Tydr2gun - Tyler Smiler

*walks out sweating, panting, covered in blood.* you should see the other guy *there is not other guy. i procrastinated a simple essay that took two hours of focused writing until the last hour even though i had a week to do it. it wasn't even hard. it was so easy. half of the essay was my class notes. no critical thought. somehow had the best conclusion ive ever pulled out my ass. this is the first of many essays of the semester.*

in an era 💭📓

09/17-18/23 ∘ day 6-7/100

it's been one week of this challenge and i'm slowly starting to get my a grip on my life. sun-mon i started training again, which felt really good, even though i can still feel some injuries. i'm also making progress on history, currently studying ch. 3/7.

i once again took a good look of my personal study plan. with my current schedule, which i'm working very hard to keep up on, i'll be done with history by the end of the week. next week i'll finish my literature course, and i've started working on my next math course, even though there are still a couple trigonometry assignments i should get done, or just decide to not do them and turn the course in. i think i'll give myself this week for the deadline and turn it in with the history course.

☽ my next goals ☾

theory ch. 3 (history) exercises ch. 1-3 (history) study diary assignment ch.1 (history) study diary (literature) book blog assignment (literature) ex. 1-19 (math) book ex. 1-22 (math)

study session ♡ 31.10.2023

goals :

Terminar de colocar os textos no canva

Fazer atividade extra da Gil

quick study tips now that I've almost finished my masters: follow study with me videos on youtube. download cold turkey website blocker on your laptop and liberate website blocker on your phone. chew gum while studying. play an instrument, knit/crochet, or move while on study breaks instead of going on your phone. always keep your study space clean. wear noise cancelling headphones with no music playing (that's my cue to focus). eat plenty always and bring snacks. know when to stop. learn when you focus best, and only plan to be able to work during those times- schedule errands / meetings / hobbies / rest during times when you know you won't be focused. schedule at least one full day per week where you have no responsibilities. if you're too tired to work, take a nap instead of sitting there numb and exhausted with dry eyes. you can skip class sometimes (trust me). know when "good enough" is enough (and when it's not).

We need to get a little uncomfortable for a minute. But it's ok. You have to be uncomfortable in order to grow.

You're going to fail. You're going to disappoint people and yourself. You're going to have moments where you're so overwhelmed that you're curled in a ball crying and frustrated. You're going to miss important milestones. You're going to drop the ball so many times things seem impossible. You're going to fail. You're going to be mean. You're going to be a bad person at points. It's life. It happens. You just need to understand that it happens. And on those days where you want to dissappear and never be seen again because everything is too much, your brain is going to amplify all these faults and failures and make them seem worse.

Babe. We all go through this. We ALL fail. We ALL make awful choices and fuck people and ourselves over. We ALL will have moments where we are the villains. Where we completely fail a lot of people in our lives due to bad decisions. It will happen. Probably multiple times. What matters is that you recognize these things and make appropriate changes in your life to help make sure that next time isn't as bad. Maybe start learning time management so you're not stressed constantly and blowing up on everyone. Maybe find a healthy outlet like painting or the gym or cooking. Find small, simple joys to make life better. It's going to suck. You're going to be the bad guy. But that's not your entire life.

It's uncomfortable and hard to sit with. Sometimes things are your fault. Sometimes you make bad choices and they fuck your life up and fuck others over at the same time. It happens. You can't change the past, but you have the power to change your future. You can change your future. Talk to people. Find yourself outlets. Learn skills. Things get better, but they only do so if you put the effort for them to do so. I love you. You're trying. And that's all you can do. And one day you'll slip backwards and feel so defeated but when that happens, you'll have many tools to help you get even further. I promise babe everything will be ok.

•T

Monday and Tuesday 10h at uni

I cant wait to get there again for next 4months and suffer 😍🫣..

Life will always take you back to the places and people where you need to learn your lesson from. Until you learn the lesson, you are going to continue to repeat the same behaviors and thought patterns. You have to break the cycle. If you are experiencing a setback or finding the same people in different bodies, it's time to stop and zoom out. Don't focus on the pain. Decide to get out of victim mode and look for the lesson in the situation. In order for your life to change you need to change who you are.

Create new healthy habits and a new mindset around the situation. Focus on things like discipline, repetition and consistency. But the most important is identity change. Identity change simply means seeing yourself embodying who you want to become and then aligning your behaviors behind that. And you can start doing that at any moment. You just need to make a decision that that is who you want to be, and proceed to living your life accordingly.

Do not spend another second thinking this is the life you are meant to lead. Do not accept the cards you are currently holding because at the end of the day it's YOU holding the cards. Take your power back. Take your life back. Take control of the situation at hand and play a different game this time.