I carry a lantern ,

To show you the light , in the darkest point of your life.

I bring my energy , you carry a taser

To zap the life

Straight out of me .

We beg you to see

We are peaceful in this sweet lullaby

We only want to be free.

@trueemotions91

I don’t want to see

What is hidden beaneath the leaves

I’m scared it will shake my knees

Something I ain’t ready to please

I beg you

Don’t shake me to hard

I fall to fast

My soul won’t last

If you make me shiver

My heart will quiver

I don’t know when to stop

That’s when I lose the plot

I’m sorry

I can’t stumble

Upon these troubles

I want you to be happy

And

To show you inside

Would make us both the perfect disaster .

@trueemotions91

Better then never knowing , but the deepest story’s are always - what if ❤️

You see

I see the scars

It’s a talent for me,

To find you at your weakest

And bring you up from your knees,

It’s scary but Please accept the journey.

I can’t make you choose

I promise I’ll show you the other shoes,

Just give me one minute

It’s all I need

I’ll show you the light

On the other side .

I want to see you smile,

I will enlighten your soul,

I promise I’ll keep Your heart undercover

Not like any other.

I won’t leave until

Your complete

I’ll take the pain

And turn it into rain

I’ll take the anger

And turn it into thunder

I’ll empty your brain

And make it my burden

Because I can carry that

If I know your out of danger.

@trueemotions91

As gentle as a butterfly

But yet it lies

Like a spy

With a fly

Upon my wall ,

Glorious colours to distract the eye,

From what is hidden beneath its wall ,

I dare knock as I’m scared I will fall,

As something as pretty as that,

Will clearly make me a fool,

I don’t hold the jewels ,

To unleash her soul

I would make her into a grizzly ghoul

She touches upon my senses

Makes my insides, go dense

But god forgive me

She is to damn cold

When I try to keep a hold

Of her love.

@trueemotions91

I see him everywhere

He smiles at me in the air,

He whispers me lullabies when I’m scared

Keeps the monsters from out my head ,

He holds me when I’m cold

Squeezes harder when I’m warm,

He just knows how , I liked to be hold

Ain’t a secret that could not be told .

I would trust him with my life

But I’m not to sure about a wife .

He is gentle , I know that so

But he is also very powerful .

Would he scare her gentle soul

I honestly don’t know .

@trueemotions91

Good morning ❤️

A rose is red as the blood

That trickles when you prick

Your self with her thorns ,

The moon is as bright as the path

Lit , only enough for you to see the scary stuff,

The sun only shines, when it’s enemy’s are asleep,

Like the eagle in the sky

Waiting for its next victim who can’t escape,

The frog will watch each tiny slug

Against the river bugs,

While the spider etches her sketches

Against the moon lit sky,

The water speckles her nightmare

As it lights up her silver lined lie ,

The flys retreat from her secret trap

While her baby’s wait for it to fall

In their lap,

And all is lost in a blink of the eye .

@trueemotions91

Not wrote by me - but I had to share as it is amazing , ❤️. So all enjoy x

Her eyes remind me the first sea that I saw,

The kind of sea you only see in a draw.

When I’m looking at them I am getting out my mind,

The most beautiful thing a man could even find.

She took possession of my mind, of my dreams, of my soul.

When she is not there, I am feeling like if I was stuck in a hole.

Her presence is giving me the faith like if she was giving me a rope,

To get me out of that well and offer me the hope,

To see her one day having a rest in my arms,

While she doesn’t realize how effective are her charms.

I could spend my whole days looking at her sleeping face,

As long as she is there, I will never leave this place.

When everyone else is no longer there .

You see , the sun smiles on a sunny day

But hides when the clouds come to play ,

That’s just how it goes

But one thing I know

Is ,it always comes and goes,

It never stays in the same place

Because we don’t move at a snail pace ,

You see , you just have to watch the space

To open the gates ,

To all the things you misplaced

it will then ,all fall into place .

Just don’t hide from the same game

That’s got you playing in a hoop

Coz the game we play , ain’t a loop

We go high, we go low,

We go from side to side

But we never stay still

We keep climbing that hill

Coz it don’t matter about the pills

Or the window sill

You sat on for so long ,

Waiting for Them To sing you a song

As long as you keep moving along .

Then it don’t matter if no one is there

You can do it all alone .

@trueemotions91

Hey handsome ,

Stood over there,

Looking all bare ,

I want to excite you,

So please don’t stare

I’ll take you places

You never knew were there,

I’ll teach you about my land

Just allow my hand,

I’ll take the rest from there.

Ready to explore

To learn my law?

@trueemotions91

She was my baby girl

I told you so

Never wanted to let her go

But you made me do her wrong

By always being the other girl

Making her feel low

I just couldn’t say no.

She was my baby girl

now she can’t be found

Because I dug her, deep into the ground.

Broken hearted by a clown

I’m sorry , now I know

How low, I made her go,

I wasn’t ready

For the love ,

She blew my world apart

now I’m done fooling about .

I was confused , lost

I promise you so

Just come back baby ,to our home

I’ll show you my love , hands down

No more broken promises

No more late night kisses

I just need you back on my ground

You are , who kept me so sound

The reason I thought I was on top of the world

She was my baby girl

I just need her home .

@trueemotions91

I was lost

In a plot

Of my own fucked up emotions

No one to help me

No one ever understood

I was called a crazy bitch

Forced in a ditch

To dig myself out of

While the soil crumbled under each finger tip

Still they called me a crazy bitch

Coz I was fighting this shit

All just watched and laughed

Like a bunch of crazed clowns

To my head shut them out

I cried and screamed

Believe me I fucking did

My eyes have never cried

As the tears ain’t my sin

It’s just the opening

Of this tin I’m trapped in

The cuts were a release

Each time I dug my nails deep in

Was a understanding of the place I was laying

Each fall

I pulled harder

No matter how much they call me a crazy bitch

I am getting out of this ditch

They forced me in .

@trueemotions91

A man I hear them call

Is a danger to all?

Do you honestly believe that story

If I repeat them words quietly ,

If your going paint a ugly picture

Of my son, brother , father

Before there even have a chance to alter

Your perspective of all men

Then I would not bother ,

To waste your air on this planet earth

That’s ludicrous , to human nature

Can you really hear yourself loud and clear?

So your afraid of your father ?

Please tell me so,

How on earth can we scoop so low,

Men are humans , I swear to your

Have two eyes and usually bigger shoes ,

But all ain’t to fear,

I know the hands that raised me were full of care & order

Showed me love & courage ,

But to fear my son , is to loud and clear

When you all cheer , the words I hear ,

A woman I know who abused her own

but yet I don’t hear you call her mistakes

To the moon,

Would you to brush me with the same words ,

Because another mother put upon this earth,

It makes no sense , it’s all a laugh,

I stand with a woman , power and all,

But to call every man a danger is a different law,

Just think of the words before you make your own

father sore ,

Imagine his face when he sees you chore the words

That - all men must fall .

@trueemotions91

A woman I see ,

More powerful then me ,

Because she holds the key

To the happiness in me ,

She can blow me a Gale,

Or create me a storm ,

She is my dearest ,

Who protects me in the wildest storm,

When I’m mad, she makes the world frown,

Oh believe me she can tip up even your crown ,

When I’m happy she sends me a sky full of clowns,

In the prettiest colours,

Who sing me a beautiful song

To make me feel proud,

When I’m cold ,

She holds me ever so close

warms me up with her gentle rays ,

When I’m hot , she don’t stop,

When I’m mad,

She blows the angles my way,

To whisper

It’ll be better another day.

@trueemotions91

Blurred between love and hate

How do I decide my fate ,

When my heart tells me to wait

But my mind tells me to do a double take ,

Life isn’t ment to be a surf

But why was we brought to earth

With this thing called worth,

Emotions are tough

When other people are rough,

Just another torch

To light up the path

For another soul to walk

While we wait in the back fall ,

Why did the cells give me a heart

To just keep being scarred ,

It don’t know when to stop

And that will be my flop,

On this place we call earth

Burnt from inside , out

For something we call love.

@trueemotions91

Heart broken

My life’s a mess

I don’t know where is my place of rest

Just need a escape from this place

Feels like hell ,

I’d rather skate,

My way up to heavens gate ,

Then live this joke of a life

Am I that horrible

I attract selfish people

Does my mind really play me from behide

I don’t undertstand

I’m just confused

To what to do

Slowly but surely I’m breaking

In two

And I’m truly losing my self

To this sticky game of glue

I tell everyone to smile

But can’t force it upon my own frown

Why is life so hard

Why is it the ones we love

The ones who hurt us the most

If that’s the case I would rather die

I give up on life

Always doing my best

Breaking my insides for all the rest

My mind screams for me to give it a break

But my heart won’t let me escape

I’m slowly starting to lose all hope

Of what I call a human joke .

@trueemotions91

Hey beautiful people ! Hope Everyone’s well! I need some words or ideas to get my brain ticking to write some poetry! Please help ME 😝! My heads a little dry , so feeling frustrated ! Xxxxx

Warning - I’m not sure if some people will take this I’m ignorant which I’m far from , just easiest way for me to explain a voice in my head so please do not take it personal anyone ! Just enjoy !

Lost young soul ,

Life is low , life is high ,

We have to just ride the tide. ❤️

The biggest challenge in life

Is learning to live , with the voice inside ,

Sometimes he roars and sometimes he whispers,

He’s trapped inside

Constantly taking you on a mad ride

It’s your call to reply

But before you do

Just listen

To what he is speaking

He may drive you crazy and make you hate

Every aspect of life ,

But their is a message hidden deeper then your imagantion ,

But the voice is they for a reason

Even if invisible on the other side

It’s the man inside

trying to make you recognise

I know you want it to go and he won’t shut up

But please just go with the flow

Don’t think the words that are going Through your head

Are a representation of yourself ,

Thats way to far , even for his control ,

That voice is a reckoning

The only way your inside can get you to listen to your true calling

Maybe not in the words you need

But this is where you have to be smart

Our brains are dangerous

The damage is strong

As no other can hear the song ,

He may play you some fucked up lullabies

And make tears come into your eyes

But I promise that’s not you breaking

That’s your soul accepting ,

The voice is usually your own well being ,

Calling for some help , from deep within yourself ,

He is nothing to be scared of

He is invisible , a voice all alone ,

But you can’t let him take control,

You have the power to show him differ ,

befriend that voice in your head ,

make him work for his chatter

we were born wild and free but

our imagantion always runs quicker

then our own two feet ,

So sometimes you need to breathe , it’s all just a release

Its a craft , and once you make the art ,

That voice won’t be a burden, he will be working on your behalf .

@trueemotions91

Why is this world so cold

I was always told,

The world is what you perceive through

Your own living eyes ,

Am I to blind, to see

The love that’s surrounded, around me ,

Is it me who spits the hatred out they mouth?

I question this daily .

I see the beautys of earth

They don’t hide ,

The colours of the rainbow are

Painted all over this earth,

The birds sing me a lullaby

Every morning ,

I open my eyes

To the most beautiful sunrise ,

I watch the moon ,

Dance with the stars ,

But when I enter reality ,

Why do I see , beings

With scrawn up faces ,

Blood on the hands of another man ,

Children being abused by the one who

Brought them to this earth,

Youngsters with no morals,

Graffiti scribbled all over the walls,

Ruining nature for everyone’s eyeballs,

Is that really just perceieved through my own eyes?

Is the government, just blind

To the reality of life,

Hidden behide a obscene ,Law and order,

Where half of them are the cause

Of disorder ,

Freedom of speach

But only counts for the rich ,

I see another begging on the floor

While another swipes his foot across

The same path,

Caught up in his own twisted world

Not a care for the poor,

I didn’t see that this morning ,

When the flowers were dancing along

To the pretty’s bird song,

I saw happiness in the sky,

Pictures Scribbled in the clouds

To make me realise ,

I can be at ease ,

But when I enter the street,

Everyone seems to be staring down at they feet

A pawn in a game of cheat.

@trueemotions91

Always told

I won’t make any gold

With my long life goals,

But they underestimated me

As my goals only consist

Of happy and health,

Not having my pockets lined of coins

I’d rather have a heart of joy,

A pocket full of sweet memories

For the world to see, Is enough for me ,

Riches are nothing

If my eyes are cold

Blinded by the pound sign

can’t see my path is clearly written for me ,

I don’t need brands attached to me

I’m a brand of my own

no one can copy track me

Even when I’m buried in the ground

You still couldn’t even come close

To the place I call home

My memories would make you realise

What a lie yours is.

@trueemotions91

You reading this

Promise me

One thing

In life don’t give up

Never check the competition on the other shoulder

Always breathe and just get stuck in

The thicker the better

Don’t let anyone make you feel worthless

Poisonous people only do this

Don’t never go in with your eyes closed

Always make sure they are wide

Don’t get stuck in the gossip

Take a seat back and be the listener

Your be amazed what you hear ,

When your hurting ,

Please just scream,

Don’t let it burden you ,

I’m here,

When you want to cry,

Let it stream,

Tears are free ,

So don’t let it burn you out

from inside out ,

Believe me when I say,

Your brain is a weapon for all,

But mainly for yourself ,

So don’t let it take control,

Remember it’s your body in the line ,

Don’t let the voices roar ,

If they do, scream right back at them

Coz them bitches should be in line with your core,

When your happy ,

Enjoy,

And when your sad

Just remeber the man who shook your hand ,

Without a penny to his name ,

Yet he still has a plan,

Every single being here has a path,

And when it gets tough

Just know that’s the worse ,

The only way is up baby,

So please just breathe ,

And no it’s just the path

To make your journey on earth

Complete .

@trueemotions91

A woman ,

Is her name

A mother to all,

From the ground she was born

She always stood tall ,

She braces the craziest storm

Because that’s her home,

She carries life to the full

So we can be reborn ,

She gives her body to another

With out a thought for the other ,

She knows power, love & hate

But yet you won’t see her shake ,

She has to be powerful

To raise her next generation ,

To Make sure there matter

In a world with a lot of chatter ,

She has the power to give and take

But she always chooses life

Over any other path

That may call her ,

Because that’s the gate

To her most beautiful

Creations in life,

Always In sight , but guarded

By love , because that’s what mothers do

On this crazy path called life .

@trueemotions91

Scared

To grow old,

Petrified of getting lines,

Creases from frowning

Always clowning around,

With grey painted lipstick,

Creased upon his cheek

Over the wrinkles

That make his skin looked inked,

I’ll hesitate To undress,

scared of the bed

I once laid upon

Without a rest .

Don’t want it to be my

Last place of rest.

The joys of youth,

But now I have

nothing to lose .

I’ve lived my life with grace

And know it’s my resting place

On earth, back to the ground,

Where I was first placed .

@trueemotions91

Life is scary ,

Looking through my eyes ,

Your find it blurry,

But don’t be alarmed,

Because I promise your ready .

For this ride, To the top,

Free of charge ,

I promise I won’t ask for a penny,

But I’m going take your emotions

Higher then any,

I’ll hold your hand

I won’t let go

But inside your going be lonely.

Don’t be scared

I promised you so,

All of them emotions

Are part of the journey ,

This ain’t no movie,

First class scary .

Be the best ride ,

As this is the journey of Your life.

@trueemotions91

Billy bong billy bang,

I just want a snack,

To calm my attack.

Things got me having a panic Snack ,

For better ,for worse,

My chocolate habit won’t

Stop it

Love it

Twist it

Grab it

Shove it in and shut it.

Like a trap , with a snap

Waiting for it’s next lick,

I just can’t kick it,

With such delight

Cant help but bite it,

The melting stuff,

Gets twisted in my tongue ,

Dribble it

Lick it

Swallow it .

Now I’ve done it again

Fucking chocolate habit .

@trueemotions91

Fuckin crazy in this house of mine

Kids always fighting

Mothers always screaming

A war against 9

Yet love in the air

Open my eyes

To a war game

Trying push them

In there own direction

Forced eyes wide open

Mouths are all gawping

My brains fucking screwing

While next doors knocking

To a crazy noise

Of just heartache

But in the end it’s going be

Allright

Coz it’s where I call home

Its where my flowers grow

From the floor to the ceiling

I’m crawling

While the kids are scribbling

I’m kneeling

Praying to Jesus for some strength

To just catch my breath .

@trueemotions91

Why does another woman’s body entice me,

The curves I adore,

Skin so smooth ,

The way she shakes her arse .

Maybe it’s jealousy

But I’m not sure .

Is it wrong to admire

The beauty of another

I believe not so .

It’s something extraordinary ,

I just can’t let go.

How she drops so low ,

her hips curve to her exterior

Is just woah woah woah .

Blows my mind,

How another woman can make

My heart beat slow .

@trueemotions91