In The Mood To Cancel Everything And Just Rot In My Bed 💜💜💜

Binging has made me realize how bad food actually tastes

like I don’t understand how I still get cravings when it all taste so bland and gross

I don’t want to eat a fucking brownie that taste like shit but the cravings do

have to say fruit taste so much sweeter and better then any dessert I’ve had

Why can’t a man enjoy peanut butter without sobbing because it’s so high in calorie

Tried recovery and realized how much I missed my ED

it’s just so much more fun being dizzy and feeling empty rather then having the weight of food :P

Main downside is I gained like ten pounds sense I’ve been eating normally well more like eating more then I should

I wish there was a in between my EDs like I don’t want to binge when I try to eat normally

I’d rather just starve then eat a million things

Life is great just lost five pounds :3

Just saw a post that said “Pretty girls eat Pretty food” and that like changed my thoughts

Gonna live by that now

like eating my hummus and fruits and veggies is so cute unlike eating chocolate or McDonald’s

like that’s so fucking disgusting dude

I love gripping my wrist tightly where I recently cut

makes my heart stop for a sec cause the pain^^

Nothing feels real anymore

no matter how much I cut I don’t feel anything

It all feels fake

there’s nothing wrong with me

because non of it is real

I just want to starve to death

Testosterone boys and harley quinn girls but instead its bpd splitting byos and attechment issues girls and the whole world lights on fire and burns

I need to become a artist

omfg I love art so much