IT'S JUNE MF
IT'S JUNE MF
More Posts from Imtoobiforthisshit and Others
never realized how much internalized transphobia I've until I started thinking that I may be transmasc and not just genderfluid
that's so weird to be honest, the way being genderfluid is kind of, a 'safety' for me, I'm scared to accept that im transmac, and I'm scared of everything it'd change?
the way im genuinely thinking about just not going to the 2 next days of exams, but I know I'll regret not going more than going like I don't have the energy to study for them, or to do them, but i prefer burning myself out, than not trying
im just so tired
hii introduction introduction introduction
Okay so you guys can call me Blue !!
I use any pronouns but im mainly stuck on he/they at the moment
I'm 17yo (I'll be 18 in 5 months)
I'm in 11th grade (I took 10th grade two times, and I'm retaking 11th grade, thanks my mental health)
I'm kinda awkward so I'm sorry if my way of speaking can be weird, i just overthink words like A LOT so
I've a lot of interest, they come and go and it's like A LOT (list under the cut)
Some of my interest are:
music (can go from kpop, to emo, to pop, to metal, litteraly everything, just goes by phases) (rn its mainly mcr, twenty one pilots, p!atd, all the stuff i used to obsessed over basically)
marvel (especially fanon and comics, i dont really fuck with where the mcu is going)
the 80s till the mid 2000s
history, religion, humanities in general
languages!! i love learning languages
creating and personalizing!!! i love it so much i can't stand to own things and them to not be mine
fast and furious (a weird obsession of mine, i am obsessed with the 2nd and 5th movie, suki is the love of my life and i survive for found family)
L'etranger by Albert Camus
Cartoons and animation (mainly paw patrol, but i love every animations so much)
queer content and queer history!!!!!!!
my letterboxd
my phone breaking is definetly a sign for me to do no phone summer i swear TT
I was supposed to see my bestfriend and our friend tomorrow and I was so so happy about it BUT THEN I GET SICK, A FEVER???
so yeah I can't go because their exams are soon and we were gonna go shopping for their prom and all
I'm so sad now
I've exams on Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday (May 26th-28th)
and then in mid June (13th) and early July (2nd)
Monday is just one but it's a presentation at 8:30am and I'm not ready at all for it
Tuesday is 3 exams, there's the english exam that's gonna be easy, there's history/geography and well I'm not ready, and physic/chemestry/biology/maths this one I think I can do fine
Wednesday is spanish and philosophy and this one is gonna just be the death of me because I don't know ANYTHING at all about it and my spanish got bad after not using it for 2 years
Anyway I don't know how im supposed to go about that
okay so there's my favorite french book (it's kinda cliché gang romance lmao) that I read back when it was on wattpad (it's The Devil's Sons by Chloe Wallerand), now it's a published book!!!
and the song 'bloodline' by Alex Warren made me think of it again!!
"the devil's sons" follow Avalone and basically she gonna end up joining a norse pagan gang (the author of the book is pagan!!) and it's really found family and everything and i remember loving it so much!!!
it's a serie and i remember that on one of the later book we see my favorite character for the first time and the fact is, the book saved my life
Now I'm just thinking about the fact that I need to find the physical books one day as a way to give my 15yo self what they wanted, and to honor the fact that fuck I'm alive ??
Anyway I'm getting so nostalgic over this books like i don't even know if they were that good; but I miss my family you know?
I decide, vent season is over, now we make life whimsical and we are happy because AHHHHHH
