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bitches be like “this is the best piece of literature i have ever read” and it’s either a book that took them six weeks to finish or a fanfic they read at 3 AM
Just found out the guy I’ve had an on and off crush on for like almost what feels like an eternity is getting married! For some reason, I always thought my heart would break, but I’m actually feeling happy. I feel like I don’t have to put myself through anymore and am finally free to just live my life and not care about what he thinks. Guys, I’m a stupid person, but I’ve learned. All I’m hoping is that he stays married so there’s not a possibility of that crush coming back anymore. I say that because a lot of people who I grew up with are getting divorced like after a year they’re married, I just hope he doesn’t. IM FINALLY FREE!!!!!!!!!!
A partir de hoy compartiré las imágenes de mi calendarios a punto de imprimirse. Enero - Mente en blanco Uno de los temores más profundos es el temor a la incertidumbre. Existir sin saber por qué despierta la curiosidad que como al gato, nos ha llevado a espacios más pequeños que el átomo y más grandes que el mismo universo. Sin embargo la única pregunta que importa sigue sin resolver: nuestra razón de ser. Así pues, quedarse con la mente en blanco arrastra el natural miedo a la incertidumbre pero también trae consigo una infinidad de posibilidades, de descubrimientos. De vez en cuando conviene vencer el miedo, aceptar la incertidumbre y hacer una limpieza mental, un borrado de prejuicios con reinicio de ideas. . . . . . . . . #blocked #menteenblanco #watercolor #2019calendar #watercolorart #sketch #watercolorillustration #body #january #loose #mexican #watercolorstains #illustration #mental #thinker #colorist #isaaccm (en Mexico City, Mexico) https://www.instagram.com/p/BqflDIBgeCK/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=nz44ppasgr8i
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reminder:
it’s okay to have days where you don’t study at all if you need a mental and/or physical break.
it’s okay to prioritize other things in your life over school, if they’re more important to you and benefit you moreso.
it’s okay to fail a test or get a bad grade or get on the bad side of a teacher; your academic career will never go perfectly, but that doesn’t mean it’s spoiled forever, and that you will go nowhere.
it’s okay to not be accepted into programs, classes, clubs, or anything of the sort. just keep going forward, and new & better things will come along.
failure! is! okay!
breaks! are! okay!
you! are! okay!
“Silent Night” ink illustration I finished a few days ago. I may or may not try to color it sometime. I drew this while I was in a mood haha.
A mess from the best
Ain’t like the rest .
She was blessed by the man
With his shoulders at rest .
A danger to the devil from the inside , out
As her emotions were made to be numbed out .
Like hitler , wanting you to be his butler ,
Hid in the darkness from the stars ,
Never knew what it was like to see past the dark .
It’s a shame , but we don’t pass the blame ,
especially when your blinded by The other game .
Now she can see , so much more clearly ,
She is starting to look a lot more pearly .
The sadness in her eyes , are replaced with the sunlight .
The breeze on her skin , awakens her inner self esteem,
Something you tried to keep locked in .
A beautiful soul, you tried to hide ,
Hid beneath your evil eye .
The man with the rainbow eyes , clearly showed up in perfect time .
Her soul was crushing , a big mistake,
Made from the man, with the holes in his skin,
Who now has nothing to sink his claws in .
@trueemotions91
If you ever feel like this my inbox is forever open ! ❤️
A gun
A quick escape
To exit this thing called life
My Brain can’t take no more
Every day I force a smile
For what?
For fuck all
My head can’t think no more
I don’t want be on this place called earth
I want be dug deep in the ground
Out of this crazy life
Where there is no escape
From my self .
It’s a mess.
I give up fighting the urge everyday
To just end this shit.
For real.
If I had trigger
I wouldn’t hestatie
To know it would be over within a blink
It’s the perfect escape .
It’s lucky I don’t owe one
Or I would be in a place I call home .
Heaven .
Away from this nightmare
I can’t escape.
Please lord give me strength not
To put a end to my own light.
I don’t know why you placed me upon this life
And have me air to breathe
Every night
I ask why ?
What is my purpose to you under this dark light
Maybe the easy way out
People will say
But there don’t know the state of my mind .
It’s hard to cooperate
When all I see around me is snakes
I’m done with life .
Even the ones who claim to love me
Can’t see what is doing to the insides of me.
Life is a joke
No one gives a flying fuck
That my brain is turning into sticky glue
With words I can’t relate to .
Just tired of the pain my mind plays daily
I would rather live in a zoo
Then play this game of 2.
Hate is a strong word
But belive me when I say I hate this earth.
It’s full of devils
Ain’t no angels here
Just a fuckin game of tug .
I ain’t got the strentgh to pull
The fucker to my side no more.
Years of fighting with my own
To now just want be put in a hole.
I’ve learnt to accept it’s the only place
Im going be at rest
With my crazy soul.
I’m close to admit
The fucker has won .
@trueemotions91
The rush
From the blood.
The crimson rose
Against my pale white skin.
The Taste of evil and heaven I swear
it’s what feeds my darkest sins.
The pain I don’t feel
When the blade runs bare across my soul.
It’s not for me , I promise you that,
It’s for them who keep turning their back.
I love the way the blood trickles
Makes me realise , I’m here alive,
To breathe another day
Even if hell is on my side.
It’s twisted I know
To crave the rush.
They don’t care
As there push the demon
To the core
To blind to see the damage they truly cause.
Mine is temporary
A release from the demon
Within me .
Please don’t judge
When you see my scars
It’s proof to me I’ve lived
Through the pain
But I’m still here on the other side,
With nothing but love to give
To those who caused, the blade to sink in.
@trueemotions91
I don’t want to see
What is hidden beaneath the leaves
I’m scared it will shake my knees
Something I ain’t ready to please
I beg you
Don’t shake me to hard
I fall to fast
My soul won’t last
If you make me shiver
My heart will quiver
I don’t know when to stop
That’s when I lose the plot
I’m sorry
I can’t stumble
Upon these troubles
I want you to be happy
And
To show you inside
Would make us both the perfect disaster .
@trueemotions91
Why is life so raw
I only wanted to get up off the floor
But you won’t let me rise
You just want to watch me fall.
Scared I will rise above yourself
Difference is , I ain’t a whore
I’ll do my chore
But you still keep pushing me to the damn floor .
Fear is greedy
I get that now
But your only feeding the demon within me .
Your negative words fall all around me.
You made me so sore
I just don’t care no more
So you see ,
I may be upon the floor
But inside I’m ready to roar.
When everyone else is no longer there .
You see , the sun smiles on a sunny day
But hides when the clouds come to play ,
That’s just how it goes
But one thing I know
Is ,it always comes and goes,
It never stays in the same place
Because we don’t move at a snail pace ,
You see , you just have to watch the space
To open the gates ,
To all the things you misplaced
it will then ,all fall into place .
Just don’t hide from the same game
That’s got you playing in a hoop
Coz the game we play , ain’t a loop
We go high, we go low,
We go from side to side
But we never stay still
We keep climbing that hill
Coz it don’t matter about the pills
Or the window sill
You sat on for so long ,
Waiting for Them To sing you a song
As long as you keep moving along .
Then it don’t matter if no one is there
You can do it all alone .
@trueemotions91
I was lost
In a plot
Of my own fucked up emotions
No one to help me
No one ever understood
I was called a crazy bitch
Forced in a ditch
To dig myself out of
While the soil crumbled under each finger tip
Still they called me a crazy bitch
Coz I was fighting this shit
All just watched and laughed
Like a bunch of crazed clowns
To my head shut them out
I cried and screamed
Believe me I fucking did
My eyes have never cried
As the tears ain’t my sin
It’s just the opening
Of this tin I’m trapped in
The cuts were a release
Each time I dug my nails deep in
Was a understanding of the place I was laying
Each fall
I pulled harder
No matter how much they call me a crazy bitch
I am getting out of this ditch
They forced me in .
@trueemotions91
Heart broken
My life’s a mess
I don’t know where is my place of rest
Just need a escape from this place
Feels like hell ,
I’d rather skate,
My way up to heavens gate ,
Then live this joke of a life
Am I that horrible
I attract selfish people
Does my mind really play me from behide
I don’t undertstand
I’m just confused
To what to do
Slowly but surely I’m breaking
In two
And I’m truly losing my self
To this sticky game of glue
I tell everyone to smile
But can’t force it upon my own frown
Why is life so hard
Why is it the ones we love
The ones who hurt us the most
If that’s the case I would rather die
I give up on life
Always doing my best
Breaking my insides for all the rest
My mind screams for me to give it a break
But my heart won’t let me escape
I’m slowly starting to lose all hope
Of what I call a human joke .
@trueemotions91
Warning - I’m not sure if some people will take this I’m ignorant which I’m far from , just easiest way for me to explain a voice in my head so please do not take it personal anyone ! Just enjoy !
Lost young soul ,
Life is low , life is high ,
We have to just ride the tide. ❤️
The biggest challenge in life
Is learning to live , with the voice inside ,
Sometimes he roars and sometimes he whispers,
He’s trapped inside
Constantly taking you on a mad ride
It’s your call to reply
But before you do
Just listen
To what he is speaking
He may drive you crazy and make you hate
Every aspect of life ,
But their is a message hidden deeper then your imagantion ,
But the voice is they for a reason
Even if invisible on the other side
It’s the man inside
trying to make you recognise
I know you want it to go and he won’t shut up
But please just go with the flow
Don’t think the words that are going Through your head
Are a representation of yourself ,
Thats way to far , even for his control ,
That voice is a reckoning
The only way your inside can get you to listen to your true calling
Maybe not in the words you need
But this is where you have to be smart
Our brains are dangerous
The damage is strong
As no other can hear the song ,
He may play you some fucked up lullabies
And make tears come into your eyes
But I promise that’s not you breaking
That’s your soul accepting ,
The voice is usually your own well being ,
Calling for some help , from deep within yourself ,
He is nothing to be scared of
He is invisible , a voice all alone ,
But you can’t let him take control,
You have the power to show him differ ,
befriend that voice in your head ,
make him work for his chatter
we were born wild and free but
our imagantion always runs quicker
then our own two feet ,
So sometimes you need to breathe , it’s all just a release
Its a craft , and once you make the art ,
That voice won’t be a burden, he will be working on your behalf .
@trueemotions91
You reading this
Promise me
One thing
In life don’t give up
Never check the competition on the other shoulder
Always breathe and just get stuck in
The thicker the better
Don’t let anyone make you feel worthless
Poisonous people only do this
Don’t never go in with your eyes closed
Always make sure they are wide
Don’t get stuck in the gossip
Take a seat back and be the listener
Your be amazed what you hear ,
When your hurting ,
Please just scream,
Don’t let it burden you ,
I’m here,
When you want to cry,
Let it stream,
Tears are free ,
So don’t let it burn you out
from inside out ,
Believe me when I say,
Your brain is a weapon for all,
But mainly for yourself ,
So don’t let it take control,
Remember it’s your body in the line ,
Don’t let the voices roar ,
If they do, scream right back at them
Coz them bitches should be in line with your core,
When your happy ,
Enjoy,
And when your sad
Just remeber the man who shook your hand ,
Without a penny to his name ,
Yet he still has a plan,
Every single being here has a path,
And when it gets tough
Just know that’s the worse ,
The only way is up baby,
So please just breathe ,
And no it’s just the path
To make your journey on earth
Complete .
@trueemotions91
Life is scary ,
Looking through my eyes ,
Your find it blurry,
But don’t be alarmed,
Because I promise your ready .
For this ride, To the top,
Free of charge ,
I promise I won’t ask for a penny,
But I’m going take your emotions
Higher then any,
I’ll hold your hand
I won’t let go
But inside your going be lonely.
Don’t be scared
I promised you so,
All of them emotions
Are part of the journey ,
This ain’t no movie,
First class scary .
Be the best ride ,
As this is the journey of Your life.
@trueemotions91
Fuckin crazy in this house of mine
Kids always fighting
Mothers always screaming
A war against 9
Yet love in the air
Open my eyes
To a war game
Trying push them
In there own direction
Forced eyes wide open
Mouths are all gawping
My brains fucking screwing
While next doors knocking
To a crazy noise
Of just heartache
But in the end it’s going be
Allright
Coz it’s where I call home
Its where my flowers grow
From the floor to the ceiling
I’m crawling
While the kids are scribbling
I’m kneeling
Praying to Jesus for some strength
To just catch my breath .
@trueemotions91
A beauty only I can see
Because I hold the key
To my own twisted art
That’s locked inside of me
It’s not my eyes who make me unique
Or the fact I have 2 ears and a nose
It’s the fact I can control
My life long goals
ain’t no one stopping that
You can put a end to my legs
Or maybe even my sense
But my mind won’t let you
Mess up that
It’s not visible to see
For a reason
It tells me daily
Scary .
@trueemotions91
Why did you leave me on the cross roads,
Cold and alone,
With a thousand thoughts creating a storm.
You left me in the darkest skies,
my coldest hour ,
Did it make you feel better ?
To know I was breaking,
Under your footstep .
Pressure after pressure,
As you watched me shatter
But it didn’t matter.
If you were true , You thought you could piece
Me back together
With glue .
But never the same
And now your ashamed
Because the damaged you caused
Is clear .
Crazy
Their named me
Because I like to listen to my thoughts
Talk to my self in a middle of the store
A imagantion I adore
Ain’t no one stopping my thoughts
Thought a pill could shut it down
But don’t realise they just make
It roar.
Cant never beat the score
the bars set to high
For any medical score
Iq higher then they imagantion
I shoot for the heart
Their will never understand .
Ain’t nothing crazy about me ,
I’m just a soul
With a mission
To listen to
What my head feels
Coz I know that’s real
And is my goal
To try and bring peace to my inner soul.
@trueemotions91
Sometimes
I collapse
Every part
Inside of me
Breaks down
And I lose
Every sense
Of Time
And belonging
The only
Feeling left
Of an impending
Doom.
