lucidaobscura
I am a cancerous, hot-headed, ginger, aries, that likes far to many fandoms for my own good. I am a Blatherskite.
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So as many of you may know already a few months back my now ex husband physically assaulted me breaking several bones in my face. Since then he went to trial and was given a slap on the wrist for the assault (12 months probation and 10 days in jail).
Weve since gotten divorced and I got a PFA. Ive been trying to provide for my son as best as I possibly can but being a full time student its hard to keep up with bills. Ive also been trying to get help and ended up diagnosed with anxiety, depression, and PTSD.
I then totaled my car, and the insurance company screwed me on it value. So I had to get a new car and pay for inspection and registration on that. Plus tires.
Except 2 days before Christmas my ex decided to slash my tires and violate the PFA order. As a result hes back in jail and I had to use the little bit of savings I had to get new tires for my car again. The tires were less than 2 months old.
Because hes back in jail however, I am now no longer recieving any child support to help with basic expenses. Plus the few hours I had been getting at work just got slashed as they hired a new full time position.
I hate to ask for money but guys really, its bad. Im at risk of ending up homeless with a 1 year old. Im getting what help I can but theres not much for me where I live. Please consider helping out. Im scared and Im stuck. Ive seen people on tumblr recieve tons of money for a variety of things. Im not asking for a ton here. Just enough to help me make sure my son has food in his mouth and a roof over his head.
Ive added my paypal below. If youre uncomfortable just donating money I also offer tarot readings and other divination services.
As serious as this is.. "do not pass go, do not collect a hundred dollars." priceless.
TO ANYONE CHATTING TO SOMEONE ONLINE
If you are considering meeting up with someone online use this trick identify who really are who they claim to be:
1. Ask them to Skype 2. If they refuse or can’t for some reason ask for a current selfie 3. If they also refuse or can’t do not meet up with them 4. If they provide one ask them to send another with them holding 3 fingers up 5. If they refuse read step 3 6. If they provide a selfie where they show 3 fingers they are probably for real
(If you’re still unconvinced try again with them drawing something in their hand)
I SAY THIS FOR YOUR OWN SAFETY please spread this message as more and more young people are lured out into situations where they get kidnapped because they weren’t 100% sure the person they were talking to was real.
A tyrannosaurus but the arm and leg proportions are switched
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HOW TO REPORT POTENTIAL SUICIDE ON TUMBLR
okay guys, ary ( @skishenanigans ) has me really worried.
tumblr has a feature where you can report a user suspected of wanting to take their own life and will do their best to track their ip and roll out authorities to make sure they are okay. you can help ary by doing the following:
1. go onto her blog and see the last post she made. at the bottom there will be a little plane lookin arrow. click it
2. once you have clicked it a like of options to “share” the post should pop up. you want to click the flag that says “report”
3. next, three options will appear. click “report something else”
4. a page with several options for violations will appear. click “self-harm”
5. tumblr will ask if this user is in immediate danger. no one has heard from ary for a couple of days. click “yes”
6. tumblr will then ask you for your name and to verify you are a real person. once you have done that, submit the form
Andradite Garnet the precious bell pepper.
1, First of all, I apologize for the shitty ass quality of the bottom image. I was way too zoomed in when I drew it and I wanted to make Andradite (the orange one) smaller than Garnet, and when I zoomed out I realized that I drew the image WAY TO SMALL but when I enlarged it all went to shit. So there’s my excuse but anyway.
2, I made a bell pepper. I seem to have gotten attached to Lil’ Leggy, considering Navy is a tiny backstabbing strawberry. Leggy, on the other hand, was just kinda being dragged around by a child leash, or a regular dog leash if Navy was on the other end presumably. She wasn’t aggressive, or angry, or mean, she was just a cautious confused little tomato doddling behind everyone else and immediately struck me as probably being very skittish and easily spooked.
And Padparadscha is just a clueless fuzzy little peach.
3, My demon immediately presented me with the idea that IF they were to fuse, not only would they be exactly too much adorable but what if their negatives canceled out? Two wrongs make a right? Not like they suddenly had Future Vision or perfect abilities but like.. they were hyperaware of their situation and everything around them at that exact present. They wouldn’t be able to foresee a rock about to belt them in the back of the head but they could sense it a second or two before it did and catch it right before impact. They’d have a ridiculously good and accurate understanding of everything happening around them, probably be able to multitask, answer questions, figure out puzzles, problems, and riddles quickly and accurately all the while being absolutely clueless as to how and why. If you asked them a question or presented them with a problem they’d just blurt out the answer without trying or hardly thinking about it. But they’d still have to learn everything first, so they’d kind of just be like a child, following Garnet around constantly, learning things and showing anything within an arms reach to her and asking about it.
4, I had this idea that Garnet would kind of adopt the entire pack of Rubies, almost like her children, and just become the Alpha Ruby inadvertently. And just slowly but surely, and not even intentionally, end up with a pack of Garnets or Garnet like gems, including Rhodonite and still be the Alpha Garnet herself, given she’d be the oldest one and probably the most mature. She’d end up like an accidental mother to a pack of wild and absurdly out of control child-like Garnets and be HAPPY with it because she’d be surrounded by concentual fusions, and It’d be a gotdamn dream.
And a fucking nightmare for everyone else ESPECIALLY enemies. Imagine being an asshole homeworld gem and just stumbling across a pack of 6 Garnets 4 of them borderline out of control children all ready for their cue to kick some ass.
COULD YOU IMAGINE A SUGALITE FORMED FROM THE FAMETHYST AND THAT? COULD YOU?
Anyway, have an Andradite Garnet. I have no fucking idea if I’ll ever draw her again or actually improve on her design, I’m just happy I managed to not only find an appropriate gem for her but to even be able to draw anything remotely human looking in the first place.
Are you a Gold Star lesbian? (Just in case you don't know what it means, a Gold Star lesbian is a lesbian that has never had sex with a guy and would never have any intentions of ever doing so)
I wouldn't consider myself one given I'm Bisexual and currently have a boyfriend. Although I am curious what sparked this question or even if it was intended for me.
I finally lost a battle of wills and interest. Time to add yet another thing/fandom to my long list of shameless shame.
I've never reblogged something on this site ever before, but this is worth it. Despite the fact that I'm on a bit of a Batim obsession, and that this will only reach a few more people who may not really be into MLP, the point still counts. In fact this especially counts when dabbling in AUs which it seems I've accidentaly might have made. And nothing makes me scared and fearful I've putting art I've made on the internet other then being, not hated on for it, but rejected by said fandom for what I drew. This is an EXTREMELY excellent point, and it makes me rethink quite a few things I judge characters on, mine and others. Your character is whomst-ever the fuck you want them to be. And if it's an official canon character you can defunk their backstories and write their future in crayon as long as you give proper credit to the VERY original creator. MAKE EM FUHKIN GEY. Your not stealing it? Cool. Crossover the shit outta like 9 fandoms. Not makin money DIRECTLY of their face? Perfect. Some creators, as in like Fnaf and stuff, don't even care if you do. Fuckin AU, Mary Sue, Gary Stew, and whatever the fuck is genderfluid equivalent away, who gives a shit, if your well within the rules, you can do whatever you gotdamn dream of.
I dunno if you guessed it, but I like drawing cute little ponies….fanart of a children’s cartoon. And every so often, someone feels the need to tell me that my personal interest is stupid, childish, cancerous…..“cringe-y”. Boy howdy, do I hear that word tossed around a lot. Cringe, cringe, cringe. We’re all afraid of making something cringe-worthy. Something that could end up in those lovely “Bad OC” cringe compilations. I see other artists, especially young creators, getting policed and attacked for creating something that could-gasp!- be interpreted as the dreaded Mary Sue. So artists stifle themselves. Can’t make your OC too colorful. Don’t you dare make them related to a canon character! Better watch that backstory, lest somebody decry your character as an edgelord. You can have a nerdy interest, but you better not be too fucking passionate about it. Watch yourself. Don’t be too different. Don’t be cringe-y.
So here’s my question to ye gatekeepers of content, ye knowers of all things cringe-worthy, ye adamant enforcers of creative conformity………..Who cares? Really. Why. Why is “cringe” an issue? So what if someone makes an edgy black-and-red OC, or a sparkly mary sue alicorn princess? So what if somebody makes up an over-powered self-insert and ships them with a canon character? So what if somebody dares to be unironically passionate about a fandom or interest considered less-than-cool? Who cares if people have imperfect, cliche-riddled characters they love? Cringe culture is mean-spirited. It demands creators conform. It’s perpetuated by people who, quite oddly, get really bent out of shape at the sight of people unironically enjoying harmless things. I say forget it. Trample it. Let people have fun. Especially don’t be cruel to young creators- nobody learns to be a skilled artist or writer overnight. And this is by no means a statement against criticism…..but there’s a big, big difference between giving constructive criticism, vs choosing to crap on somebody for having a “cringe-y” interest. Idk. I’m a teacher with an Art Education degree, and I believe one of the most important things is to encourage people’s interest in the arts, not push them away (out of a mean-spirited attempt to seem cooler by proxy). My favorite Mister Rogers quote (applies to artists of all ages):
“Do you like to draw with crayons? I’m not very good at it. But it doesn’t matter. It’s the fun of doing it that’s important. Now, I wouldn’t have made that if I just thought about it. No matter how anybody says it is….It feels good to have made something.”
God fucking damnit. Well. I've finally succumbed to drawing him in a tutu/dress, out of sheer curiosity. Y'all better enjoy yourselves you nerds.
He will wait as long as he needs to damnit.
Little Bendy-Beans isn’t as intentionally mischievous as you’d think. At least not yet. He’s extremely curious, “If I do this, and this happens, then what happens if I do this? Will I get yelled at? Will someone come and see? Will I get food? I might get food..”. He’s constantly concidering every single option and way something can go, and this means he would shove that ink-can-thing off the shelf, multiple times a day, and night, when people are in the room, or across the house, just to see what will happen.
He will cling to Boris’s tail and ride along to see how far he can get before Boris gets tired of him, or if he’ll ever even notice.
He is very interested in the screaming head on Henry’s desk, asking it questions it can’t answer and poking it in places it didn’t know it could feel in and please stop it that’s very annoying and that kind of tickles but also hurts stop, which directly translates to, “aaaAAAAAHHHHH.”
AND SAMMY. Sammy gets yelled at almost more than Bendy-Beans does, which is dissapointing Sammy, that’s not how you earn brownie points. He can’t seem to grasp that his Yandere-ness is actually quite rapey like and please stop borderline molesting the smol Ink Baby. Can you not feel the claws digging into your scalp? Do you not know the signals cats give when the say “Put me the hell down please?” especially when they’re saying it out loud and everything?
Bendy-Beans can’t quite grasp the concept of ‘Too much belief’.
Boris is a good sewer, and gives Bendy-Beans some accessories, and proper hands I guess?
Monster very much likes head pats so much yes sir.
Miscommunication is a bloody inky nightmare. All Monster wanna do is give Daddo a gift.
SO. I managed to get all the pictures without ripping my book apart.
The first 2 being of the first time I drew Bendy-Beans and Boris, I changed their eyes to match the digital ones, kinda fucked them up even more. Changed Boris’ face so it wasn’t as long and shortend his ears to match.
I forgot I had two more pictures of Monster AFTER the first page. I subscribe to the “Papa Henry” idea. Imagining this big ol’ Boi wandering around desperately looking for daddo so he can give hugs and get head scrintchies is gotdamn irresistible.
Also Sammy’s a biznitch to draw, but that’s my own lacking in skill.
Behold, the shittiest camera in the world. Samsung Galaxy S Prime my ass. I’ve managed to get quarter decent pictures of my book, without destroying it.
Monster might have to scramble a bit to get into vents, not a lot of footholds on a ceiling you know.
I drew this before the digital versions, which I like better, so these aren’t quite as clean.
Bendy-Beans needs scrintches and sleeps. Now Boris can’t fuckin’ move or he’ll wake him up. He’s got THINGS to do.
I’m gonna need to find out how to scan the sketches from my leather-bound book WITHOUT tearing the pages out, ‘cause I don’ wanna redraw all the bendy beans and I gotsa full body Boris I’m pretty proud of.
The Bendy-Beans have returned.
Along with Spiny-Boi, Monster, over here
I can’t fucking decide on his eyes. I make them the same colour as his face and they don’t look right. I make them white and they make the teeth look weird. I make them dark yellow and they look wrong. Light yellow is like the only good middle ground and I still can’t get it right.
Behold. My latest obsession.
His design couldn’t be more off-cannon, I know, I’m a disgrace. Just something about the idea of him being a CAT demon, with ear-like horns and a big ol’ tail with just a SMIDGE of floof seems so appealing. Also given my lackluster ability to draw human-like legs, shoes, and hands, giving him smol cat legs and paws and more claw-like hands is the easiest and most comfortable way of drawing him. I CAN draw him normally, I know I can. But how can I resist the lil’ Bendy beans?
Also if y’all thought I was just a warframe doodler, behold, am not. I told yall I’m obsessed with too many fandoms. Like all of them, save most animes. Just sayin’ bois and gorls.
Ark: Survival Evolved
My boyfriend runs an ARK:SE server off of Xbox 1. We’re trying to get it repopulated with people so if anyone cares to join, the account that runs it is called “Necromunging” with a white wolf head gamer picture. For anyone who would like to join. PLEASE feel free. The Admins are Me “Dragonarch3″ and my BF “Noxcibus”.
