My-little-universes - Live A Little.

BROO DID YALL SEE THE STRANGER THINGS SEASON FIVE ANNOUNCEMENT???

in case you haven't yet <3

part 1 - november 26th

part 2 - christmas day

the finale - new years eve

im SO beyond excited it looked fucking amazing and im hoping and wishing that the ending is good and they didn't absolutely butcher it. but dude. why the FUCK would they drop it NOW?????? SIX MONTHS???? 😆🔫

as ive said, im watching gilmore girls rn. and she's with logan and jess js showed up again. and OHHHH MAAAA GAWDDDD HES AMAZING??????? HES NOT A DOUCHEBAG???? AND HES SMART AND HE GOT HIMSELF TOGETHER AND FIXED HIMSELF UP?????? AND HE WROTE A BOOK AND CAME DOWN TO HAND DELIVER IT TO RORYY???????

HE. HAND. DELIVERED. IT. TO. RORY.

JESS SUPREMACY PLEASEEE >>>>>

reading books is so fun omg. even though it's the author that's wrote the words and the author directing how the story plays out, it's my mind that comes up with how the characters look and how the setting looks and how the characters talk and everything. no matter how well they describe it, my mind can make "beautiful brown curly hair that flows past her shoulders" look like a million different things. and so can yours. how fucking fun. even if we read the same exact book, it's gonna look different for everyone.

and people still say that reading is boring.

one of my pet peeves is when im telling a friend about a grade i got that im annoyed at, and they say like "oh that's so good, whyre you mad?" or "you should not be complaining about that😭" or smth. like ho, just cuz you get bad grades and are satisfied with the bare minimum doesn't mean i am😭😭.

got a 83 on a science test a bit ago, and i was telling my friend and she was like, "that's so good, i wish i would get grades like that in science. don't complain, that's a good grade." i was annoyed by the grade because that was the first b i had gotten in science, all year. like, yes im gonna complain😭

wtvr.

i dont think ill ever not be angry. genuinely. there's so many things that i wish were different, that i wish didn't happen, wish didn't exist - and i cant do anything about it.

im angry for the planet that is literally dying minute by minute and im angry for the women that are constantly oppressed all over the world and im angry for the animals that are losing their homes because of humans and im angry for the people that go home and have to genuinely decide whether their money is gonna go towards buying food or going to the doctor and im angry for the animals that are losing their lives or going extinct because of humans and im angry for the people that have lost their history or their land or their culture or their language or their way of life because of humans and im angry for the children that are dying all over the world because people dont know how to disagree without starting wars and im angry for the people that cant love who they want to love because of where they live and im angry for the people that hate the situation theyre in so much that they feel the only option is to kill themselves.

and thats all on a global scale, theres so much on a personal level that im angry for too.

im angry for my mother for the life she lives and im angry at my father for the way he chooses to live and im angry for my friend that's never been able to trust a boy without getting hurt and im angry for my other friend that feels the need to seek validation from a guy and im angry for my neighbor who's a mom of two kids and their father doesn't have a job and is always drinking and im angry for the kid down the street who is constantly and i mean constantly avoiding being in his house even when its so hot it feels like the earth has moved miles upon miles closer to the sun because his house is always loud and im angry for my friend who had to be in a class with their rapist and the administration did nothing about it.

and im angry for me because i really really dont think this'll ever change, there's so much for me to be angry about, and i dont like feeling angry because it reminds me of my father and im already too much alike him, but i dont think i can do anything about this anger, and im angry that i cant do anything about it.

WOULD YOU????

sure you can match my freak but would you write me a letter about our friendship before you died? would you remember the first time we met? would you know that you would follow me anywhere from the first time the i did something stupid in front of you? and would you? along with our entire dwindling group of friends? if you could do it all over again, would you? even if it meant you went insane and i killed you? would you not even change a thing???? would you know i would find a way to do what’s right because in your eyes i always have? would you tell me to take care of everyone else when your gone? to take care of myself? would you tell me i deserved to be happy, and thank me for being your friend??? and have a nickname for me?

i just can't understand the idea of "one night stands". sex is such an intimate thing, and to allow a rando who probably doesn't even know your favorite colour is so bizarre. to let someone see you naked and at your purest state when you don't even know what they wanted to be growing up. having a "one night stand" with someone SHOULD have strings attached. and the past people you've had sex with shouldn't be known as "bodies". they should be people you once truly cared for, not someone you saw at a club for the very first time. idk it's just so bizarre to me.

on self-love

?// @heavensghost // @roach-works //Richard Bach //?// @bakwaaas // @llleighsmith // Clarice Lispector// Anonymous

anytime i listen to the song "it's quiet uptown" from the hamilton playlist, i get so sad. the grief of losing a child is rippled throughout so well. the bit where hamilton says, "and i pray. that never used to happen before." is so strong. the part where the company says, "his hair has gone gray, he passes everyday, they say he walks the length of the city." is so powerful. the part where he talks to eliza, "if i could spare his life. if i could trade his life for mine, he'd be standing here right now, and you would smile, and that would be enough." is so heartbreaking. the part where angelica sings, "we push away the unimaginable." is so real. the part where eliza takes hamilton's hand in the garden, and sings, "it's quiet uptown." is so strong. the part where the company sings, "forgiveness. can you imagine? forgiveness." is so strong.

what a beautifully written song.