Laaajlaaa - Unbetitelt

“People like me are meant to be alone, Because half the time I won’t even notice your name no longer lights up my phone. I’m a walking contradiction, 
An as*hole with a heart of gold.
I’ll show you what love should really look like,
 But make sure to leave before any of it can unfold I have a contradiction that will always
 Prevent me From loving you Because I have Sadly learned Early in life 
That people leave I will be clingy But never get closer 
Be demanding attention
While keeping at bay I have my fear Of commitment
 Solidly embedded In me But once you’re here
I will hold on Until you can no Longer support me I am a contradiction 
Of emotion and impulse 
Of lonely and together
Of holding on and letting go”

— nickglendenning, anonymous 219

“maybe the universe didn’t want us together, but i sure as hell did”

— but we can’t always get what we want, can we?

I’m a murderer

“I’m afraid to love you. I’m afraid that you’ll leave and that I’ll go back to being alone again. Only it will be a hundred times worse because I’ll know what I’m missing. …I want to be able to love you more than I fear losing you, and I don’t know how. Teach me… Please teach me. Don’t let me destroy this.”

— Mia Sheridan

I found you, and then I lost you.

A letter I’ll never send…

I love you. You are my best friend and I’ve never loved anyone like I love you. And each day I continue to fall more in love with you, the more I realize how you’re slowly pulling away. But it’s because you don’t love me the way I love you. Because I am not her. You don’t love me the way you loved her. You gave her the random “I love you” texts and the endless phone calls because you missed her voice. You posted her on Instagram and surprised her with flowers when you knew she was having a bad day. You weren’t hesitant to show your love and hold her when she needed it. I want that. You tell me you just never want to fall that hard for someone again because it was unhealthy, but I know it’s because I’m not her. I want the endless phone calls and random “I love you” texts. I want to be surprised with flowers and be held when I’m having a bad day. I want more than anything to be her. Because you are my him. You are the one I will never forget, you are the one that everyone else will be compared to. In my eyes, you are my everything. But in your eyes, I’m just temporary.

“I’m addicted to you. I’m not sure what it is but you keep me sane. You manage to silence my demons. You know me. Every single time something is up, you know. No matter how high my walls are, you see through. I can’t hide myself from you because you know me. You know me and that scares me. I’m addicted to you and maybe it’s because for the first time someone actually knows me. I can’t fake a single smile no matter how hard I try because you know me. You’re my addiction and I don’t know how to stop it. You know me so even if I try to let you go you would know, so I guess… Don’t let me go because I need you, but it’s not just that… just like you know me, I know you. I know you just as well as you know me, and I’m still not sure if that’s a good thing.”

— 12:14 AM thoughts

“The fact that you don’t love me, doesn’t really hurt me. I will love you, even if it’s unrequited. What hurts me is that you would choose her. That you had the capacity to love someone, and instead of giving it to someone that loved you fully, you gave it to someone who doesn’t care. It doesn’t hurt that you don’t love me, It hurts that you love her.”

— things I’ve always wanted to tell you #7