Hiiii

I’m so ready for bed rotting starving summer

like I want to start now but my friends staying with me until Sunday due to family issues

and I love them dearly but PLEASE STOP MAKING ME EAT

Why do you want to eat all the time and eat fatty foods

LIKE BRO WHEN I SAID GO FOR A WALK I DIDNT WANT TO SIT IN MCDONALDS AND WATCH YOU EAT

this this horrible

I want to lay in bed all day drawing and only leaving to go on walks

Tried recovery and realized how much I missed my ED

it’s just so much more fun being dizzy and feeling empty rather then having the weight of food :P

Main downside is I gained like ten pounds sense I’ve been eating normally well more like eating more then I should

I wish there was a in between my EDs like I don’t want to binge when I try to eat normally

I’d rather just starve then eat a million things

I feel so horrible throwing out food that was made/bought for me

I don’t want to fucking eat it but I feel like such a bad person for doing it

like oh my god just started sobbing and smashed a sandwich my mom made me

I love saying “I’m so normal, it’s crazy!”

like bitch you just age ten bucks worth of snacks that you bought for your friends graduation THEN threw it all up. Proceeded to crumble whatever was left into said toilet that you threw up in, started giggling and then cut yourself a few times then heard a noise freaked out and flushed that gross shit up and brushed your teeth and went to bed. boy it’s 1am on a school night, you got finals tomorrow get your ass to sleep

the urge to never eat again and the urge to eat the whole kitchen and the urge to overdose on pills all on a wrestling match inside my brain after each minor inconvenience

i hate food i hate calories i hate fat i hate myself

i hate food i hate calories i hate fat i hate myself

i hate food i hate calories i hate fat i hate myself

i hate food i hate calories i hate fat i hate myself

i hate food i hate calories i hate fat i hate myself

Testosterone boys and harley quinn girls but instead its bpd splitting byos and attechment issues girls and the whole world lights on fire and burns

You know youre locked in when your parents start talking about you not eating😍

if you see my sh scars this summer no you didn’t

Never thought there’d be a day in cussing at my phone because it’s showing me skinny fuckin girls eating all these desserts and talking about how good they are

FUCK YOU LET ME FAST IN PIECE WITHOUT A REMINDER OF WHAT I CANT HAVE