I Found You, And Then I Lost You.

““Why did you run away … from me?” “I didn’t want you to realise how broken I was - how many nightmares I carried. I didn’t want those nightmares tainting your dreams.” Silence - the hands of Time suspended in the air. Then came the withering chime - the last goodbye. “You should have trusted my dreams to chase away your nightmares.””

— My Heart Bleeds Poetry #28 Charlene Pablo ( via @inevitable-realities )

fun facts about me:

i’m an idiot

i have a terrible memory

i’ll forget 1 and continue to do stupid things

“There are really no words, no eloquent way of saying: you’ve made me feel things I thought I’d never feel. I’m starting to think this is true love.”

—E. R.

“I’m addicted to you. I’m not sure what it is but you keep me sane. You manage to silence my demons. You know me. Every single time something is up, you know. No matter how high my walls are, you see through. I can’t hide myself from you because you know me. You know me and that scares me. I’m addicted to you and maybe it’s because for the first time someone actually knows me. I can’t fake a single smile no matter how hard I try because you know me. You’re my addiction and I don’t know how to stop it. You know me so even if I try to let you go you would know, so I guess… Don’t let me go because I need you, but it’s not just that… just like you know me, I know you. I know you just as well as you know me, and I’m still not sure if that’s a good thing.”

— 12:14 AM thoughts

nobody gives me butterflies anymore y‘all just give me brain damage

- instagram

“You’re not invited back into my life. You can’t just keep coming and going. If you’re going to leave, then don’t come back. I’m done holding on to promises that you aren’t going to keep. But just remember, you decided to leave.”

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A letter I’ll never send…

I love you. You are my best friend and I’ve never loved anyone like I love you. And each day I continue to fall more in love with you, the more I realize how you’re slowly pulling away. But it’s because you don’t love me the way I love you. Because I am not her. You don’t love me the way you loved her. You gave her the random “I love you” texts and the endless phone calls because you missed her voice. You posted her on Instagram and surprised her with flowers when you knew she was having a bad day. You weren’t hesitant to show your love and hold her when she needed it. I want that. You tell me you just never want to fall that hard for someone again because it was unhealthy, but I know it’s because I’m not her. I want the endless phone calls and random “I love you” texts. I want to be surprised with flowers and be held when I’m having a bad day. I want more than anything to be her. Because you are my him. You are the one I will never forget, you are the one that everyone else will be compared to. In my eyes, you are my everything. But in your eyes, I’m just temporary.

“I want him but I’m frightened to want him. I don’t want my happiness to be entirely dependent on somebody else’s, to be a hostage to fortunes I cannot control.”

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Jojo Moyes (Me After You)

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