My-little-universes - Live A Little.

cuz this JUST happened to me😭

Holy moly dude.

The feeling you feel when you finally break free of a writers block. When you finally finish that paragraph that you had no idea how to complete. When you finally find a way to fix that story that always felt incomplete. That amazing feeling that makes you feel like ur on top of the world and untouchable.

I live for it.

oh how jealous i am of people with money.

its not even the people that have a lot of money, y'know like celebrities or the top 1% (fuck yall) or lawyers and doctors, not them.

but the people, the regular people, like me that's family have money. that have bathrooms in all five of their bedrooms. that have a pool in their backyard. that have every single kitchen appliance known to man. that shop at lululemon and brandy melville and hollister and h&m. that go on two yearly trips.

the people who grew up never seeing their parents worry about money. that never had to hear, "we need money for other things," or "y'know we can't buy that," or "maybe later." never had to not ask for something because you saw how much it cost. never had to beg their parents for $50 to hang out with friends instead of $20.

im friends with those people, that have money. and everytime i go to their house, i feel disgusting. its not that we don't have money, it's that they have so much more of it. and it's evident in everything about them. their clothes, their shoes, their hair, their skin, their makeup, their phone. their house, their room, their bed, their bathroom.

god, im so jealous.

honestly gilmore girls is pissing me off rn like hello??? logan is a dumbass and cheated on rory and didn't even say sorry to her and let her walk out of the room, lorelai can't use her mouth and talk about what's bothering her with luke, ZACH JUST FUCKING ASKED LANE TO MARRY HIM LIKE WHAT???

i js wanna go back and watch the seasons of chilton rory and (fuckass bitchass pussy) dean and (the loml amazing wonderful misunderstood) jess and friday night dinners and luke and lorelai slow burn and not suffer 😔

my grandma is dead. it was my parents wedding anniversary. my dad bought flowers and a cake. i came home screaming, "happy wedding anniversary!!" only to be cut off by my dad. he pulled me aside and said, "grandma's dead."

my grandma is dead. it's my mother's birthday february 1st. she's turning 49. my brother was meant to come home and we were gonna plan a surprise for her.

my grandma is dead. ten minutes after i found out, i took my dog out for a walk. i left at 4:20. i came back at 5:30. i was crying the whole time.

my grandma is dead. the grief came in waves. i would remember, then cry, then stop. and then remember, then cry, and then stop. remember, cry, stop. remember, cry, stop.

my grandma is dead. the last thing she said to me was, "stay safe. ill see you next time,". now there is no next time. the next time will be me infront of her grave.

my grandma is dead. i was too scared to talk to my mom. too scared to look at her. i would cry if i did. and i can't cry infront of my mom about her mom dying, that's rude.

my mother's mother is dead. she has no parents any more. when we went to visit her, my mom would tell my cousins and aunts and uncles that her mom was fine. she was bedridden but could still speak, she could still remember everything, she only had trouble hearing. she would tell everyone that that's how strong her mother is. was.

my grandma is dead. and god i miss her. id only ever seen her 12-16 times. me and my family live in the us, but everyone else lived outside the us. traveling home costs a lot, and so we could only go once a year. but i wish we went more. i wish i talked to her more. i wish i sat with her more. i wish she was still alive.

my grandmother is dead.

i just can't understand the idea of "one night stands". sex is such an intimate thing, and to allow a rando who probably doesn't even know your favorite colour is so bizarre. to let someone see you naked and at your purest state when you don't even know what they wanted to be growing up. having a "one night stand" with someone SHOULD have strings attached. and the past people you've had sex with shouldn't be known as "bodies". they should be people you once truly cared for, not someone you saw at a club for the very first time. idk it's just so bizarre to me.

bring back tumblr ask culture let me. bother you with questions and statements

BROO DID YALL SEE THE STRANGER THINGS SEASON FIVE ANNOUNCEMENT???

in case you haven't yet <3

part 1 - november 26th

part 2 - christmas day

the finale - new years eve

im SO beyond excited it looked fucking amazing and im hoping and wishing that the ending is good and they didn't absolutely butcher it. but dude. why the FUCK would they drop it NOW?????? SIX MONTHS???? 😆🔫

reading books is so fun omg. even though it's the author that's wrote the words and the author directing how the story plays out, it's my mind that comes up with how the characters look and how the setting looks and how the characters talk and everything. no matter how well they describe it, my mind can make "beautiful brown curly hair that flows past her shoulders" look like a million different things. and so can yours. how fucking fun. even if we read the same exact book, it's gonna look different for everyone.

and people still say that reading is boring.

so real

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