The One Night I Decide To Check My Tumblr Again And I Have A Bunch Of Notes From Art I Made 10 Years

Happy hearts and hooves day <3

wish is was easier to distinguish between what is my gender identity vs gender presentation. Like I can wear whatever clothes I want, but how do I want them read on me? >:( I'm hoping and praying I get approved for a chest reduction. I want it flat and I want to be free, I can take it from there. With my chest being so big, it's hard to really see myself as who I am....whoever that may be. It improperly fits my body and so clothes are always too fucked up. God I want to be able to see myself aside from this fucked up body.

I think I have DID or a OSDD, and I think it's becoming more prominent. I forgot that I have looked at it a handful of times, and forget until the symptoms become bad again and I go to look for therapists (which I cannot find any given my location/insurance. Hate living in the south istg.) It also hurts to not have anybody to talk to about it just to have somebody who understands or just to discuss things with for an idea. I've tried talking to a friend who is far mentally typical, but he's also judgemental of me it feels like so, oh well I guess. I just wish I didn't feel so different, or didn't feel like I should talk to anybody about it.

My brother told me that when he graduates high school in a few years, he'll be better than me. He's right though. Even if it upsets mom, he's right. I wish I could learn that my depression has and will absolutely never matter simply because I'm me and look and act the way I do.

I'm "that" family member. It's my curse. Stupid fucking teenagers should've worn a condom then I wouldn't be in this mess.

you guys made luigi mangione trend for days and I need to see the same energy for brianna boston. she is a 43 year old mother of three who ended a phone call with blue cross blue shield (after being denied a claim) “delay deny depose, you people are next” and is now being held under a 100,000$ bond and could face FIFTEEN years of prison if charged. she has no weapons, her record is clean, and yet she is being held behind bars. they are afraid of the public and are trying to subdue. do not let them!!!! be outraged that our freedom of speech is being threatened!!!!! deny defend depose! free brianna boston!

🎶my baby my baby, you’re my baby, say it to me🎶

"its how i used to talk to my mom and dad. and now theyre gone...its gone"

🙃

When I was a kid I was “darn I just love when female characters pretend to be dudes for whatever reason” and the reason will not shock you in the slightest

tried to vent in a trans space about how, as a trans man who’s been on T for a long time (over 7 years now), i have noticed that the more i pass as a man, the less welcomed i am in queer spaces unless i go out of my way to feminize myself. and how that sucks! and it’s isolating!!! and it feels horrible to see ppl who used to like you and be close to you drift further and further the more masculine (& therefore more comfortable in urself) u become…

only to get ppl replying to me and saying “well if you dressed more fem then ppl wouldn’t be intimidated by you. you signed up for this”

i’m sorry but i didnt sign up for social isolation when i transitioned, i signed up for gender euphoria and comfort in myself and my life. and i had hoped that the ppl in my life would be able to see how much joy that brings me and continue to love me.

was asked to make a transmasc version of the meme

There’s a scientific journal called “Get me off Your Fucking Mailing List”.

In 2005, computer scientists David Mazières and Eddie Kohler created this highly profane ten-page paper as a joke, to send in replying to unwanted conference invitations. It literally just contains that seven-word phrase over and over, along with a nice flow chart and scatter-plot graph.

An Australian computer scientist named Peter Vamplew sent it to the International Journal of Advanced Computer Technology in response to spam from the journal. Apparently, he thought the editors might simply open and read it.

Instead, they automatically accepted the paper — with an anonymous reviewer rating it as “excellent” — and requested a fee of $150. While this incident is pretty hilarious, it’s a sign of a bigger problem in science publishing. This journal is one of many online-only, for-profit operations that take advantage of inexperienced researchers under pressure to publish their work in any outlet that seems superficially legitimate.