Blue Yapping - Blog Posts

my phone breaking is definetly a sign for me to do no phone summer i swear TT

wanna do a no phone summer but I should probably find stuff to do that isnt scrolling on my phone before that TT

not my blog looking like im gonna join NCT

"I enjoy getting presents from strange men." Horror Character Appreciation - Lesley Ann Warren as Miss Scarlet in Clue (1985) dir. Jonathan Lynn

it's 3am and I'm exhausted, i should so make pizza

the wish to date a boy, but knowing they'd see me as a girl <<<<<<

the things I've to do today

{-} add chap 1-3 bio on anki

{ } read and highlight the chapters

{ } read the activities in each chapter and make a mind map for each

{ } download the shows and movies my mother asked me to :/ (a lot of them) (2/8)

while retaking the year I'm taking a new subject (because one of the one I had last year was HORRIBLE for me), so basically I'm taking biology (but like it's harder because it's a specialty thing, anyway not the time to explain french school system)

the thing is in 10th grade I didn't study my biology at all because I didn't care, but I'll need the knowledge now. So I took my 10th grade lesson and now I've to study :(

never realized how much internalized transphobia I've until I started thinking that I may be transmasc and not just genderfluid

that's so weird to be honest, the way being genderfluid is kind of, a 'safety' for me, I'm scared to accept that im transmac, and I'm scared of everything it'd change?

IT'S JUNE MF

okay so there's my favorite french book (it's kinda cliché gang romance lmao) that I read back when it was on wattpad (it's The Devil's Sons by Chloe Wallerand), now it's a published book!!!

and the song 'bloodline' by Alex Warren made me think of it again!!

"the devil's sons" follow Avalone and basically she gonna end up joining a norse pagan gang (the author of the book is pagan!!) and it's really found family and everything and i remember loving it so much!!!

it's a serie and i remember that on one of the later book we see my favorite character for the first time and the fact is, the book saved my life

Now I'm just thinking about the fact that I need to find the physical books one day as a way to give my 15yo self what they wanted, and to honor the fact that fuck I'm alive ??

Anyway I'm getting so nostalgic over this books like i don't even know if they were that good; but I miss my family you know?

physical media... physical media... save me physical media!!!!

I want to smoke

just watched an american werewolf in London, and I think I need to rethink my life and touch grass because what the fuck did I just watch??

You Know What They Do to Guys Like Us in Prison

i mean I could just drink another one but because I had this one on an empty stomach and the weird adrenaline I wasn't expecting made me feel sick so I should wait BUT AHHHHH

i just shotgun a monster energy and okay that's actually kinda fun (weird way to give dopamine) BUT it also is frustrating because I love drinking my monster and all but in this case it's over in like 30sec :(

IK IT'S THE GOAL BUT STILL

i just shotgun a monster energy and okay that's actually kinda fun (weird way to give dopamine) BUT it also is frustrating because I love drinking my monster and all but in this case it's over in like 30sec :(

IK IT'S THE GOAL BUT STILL

I was supposed to see my bestfriend and our friend tomorrow and I was so so happy about it BUT THEN I GET SICK, A FEVER???

so yeah I can't go because their exams are soon and we were gonna go shopping for their prom and all

I'm so sad now