13.10.23, Friday

i love to wait for the hype for a movie / show / book to die down before consuming it myself. like this super popular restaurant has finally emptied and i am the only one dining here and i feel like the whole place belongs to me and me only. kind of like that

08.08.2022 | i’m winding up to submit my masters thesis at the end of the month 🌷

*walks out sweating, panting, covered in blood.* you should see the other guy *there is not other guy. i procrastinated a simple essay that took two hours of focused writing until the last hour even though i had a week to do it. it wasn't even hard. it was so easy. half of the essay was my class notes. no critical thought. somehow had the best conclusion ive ever pulled out my ass. this is the first of many essays of the semester.*

There are no secrets to success. It is the result of preparation, hard work, and learning from failure.

30-10-2023 → 1-11-2023

as october ends and the final month of struggle (so far 😆) begins it finally started feeling properly like autumn.

I think I'll never be prepared enough so I'll just have to give it my best shot

Sometimes you just have to look at someone who’s being unnecessarily rude or unkind or hostile towards you & wrinkle your nose & go “it’s not that deep. you’re so weird for thinking it’s that deep” & then go back to your happy fulfilling life that will forever be independent of how people perceive u

Life will always take you back to the places and people where you need to learn your lesson from. Until you learn the lesson, you are going to continue to repeat the same behaviors and thought patterns. You have to break the cycle. If you are experiencing a setback or finding the same people in different bodies, it's time to stop and zoom out. Don't focus on the pain. Decide to get out of victim mode and look for the lesson in the situation. In order for your life to change you need to change who you are.

Create new healthy habits and a new mindset around the situation. Focus on things like discipline, repetition and consistency. But the most important is identity change. Identity change simply means seeing yourself embodying who you want to become and then aligning your behaviors behind that. And you can start doing that at any moment. You just need to make a decision that that is who you want to be, and proceed to living your life accordingly.

Do not spend another second thinking this is the life you are meant to lead. Do not accept the cards you are currently holding because at the end of the day it's YOU holding the cards. Take your power back. Take your life back. Take control of the situation at hand and play a different game this time.