Sometimes I Think I Should Genuinely Just Kms

Real

Kms just had the first bad binge in a while

I had at least like 2500 calories?? And that’s so gross

I just ended a four day long fast and definitely just gained that all bag

EW EW EW!!!!!

Does anyone else ever feel like their self harm isn’t valid?

Like the cuts aren’t deep enough or the burns not bad enough to be actually taken seriously?

I’m so stupid

At night I’ve eaten and purged to feel

I just want to feel

cutting dinner make me feel because the deeper I cut the number I feel

but when I starve

I feel

I feel the rumble

I feel the dizzy

I feel all the crazy in the good way

I can’t wait to starve tomorrow

and this weekend

I love starving

Just went on a small weekend trip to see Silverstein like and shit was fucking awesome but I had to eat sense I was with my family

it was so fucking gross oh my god!!! By the end of the night it slightly broke out into a binder because I hadn’t eaten in so long and my friends who knows kept staring at me like I was dying on the spot

I purged like three times within four hours sense they kept wanting to get snacks D: I’m so excited for this week tho!! I’m doing theater tech all week until nine so perfect time for a week fast again!! And I have a really good motivation right now sense my Winter Formal is on Saturday andddd I’m talking to this boy I like and he likes me a lot so it’s great motivation to look better for bim

I do feel kinda bad because I am jealous of how skinny he is compared to me :(

Frankie falls to peer pressure again and ate

gonna be SICCKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

There’s a certain part of my arm I really want to cut but I can’t sense it’s to noticeable :PP

I cut my wrist often because all my brackets cover that without a jacket or under shirt but my upper forearm isn’t covered by bracelets

I normally wear jackets but sense the summer is here I’d like the option to wear my sleeves kinda up? Idk it sounds so pleasing to cut there :P

Testosterone boys and harley quinn girls but instead its bpd splitting byos and attechment issues girls and the whole world lights on fire and burns

Tried recovery and realized how much I missed my ED

it’s just so much more fun being dizzy and feeling empty rather then having the weight of food :P

Main downside is I gained like ten pounds sense I’ve been eating normally well more like eating more then I should

I wish there was a in between my EDs like I don’t want to binge when I try to eat normally

I’d rather just starve then eat a million things

I’m so hungry I’m going to peal my skin off oh my god you fat fat fuck