Midnights Is For The Girls Who Worked Hard To Get A Life Of Their Own, But Now Feel Empty, It's The Album

I’m sorry I’ve been gone. Here’s me trying to find my way back. In November I got an ADHD diagnosis that was 30 years overdue. I’ve been unpacking thoughts on ADHD, rejection sensitivity and friendship fails.

Day 68 • 100 Days of Productivity

some pictures from yesterday and today. we started using microscopes in bio lab yesterday, and WE ALL HAVE OUR OWN i’ve only ever had to share but i got one all to myself hell yeah. anyway, today i had precalc and took notes on the inverse of trigonometric function. finally i had my foundations of education class and we talked about assessments and we’ll start talking about grading next week. i have my practicum tomorrow instead of friday because friday is a county-wide teacher work day so i won’t have any classes i can observe.

🎶 get down - SIX: the musical 🎶

Fictional men who have the "it's ok to murder but it's never ok to disrespect your wife" energy >>>>

This morning I took myself for breakfast and spent until midday in the same spot reading The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath and working on a short story.

There'll be a moment when you realise you're 27 when yesterday you were just 17; and you wouldn't be able to tell how a decade passed away and your life got divided into before and afters. The fury of youth will subdue and nothing will really change but everything will feel different when you look at old photographs and blurry videos taken on cheap mobile phones. Scents will remind you of childhood and certain friends you don't talk to anymore, hangouts will become reunions and mom's burnt pie will become the best food you ever had. And I know on some days you won't be able to show anything of those 10 years but I hope you remember to breathe, and let go of the knot in your chest. I hope you go out in the sun and live a little, because tomorrow is 37.

Edit- I added the visualizer for this piece on my YT, check it out here

-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from The Flesh I Burned

one thing i need to start living by is “become the thing that you want” if i want friends who throw themed parties maybe i should start throwing those parties. if i want someone who writes me love letters maybe i should start writing letters for the people i love. if i want to hang out at museums and pretty cafes maybe i should invite my friends to these places. and maybe even then i won’t find the kind of people i want to be around. but then i would have become the exact person i want to be around. and maybe that’s good enough.

Crazy how I hate to live yet don't wanna die

i get so emotional when people acknowledge me when they don't need to like when i realise that i am a part of people's lives like idk not in a self-obsessed way but i feel like i spent a lot of time in my head and by myself that i forget myself in relation to others sometimes so it's really nice when people send me a little text or call me randomly <3