If You See My Sh Scars This Summer No You Didn’t

There’s a certain part of my arm I really want to cut but I can’t sense it’s to noticeable :PP

I cut my wrist often because all my brackets cover that without a jacket or under shirt but my upper forearm isn’t covered by bracelets

I normally wear jackets but sense the summer is here I’d like the option to wear my sleeves kinda up? Idk it sounds so pleasing to cut there :P

The amazing feeling of knowing you haven’t eaten in two days it’s fucking fantastic

I’m so stupid

At night I’ve eaten and purged to feel

I just want to feel

cutting dinner make me feel because the deeper I cut the number I feel

but when I starve

I feel

I feel the rumble

I feel the dizzy

I feel all the crazy in the good way

I can’t wait to starve tomorrow

and this weekend

I love starving

Throwing up feels so much better then cutting myself

I feel so much cleaner after but I also love the ache SH leaves

I love it when you starve for a while then can suck your stomach in SOOO much

It’s so cutsie

Ryan Ross is my favorite thinspo

Never thought there’d be a day in cussing at my phone because it’s showing me skinny fuckin girls eating all these desserts and talking about how good they are

FUCK YOU LET ME FAST IN PIECE WITHOUT A REMINDER OF WHAT I CANT HAVE

Why can’t a man enjoy peanut butter without sobbing because it’s so high in calorie

Everything is so wack

Like I don’t feel anything really it happens all the time

it’s so horrible

if I feel I feel horrible

and gross

and fat

and ugly

I need to die

I need to throw up

I need to feel

I eat to feel just to throw up to feel