National Testing Agency But All Its Testing Is My Fucking Patience 💔

digital detox 🧸

helllooooo <3 i realise my attention span is fried and i need to live a little outside this stupid rectangular screen 😔 which is why :

🌸 digital detox 🌸

why tho ? to get my life back together 🤚

daily goals :

walks for however long <3

study a little

read books

clean up (closet, desk, storage areas)

decrease screen time

water (min 2L) (might sound stupid but i rarely finish even 1L of water 😭)

reduce caffeine intake ( :(((( )

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i think i’ll keep a daily log here for this so yippie :) new journey ? and we start tonight cuz there is no right time to start 😋

FINALLY GOT A CANDEL LIGHTER 🤭🤭🤭 (im too scared to use normal matchboxes) MY AESTHETICS HAVE BEEN REACHED

23 april 2025

neet being so close is genuinely so scary 😭

not much to say today but yeah, today’s gonna be the last day of lecture questions and i’m finishing up lecture questions 🤞🏼 so yes

from tomorrow i’m going to only doing full syllabus tests- 2 a day - one from 2-5 and one at night so yeah

i think i’ve gotten pretty used to the anxiety which is good 😭 but yay also insomnia is getting so much worse- i wake up every hour after i go to sleep and it isn’t even helpful to sleep anymore, i just wake up just as tired cus of waking up every hour :( but i can’t do much about it- i think the stress and anxiety is adding on a lot 😭 but yeah

anyways, let’s get back to studying ehehe

have a nice day my loves 🌸

💌

2.45 am - had such a cozy study session after a whole day of melt downs

anyways - off to bed

6 march 2025

hihiiii <3

very basic day, i gotta revise all 14 chapters of physics cuz tmr’s my final 🥲 but yay, i started at 12 and finished revising 4 chapters (questions + derivations and notes) so pretty happy about how much i got done, it’s gonna be a long night again (when is it not) but i really hope my exam goes well tmr (cbse physics paper reactions scared me)

there’s also a rumour that i could have my math board re exam cuz the paper got leaked (😭😭😭) i might actually cry if that happens cuz math is genuinely my weakest subject, tho it’s fun, i really can’t bring myself to study that subject again.

anyways -

todo list 🎀

i still need to learn ray optics cus i skipped it all year

revise :

magnetism and matter

electromagnetic induction

alternating current

electromagnetic waves

wave optics

atoms, nuclei

dual nature (might skip)

semi conductors

i think i’ll be done with revising by around mid night and then i’ll go through the numericals and formulas again

also i did plan to finish reading ncert by the time my exams end but i really doubt ill do that 😭 boards is already a load of work, trying to fit in 11th bio is a real task so maybe i’ll just finish 11th biology by the end of march. i’ll already be reading 12th bio for boards so only 11th would be manageable after exams.

anyways,

have a nice day loves <3

💌

contemplating to not give cet cuz it’s two whole days for an exam that won’t get me a good college- most colleges i’m applying to has their own entrance exam and do not consider cet at all

and i only registered for CET for my neet counselling (weird state requirement) but yeah, i prolly wont but let’s see

cheap chinese takeout on the night of an exam hits.

1.20 am update -

done with :

IUPAC

isomerism

GOC

POC

haloalkanes and haloarenes

alcohols phenols and ethers

i feel like i should revise the last two again but yeah

i might not do hydrocarbons tonight, it’s very content heavy for an all nighter and i’ve gotta be at school tmr so i’m gonna try getting a nap in before going to school

2.30 am update :

done studying aldehydes ketones and carboxylic acids and amines but i haven’t made revision notes on them

all nighters on sick days are a terrible idea 😭

but yeah i think im done for the night cuz i threw up again and i can’t be sick when boards are coming 🫠 so i did a lot for a night tho

what i’ve done :

IUPAC

isomerism

GOC

POC

haloalkanes and haloarenes

alcohols phenols and ethers

aldehydes ketones and carboxylic acids

amines

i’ll definitely pull an all nighter some other day when i’m not as sick 😭

what’s left from oc :

hydrocarbons

biomolecules

aldehydes ketones and CA notes

amines notes

goodnight cuties

23 february 2025 (pt.2)

oop okay part two cuz why not

i got new headphones today :))) and i’m determined on finishing organic chem tonight (i’ve been procrastinating this subject for YEARS)

to do list for tonight :

IUPAC nomenclature

isomerism

GOC

qualitative, quantitative analysis and purification

hydrocarbons

haloalkanes and haloarenes

alcohols phenols and ethers

aldehydes ketones and carboxylic acids

amines and diazonium salts

biomolecules

currently 11 pm - i’m done with :

IUPAC, isomerism and GOC

the jam for my pbj’s is spoilt :( i had to settle for chocolate sauce but JAM YUM (also homemade jam so like yum yum yum) i would honestly make all of you pbj’s

i love you all

WHY ARE THEY STILL CONSTRUCTING IM GONNA KMS