Tydr2gun - Tyler Smiler

What does a PhD student need to do to get some money.... Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck this poverty is killing me.

2.23.23

trying to figure out how to keep productivity moving in grad school. I’m still trying to decide if planning out my weeks like this is useful or stressful, as invariably things change. On the other hand, I’m not worried about trying to figure out when to do things when I do this.

Sometimes you just have to look at someone who’s being unnecessarily rude or unkind or hostile towards you & wrinkle your nose & go “it’s not that deep. you’re so weird for thinking it’s that deep” & then go back to your happy fulfilling life that will forever be independent of how people perceive u

Honestly, I miss undergrad me. Like where is the girl who took 18+ hours a semester, worked 30 hours a week, and suffered tragedy after tragedy and yet still got all of my work done and done well. Now I can’t even  concentrate…

I heard so many people talk about romanticizing your life and at first it was annoying but then I was eating an apple and it was red and sweet and I was making an effort to conciously and slowly enjoy my apple because that's what my therapist told me to try to be more in the moment and it was the best apple I ever ate. I ate it slow and really payed attention to the sweetness and the sourness and I was sitting outside under some trees and there was a breeze and I thought: This is a perfect moment, and one day I will wish I had the opportunity to sit here and conciously eat this apple and be happy. Anyways. Try making a big deal out of small things.

Day 68 • 100 Days of Productivity

some pictures from yesterday and today. we started using microscopes in bio lab yesterday, and WE ALL HAVE OUR OWN i’ve only ever had to share but i got one all to myself hell yeah. anyway, today i had precalc and took notes on the inverse of trigonometric function. finally i had my foundations of education class and we talked about assessments and we’ll start talking about grading next week. i have my practicum tomorrow instead of friday because friday is a county-wide teacher work day so i won’t have any classes i can observe.

🎶 get down - SIX: the musical 🎶

applying for academic jobs is a horrifying combo of forcing yourself to overinflate your accomplishments to show why you are the top qualified absolute total best choice for the position when you may be already fighting the uphill battle that is imposter syndrome and of embarrassing masochistic self-debasing near-begging for a job that may not actually even hit the self sufficiency income minimum in the area where the job is located