I Honestly Didn’t Think I Would Be Alive At My Age I Thought I Would’ve Been Dead By 20 So I Feel

do you want to be a bookstore owner, cafe owner or a flower shop owner

applying for academic jobs is a horrifying combo of forcing yourself to overinflate your accomplishments to show why you are the top qualified absolute total best choice for the position when you may be already fighting the uphill battle that is imposter syndrome and of embarrassing masochistic self-debasing near-begging for a job that may not actually even hit the self sufficiency income minimum in the area where the job is located

What does a PhD student need to do to get some money.... Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck this poverty is killing me.

Honestly, I miss undergrad me. Like where is the girl who took 18+ hours a semester, worked 30 hours a week, and suffered tragedy after tragedy and yet still got all of my work done and done well. Now I can’t even  concentrate…

General rule of thumb when getting info from academics: hold reservation on putting too much stock on anything they talk about that isn't in their wheelhouse. Like if a guy who specializes in chemistry makes statements about history, stick those in the "ask a historian about this later" box.

10/100 days of productivity 🐣 9/18/23

the first day of class was a success! i worked for 2.5 hours in the morning and then went to class, where i met an old friend. i got a bit sidetracked after class, so i ended up chatting with my friends for a while instead of doing my homework when i intended to. i still got all of my homework done by the evening, but tomorrow, i will try to stay on schedule so i can be more productive!

In love with the rain