What Is Wrong With Me Why Do I Engulf Everything And Make It Miserable Why Am I Just The Worst Fuckifn

I want to hide away from everyone forever. I dont want anybody to see me or to look at me anymore

I want to talk about how bad I’m struggling. I want help. I want to vent to my friends. I want to vent to people closest to me. But I am so scared and I am so guilty and ashamed. I can’t wait to blow my fucking head off

If you aren’t mad at me then why the fuck are you ignoring me you dumb piece of shit I fucking hate you I fucking hate you so much if you aren’t mad and worried why aren’t you taking me seriously why the fuck won’t you just speak up like a real fucking man instead of being a fucking pussy you fucking idiot

I’m so normal to the point I wanna get drugged up and have my brains fucked out <3<3<3

Maybe Hell is real but at least me rotting in the flames would be better than what’s happening to me right now

It’s gotten sk bad I can’t even cry for help from tumblr anons oh my god I can’t take this anymore

I dont want anybody to see me I don’t want to be around people I don’t want any of that I just want to be alone with no mirrors no nothing and just be by myself forever

Kinda sucks that when I follow ppl on here it redirects them to this blog where it shows the most disgusting and emotionally rawest parts of myself lol that totally won’t get me judged and Not accepted from other people who claim to be mentally ill Lol Jesus Fucking Christ can I just get killed already

You make me fucking hate myself you aren’t a real friend

I feel sick and anxious im not trying to be a brat or talk against you or anything I just don’t feel okay right now